I naturally want to eat more fresh things and less stodge. I`m also trying to eat more of my fruit and veg raw (for health reasons, not for weight loss).

Been around 59 for a couple of weeks now and am extremely happy with my new lowest weight!

Although I stopped at the end of the year at 60-61kg, I always said maybe I`ll fancy dropping a bit more for summer, and I won`t be upset if it happens.

Of course, I won`t want to lose weight indefinitely (even though it`s great to do so without trying) as I definitely don`t want to become thin!

I was one of them.

Having been dieting and maintaining for a year in total (I started after returning from my Easter holiday), I feel that the opposite is the case. The more comfortable I became with the regime and the more weight I lost the more I find I can enjoy food, and I think the reason is that food is no longer a threat to me.

Take 74kg-me in a restaurant, for example. I carefully chose what I would feel least guilty for afterwards, but afterwards, I`d find that I still ate more than I would have at home and still felt guilty. I`d try to compensate the next day by eating less and excercise extra hard. I always had a “fat day” after being to a restaurant. Besides, I`d check out other women and almost hated them for being slender and showing it off.

59kg-me is totally different. Having learnt to handle food I confidently chose what fits my regime and, within these parameters, what I fancy most on the day. Being confdent that my body can handle everything within these parameters (to me, that`s low carb at night) I enjoy my food and feel no guilt afterwards. I don`t feel a need to make up afterwards because I have not broken the diet. I don`t need to envy slender women because I`m one of them.

Or take baking. I always wanted to learn to bake but fat me was worried that she would lose it if there was cake in the house and eat herself to the size of a house. Now that I am slender *and* have learnt how to handle food, I have started to bake. Since Saturday lunch time, we have a cheesecake in the fridge, and I just had my second slice, having flly enjoyed every morsel of it.

I certainly feel dieting and slimming has enhanced rather than reduced my enjoyment of food.

I have neither tried to cut down nor eaten excessively, but my most recent weigh ins are as follows:

Sunday 11th April - 60,4kg

Tuesday 13th April - 59,8kg

Friday 16th April - 60,2kg

Saturday 17th April - 59,8kg

Sunday 18th April - 59,2kg

Monday 19th April - 58,9kg

Although I stopped trying at the beginning of the year, I`ve always said if I dropped some more weight, I woudl not complain… Nice one for summer!

I haven`t been for ages, and usually (e.g. with previous diet blogs I had) this would have been a sure sign that I have put on and was struggling. Actually, I was just very busy. I`ll try to post more often again from now on!

I have lost a little more weight and would now consider myself a neat 60kg - sometimes 59.8kg, sometimes 60.2kg. I haven`t even been trying, but come the nice weather, I want to be outside more and eat lighter things.

I`ve also been home in between and, admittedly, enjoyed the family`s reaction. Although my transformation is not stunning, it`s very noticeable!

I`m almost done clearing my summer wardrobe and was delighted to find that I need a few things - so looking forward to going out shopping! I have treated myself to a new dress before the holidays, an expensive one, and I felt like a million dollars wearing it! Now that I`m a size I would like to remain, I am looking forward to spending more on my clothes, so I can buy more classy things in a better quality! Life`s wonderful in that area!

I soooo enjoy looking forward to the summer w/a having to worry about my figure !:-)

Last measuring:

weight: 60,6kg

waist: 72.5cm

belly: 93.5cm

hips: 96.5cm

thighs: 56.5cm and 57.5cm

today:

weight: 60,8kg (+200g) 

waist: 72cm (- 0.5cm) 

belly: 94cm (+ 0.5cm)

hips: 98cm (+ 1.5cm) 

thighs: 56cm and 57cm (-1cm each)

I see I`ve lost in some places, too, but I want to get the belly and hips down again (constipation?). Then again, measuring is never that accurate, but I suppose I`m still very much obsessive?

At least I ran lat night. Dared to go onto the scales beforehand and instantly felt better. I was expecting to get my period, but obviously not, so all the carbs for nothing, haha!

I`m toying again with raw food, but I know that this is directly related to my weight. When I have gained, I am keen, and when I`m down to lowest weight again, it doesn`t seem all that important any more.

Discovered that peanut butter on banana kills cravings. But it has to be a decent coating, not a thin scraping. Yes, sure, this has calories, but how many calories would you eat if you started on the biscuits?

Did well with sensible eating and plenty “informal” excercise. Only had one roll when I easily could have two. It really is possible to restrain yourself. I`ve done it when I started the programme, and I have now started to do it again.

Day 6:

60.8kg - hooray, the 60 is back! Again, restrained myself to one roll for breakfast, saying to myself that I could come back for more. I didn`t because I then get caught up in other things, but I had an early dinner (naughty, but  nice) which I felt good about. Been shopping, so again plenty walking about and moving about.

Day 7:

61kg. Bah. Will have plenty distraction today, so I`m sure it will be a good day.

Have a good start into your week, everybody!

Scales could not decide between 61,8 and 62kg. I was so disappointed! Not desperate, as I knew that I had eaten well, butI  had really hoped for this to be confirmed by the scales.

I reminded myself that I had been a little stressed recently and was a bit constipated and decided to eat particularly well that day. Muesli in the morning, rest of veg, fruit and a bun for lunch (I couldn`t not because I had asked my colleague to buy me one the day before) and a light dinner of baked camembert and salad. No formal excercise, because I had been much more active than usual all day.

day 6

61,2kg. Phew. I`ve been on the loo yesterday and again this morning *after* weigh in, so I hope tomorrow, I`ll be under 61 again.

I`m going away in 3 weeks time which will be interesting as I have not seen my family for a while. They don`t know me at my current weight and not everyone knows that I have continued losing at all. I want to look and feel great, and I want to be able to have a few treats with them without worrying about my weight!

Summer, here we come, and I`m sooo grateful that I no longer have to fret about losing 30lb!!!