Colonic Hydrotherapy II

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I`ve been yesterday!:-)  And I can recommend it! :-)

Really - there is no pain whatsoever, just some sensation that something is going on in your insides. For most of the time I felt like I wanted to pass wind, but the therapist mentioned this beforehand, stating that I need not hold on or let go of anything. The size of the tube was not a problem at all (she used a lubricant), apart from the psychological bit (I was very concerned that it may come out “dirty”, but it still looked the same.). I was lying on my back, knees bent, and the therapist massaged my tummy while we chatted and lukewarm water ran into and out of me, carrying out lumps of waste material.

The therapist explained to me what she could see in the tube, and it was all very healthy apart from a few bubbles on the inside of the tube which indicates a slight imbalance of gut bacteria. I do not have candida and my tummy seems strong. I always worried about candida, so hearing this was lovely! :-)

Although I have heard that some people initially need some 6 sessions spaced 2 weeks apart (£££), the therapist recommended that I need 3x a year at the most, for maintenance and MOT. Although I could not have afforded so many sessions it was lovely to hear that there is no need! I`d consider going again in a year.

We have a very strong family history of bowel problems (my uncle is dying from colon cancer:-() so it does matter to me! Also, I have heard that you do not absorb your nutrients as well if you have too much old matter in your colon!

Anyway - I did not feel the elating emptiness that so many report, but it was elating indeed to hear that there was no real need to have the procedure in the first place!

Oh - and just because this is my weight loss blog - none experienced this morning.

thoughts about weight loss at 66kg

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Since overcoming my plateau, I seem to continue to lose without having to work at it.

At least, that`s how it seems as my healthy eating regime has become the norm for me. I do not need to change a thing and continue to lose weight.

This morning, I weighed exactly 66kg. I can`t remember when I last weighed that. 5 years, ago, I got down to 66.2kg due to illness, which I had not weihed for years.

Another 10-12kg and I`ll be at goal! Suddenly, it seems within reach!

It`ll probably take more than another 10 weeks but hopefully not as long as Christmas…

 

week 10: -0.2kg

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Very happy with myself! I`m pleased whenever I have maintained and am not anxious about losing or gaining a bit.

When I measured this morning I compared with what I used to be like. Holding the tape around my hips, stomach, waist and legs and extending it to where I was really brought it home. Although the numbers seem fairly small, optically, the difference really is significant! (On the other hand, i see why people around me may not yet see the difference.)

My measurements:

Stats at beginning, 4 weeks ago:

weight: 71,6kg

waist: 87.5cm

belly: 107cm

hips: 108cm

stats today (end of week 8):

weight: 66,6kg (-5,0kg)

waist: 81,5cm (-5.0)

belly: 102.5cm (-4.5)

hips: 103cm (-5)

thighs: 61cm and 62.5cm (-1.5 and -2.5cm)

I told my sister how much I weigh because she asked me. Felt sort of guilty, because she wants to lose so much more than me, yet, it`s not happening for her. I`d so want to help her but her desperation seems to paralyse her.

OT: Relationship Counselling

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Counselling was absolutely amazing last night. I got loads out of this third session and will now need to string it all together for next Thursday, in order to be able to work further on this issue.

I start to apprecite that I am in control, too, and not just him. I have choices, I can influence, I can refuse.

I am excited and want to talk about it constantly, write about it and grab every thought as it floats around my head, to make sure that I will never lose it again. (Would this be a topic to merit its own blog?)

The Gaze (2)

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Now, I met my friends on Sunday. Noone mentioned my weight loss. I pointed it out to one friend who told the other, but the one who I first expected to jump at it remained silent and un-appreciating.

I resumed work yesterday after 2 weeks off. I had not seen one colleague for over 6 weeks (she was on a seminar in another town) and had expected her (and everybody else) to notice. Nada. Noone passed a comment.

I hate to admit it but I am disappointed. I feel so ready for The Gaze!

I wore all new clothes, but maybe the floaty top is not the right garment to show it off? Part of me wants to go in something fitted tomorrow, but the other part of me is too proud to force it onto them. When they finally notice, they will be amazed about how much weight I have lost without them even noticing…

Colonic Hydrotherapy

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I finally booked myself in for a treatment today, and I`m going next Monday!!

Since seeing this procedure being used in a TV programme to kickstart a detox/weight loss regime, I have always been interested, in principle, but too tight and too embarrassed to actually experience it.

You supposedly feel really good, “clean” and energetic afterwards and somehow, all websites mention an “increased motivation to eat healthily”! I feel I`m doing well at the moment, and I was just about to use this as an excuse to postpone it once again. Then again, next week will be tough temptation-wise, as I`ll be exposed to several situations which will usually make me want to binge. So I can definitely do with the extra motivation!!

