Hello. I’d like to be thin, please!

17 Aug, 2012

So here I am….again.

Posted by: beescwee In: Uncategorized

I’ve been ill this last week, and have lost 11lbs as a result! This seems like as good a time as any to sort my s**t out. Another good reason is because I’ve just turned 27. 27! Growing up, I always imagined 27 to be the year I got married, the year I settled down to begin my adult life in a real job, the year I’d start having children….the year I’d be thinner. But I’m not. In fact, before this 11lb loss, I was heavier than ever. I’m beginning to age and my overweight parts are beginning to droop. Not cool. This is my last gasp before the age of 27 comes and goes in the very same manner as the previous years of my life. I have this year. Next summer I will still be 27. Next summer I will graduate, beginning the next stage of my life. Next year we can get married and start having children. It’s not all bad! Because I have this time. In the same way that I do most things, I’ve waited until the last possible moment to get things done. I do not want to be a fat bride. I do not want to be a fat mother.

The game’s up! It’s now or never!

(Help!)

20 Mar, 2010

Posted by: beescwee In: Uncategorized

What can I do to motivate myself? Why can’t I fix the way I feel? Why do I have a complete obsession with food? I’m going out for a birthday tonight. To a pizza place. Great. Man, I’m so depressed.

13 Mar, 2010

Ugh.

Posted by: beescwee In: Uncategorized

I disgust myself. I really do. My “challenge” lasted a grand total of one day. ONE DAY! At the moment I just want to ignore the weight loss forum, and ignore this blog. But I know that would be a big mistake. Even if while I’m off track I still post about it, then it’s like I’m not ignoring what I’m supposed to be doing. Or something.

I don’t know what it is that’s changed. I haven’t gained any weight back, which is a blessing. But at the same time, I’m wondering, if I were to put on a few pounds, maybe I would panic and start dieting properly again! Who knows. My plan for today is when I get hungry later (I haven’t eaten anything yet), I’ll have a bit of houmous, salad and some seeded wholemeal bagel, and I promised my boyfriend I’d make him fajitas tonight, so I’ll just have one open flat tortilla with some chicken veg and salad on it. Oh, who am I kidding? I’ll probably have a little bit of low fat creme fraiche and a sprinke of cheese too.

27 Feb, 2010

Time for a challenge!

Posted by: beescwee In: Uncategorized

One of my friends I hadn’t seen for a while commented on my weight loss! It made me feel a bit uncomfortable, but pleased nonetheless! It’s good to hear it from someone else when you don’t feel any different yourself. After she said it I came home and searched for some old photos of me. In every single one that I found I looked miserable. My skin was all spotty (thanks, contraceptive implant) and I just looked like I wanted to cry. It made me sad, but also encouraged. It doesn’t need to be that way!!!! (woohoo!)

I’ve decided to set myself a challenge. The idea is taken from a thread posted recently on 3fatchicks. Basically I want to try and do some form of exercise every day. I’m going to try it for just a week to start with. If I can manage that I’ll be ecstatic! I haven’t been to the gym for yonks. Looking forward to getting back to it! Today I’m going to do my callanetics dvd. Just thinking about it makes me tired….

YAWN!

26 Feb, 2010

Start walking, lazy woman!

Posted by: beescwee In: Uncategorized

So I’ve already lost 38 pounds. Go me! I’m very proud, but after going on holiday this month I have strayed off track! I can still see the track, I’m just hiding in a bush beside it, eating truffles and scowling at it every so often…

I suppose, looking at it like a wee road isn’t such a bad idea. I mean, I could stay in this bush with all the food…but I wouldn’t get anywhere! In order to see what’s at the end of the road I need to get up off my bum and start walking. It will be difficult. I’ll be like a rambler pausing to pick berries every five minutes. Somewhere along the way I hope to stop wishing that at the end will be chocolate!

Anyway, hello everyone (i.e. nobody)!


  • Burle: Managed the whole Callanetics evolution DVD last night. Suspicious lack of soreness today. Think prefer the original. RIP Callan Pickney
  • kisskiss: I totally can relate to everything you are saying. I am 25, and I feel like I am not really where I want to be in my life. What are you doing to lose
  • JustCallMeCow: Sometimes we're just not in the right frame of mind for weight loss =/ I've definitely been there. Just take it one day at a time. I know that's a rep