3 May: 58.2kg

Posted by stellachiara on May 3rd, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

A new lowest weight ever! Spring appears to become me!

I naturally want to eat more fresh things and less stodge. I`m also trying to eat more of my fruit and veg raw (for health reasons, not for weight loss).

Been around 59 for a couple of weeks now and am extremely happy with my new lowest weight!

Although I stopped at the end of the year at 60-61kg, I always said maybe I`ll fancy dropping a bit more for summer, and I won`t be upset if it happens.

Of course, I won`t want to lose weight indefinitely (even though it`s great to do so without trying) as I definitely don`t want to become thin!

dieting, weight loss and enjoying food

Posted by stellachiara on April 20th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

Many people subconsciously sabotage themselves because they think dieting and maintaining a slim weight means never being able to enjoy food again.

I was one of them.

Having been dieting and maintaining for a year in total (I started after returning from my Easter holiday), I feel that the opposite is the case. The more comfortable I became with the regime and the more weight I lost the more I find I can enjoy food, and I think the reason is that food is no longer a threat to me.

Take 74kg-me in a restaurant, for example. I carefully chose what I would feel least guilty for afterwards, but afterwards, I`d find that I still ate more than I would have at home and still felt guilty. I`d try to compensate the next day by eating less and excercise extra hard. I always had a “fat day” after being to a restaurant. Besides, I`d check out other women and almost hated them for being slender and showing it off.

59kg-me is totally different. Having learnt to handle food I confidently chose what fits my regime and, within these parameters, what I fancy most on the day. Being confdent that my body can handle everything within these parameters (to me, that`s low carb at night) I enjoy my food and feel no guilt afterwards. I don`t feel a need to make up afterwards because I have not broken the diet. I don`t need to envy slender women because I`m one of them.

Or take baking. I always wanted to learn to bake but fat me was worried that she would lose it if there was cake in the house and eat herself to the size of a house. Now that I am slender *and* have learnt how to handle food, I have started to bake. Since Saturday lunch time, we have a cheesecake in the fridge, and I just had my second slice, having flly enjoyed every morsel of it.

I certainly feel dieting and slimming has enhanced rather than reduced my enjoyment of food.

lost more weight!

Posted by stellachiara on April 19th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

It seems like my body has decided to drop another few pounds. Oftentimes in the last few weeks, I felt I have gained (albeit temporarily) without any obvious reasons (see previous entries), but at the moment, I feel that the opposite is true.

I have neither tried to cut down nor eaten excessively, but my most recent weigh ins are as follows:

Sunday 11th April - 60,4kg

Tuesday 13th April - 59,8kg

Friday 16th April - 60,2kg

Saturday 17th April - 59,8kg

Sunday 18th April - 59,2kg

Monday 19th April - 58,9kg

Although I stopped trying at the beginning of the year, I`ve always said if I dropped some more weight, I woudl not complain… :-) Nice one for summer!

long time no see…

Posted by stellachiara on April 17th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

I`m alive!

I haven`t been for ages, and usually (e.g. with previous diet blogs I had) this would have been a sure sign that I have put on and was struggling. Actually, I was just very busy. I`ll try to post more often again from now on!

I have lost a little more weight and would now consider myself a neat 60kg - sometimes 59.8kg, sometimes 60.2kg. I haven`t even been trying, but come the nice weather, I want to be outside more and eat lighter things.

I`ve also been home in between and, admittedly, enjoyed the family`s reaction. Although my transformation is not stunning, it`s very noticeable! :-)

I`m almost done clearing my summer wardrobe and was delighted to find that I need a few things - so looking forward to going out shopping! :-) I have treated myself to a new dress before the holidays, an expensive one, and I felt like a million dollars wearing it! Now that I`m a size I would like to remain, I am looking forward to spending more on my clothes, so I can buy more classy things in a better quality! Life`s wonderful in that area!

I soooo enjoy looking forward to the summer w/a having to worry about my figure !:-)

week 3: 60.8kg

Posted by stellachiara on March 20th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

I measured this morning and appear to have gained a bit in a few places.

Last measuring:

weight: 60,6kg

waist: 72.5cm

belly: 93.5cm

hips: 96.5cm

thighs: 56.5cm and 57.5cm

today:

weight: 60,8kg (+200g) 

waist: 72cm (- 0.5cm) 

belly: 94cm (+ 0.5cm)

hips: 98cm (+ 1.5cm) 

thighs: 56cm and 57cm (-1cm each)

I see I`ve lost in some places, too, but I want to get the belly and hips down again (constipation?). Then again, measuring is never that accurate, but I suppose I`m still very much obsessive?

day 10 - 11

Posted by stellachiara on March 20th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

As usual after the bingeing, I was determined to do better, but blew it by lunch time on both days. I definitely have to restrain myself on peanut butter. Once I start, I`m a bottomless hole. 100g isn`t that much, but it`s 600 calories. Plus the oatcakes I was spreading it onto.

At least I ran lat night. Dared to go onto the scales beforehand and instantly felt better. I was expecting to get my period, but obviously not, so all the carbs for nothing, haha!

I`m toying again with raw food, but I know that this is directly related to my weight. When I have gained, I am keen, and when I`m down to lowest weight again, it doesn`t seem all that important any more.

day 9: binge

Posted by stellachiara on March 17th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

I`m about to get my period, and all I did today was eat. I did nothing to prevent it either. What the… Tomorrow, it`s back to normal but today, it`s what I chose to do.

days 7-8: peanut butter

Posted by stellachiara on March 17th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 1 Comment

No weigh in as premenstrual.

Discovered that peanut butter on banana kills cravings. But it has to be a decent coating, not a thin scraping. Yes, sure, this has calories, but how many calories would you eat if you started on the biscuits?

day 5-7: 61kg

Posted by stellachiara on March 15th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 25 Comments

Day 5:

Did well with sensible eating and plenty “informal” excercise. Only had one roll when I easily could have two. It really is possible to restrain yourself. I`ve done it when I started the programme, and I have now started to do it again.

Day 6:

60.8kg - hooray, the 60 is back! :-) Again, restrained myself to one roll for breakfast, saying to myself that I could come back for more. I didn`t because I then get caught up in other things, but I had an early dinner (naughty, but  nice) which I felt good about. Been shopping, so again plenty walking about and moving about.

Day 7:

61kg. Bah. Will have plenty distraction today, so I`m sure it will be a good day. :-)

Have a good start into your week, everybody!

week 2: 61,2kg

Posted by stellachiara on March 13th, 2010 |Filed Under Uncategorized | 46 Comments

Day 5

Scales could not decide between 61,8 and 62kg. I was so disappointed! Not desperate, as I knew that I had eaten well, butI  had really hoped for this to be confirmed by the scales.

I reminded myself that I had been a little stressed recently and was a bit constipated and decided to eat particularly well that day. Muesli in the morning, rest of veg, fruit and a bun for lunch (I couldn`t not because I had asked my colleague to buy me one the day before) and a light dinner of baked camembert and salad. No formal excercise, because I had been much more active than usual all day.

day 6

61,2kg. Phew. I`ve been on the loo yesterday and again this morning *after* weigh in, so I hope tomorrow, I`ll be under 61 again.

I`m going away in 3 weeks time which will be interesting as I have not seen my family for a while. They don`t know me at my current weight and not everyone knows that I have continued losing at all. I want to look and feel great, and I want to be able to have a few treats with them without worrying about my weight!

Summer, here we come, and I`m sooo grateful that I no longer have to fret about losing 30lb!!!


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