The Gaze (thoughts at 66.8kg)

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I got to the point where everything seems to be happening at once. Pounds are dropping, clothes are widening, and I soon expect the first comments from other people, e.g. when I return to work tomorrow after 2 weeks, and this afternoon when I`m meeting my friends.

I`m desperate to find out what they say. 3 of them know that I am trying. Of those, two are very supportive and one not so much, but she has noticed first, more than 5lb ago. I have not seen the 4th friend since February and am desperate to see her face. She is one of those women who *always* asks me whether I have lost weight, just to be polite, because she knows it`s a soft spot.

My husband is not saying anything yet, which sort of irritates me. Of course, he knows what I am doing and roughly how much I have lost, and when I cannot contain my excitement I even go as far as showing him the gap in my waist band. But he never, ever commented that I look good or that he sees that I got thinner.

I cannot help but being disappointed, but then again - he never ever said a thing when I gained more than 15kg during our 9-year relationship…

week 9: -1kg

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After weeks and weeks of plateauing, it finally seems to be happening again for me!

As usual, I am eating less since I am on holiday, having a late breakfast and my dinner only. In between, it will often be nothing or only fruit. I have been too busy. Twice, we ate at 4pm and then skipped dinner.

Although it`ll have aided my weight loss short term I`m fully aware that it won`t be good for me long term. In order to lose weight, I have to eat, otherwise my metabolism won`t thank me. As of next week, I`ll be back to work and naturally back to three square meals a day.

I`ll also be back to a more sedentary lifestyle and need to start prioritising excercising again. With all the running about I have been doing in the last two weeks I did not feel too guilty about putting it on the back burner, but spending so much time sitting on my bum, I normally cannot afford that.

Actually, I would not mind taking another break (if I don`t gain it back, that is!!). I have had a break of some 5 weeks and then lost 3lb in a bit more than a week. If I`ll now stay there I`d be quite relaxed about it. It`s got to be sustainable!

Actually, clothes have started to become an issue, too. I enjoy being able to button up my jacket and look good in it but my trousers are screaming for a belt, and when I put this on, the front button moves below the belt making me look like a woman who cannot afford clothes that fit! Not a good look!

My lovely cream coloured bra is becoming too big. I`ll now use the middle hooks but also the cups are… somewhat empty. I bought this bra, alongside another one, about a year ago and only wore it a few times. Too nice to be worn, to be kept for good. Something I now regret… :-(

I should wear all my clothes to the max, for as long as they will last. (Meanwhile, I`ll need to think about how to be able to afford a new wardrobe.)

week 8: -0.8kg

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I weighed 67,8kg this morning and am therefore at a new low!

Has the plateau ended, and will I now continue to lose? I did not really deserve it this week and was a bit apprehensive before steppling onto the scales. We had a 2-day family get-together and were fed well!

My measurements:

Stats at beginning, 4 weeks ago:

weight: 71,6kg

waist: 87.5cm

belly: 107cm

hips: 108cm

stats today (end of week 8):

weight: 67,8kg (-3,8kg)

waist: 83,5cm (-4.0)

belly: 103cm (-4)

hips: 105cm (-3)

thighs: 61cm and 62.5cm (-1.5 and -2.5cm)

I was clothes shopping and got myself 4 pieces - was not going to buy much before I reach my goal size, but the clothes were cheap and beautiful, besides, I am hovering at around the same weight for some 4 weeks now.

What did I find difficult?

The apprehension of the family get together - I knew that there would be lots of food, however it did not make me feel *hugely* anxious, just a little.

What helped?

Being busy and well entertained - no boredom eating. All the food I had was of good quality, apart from the banoffee pie!!

What motivated me?

I felt sleek and sophisticated in what I wore at the family get together. I enjoy feeling slim and well dressed, and experiencing this feeling reminded me once more of the importance of making up for the 2 days of gorging. It so reminded me that I enjoy this confident feeling much, much more than I enjoy  banoffee pie! Of course, I can have the pie every day while opportunities for feeling so gorgeous are much more rare! However, as I get to become more gorgeous, I get to feel more gorgeous more frequently, until I feel gorgeous *all the time*!

 

week 7: +0.4kg

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What did I find difficult?

See previous post. Had actually gained a whole kg but have lost part of it again. I was not going to fret about small number any more, but found it very upsetting.

What helped?

The same thing which I found difficult, really. I knew that I had become a bit more lax, and it was good to be reminded of the importance of sticking at it.

What motivated me?

The statement I heard on telly: “I won`t let my appetite determine what clothes I fit in!”

People (who are not usually that disciplined) restraining themselves at the buffet and did not touch the leftover cakes.

My colleague giving me a pair of trousers which were too large for her - she is is tiny, and the trousers fit me just so. A few weeks ago, there would have been too small for me. I know that this would have made me feel really bad, e.g. what`s too large for her is still too small for me. So it was lovely to be able to accept them from her, and, btw, they are really lovely, too!

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