This time it’s for real

Man I am SO thankful it’s Friday… I’m tired (so what else is freaking new right), I’m not feeling well- I swear my body is trying to get sick), and I’m slammed with work. I’ve been given four projects to complete and I’m like OMG when do you want this again!? lol. 1 is easy I’ll have done today, the other two will take some work and the last one will take me forever, I’m putting that one off till last cuz I’ll probably have to head over to UCSD and go through a few of the libraries to get all the articles. I’d say that’ll take me a few days as well.

Today is another busy day at work, I already made up 10 “suspect” rape kits. Talk about sexist- the male kits are called “suspect” and the female kits are called “victim.” I told my boss they should just be called male and female rape kits. Call me anal but suspect and victim just doesn’t sound right to me lol.

Saturday night going out to the Shout House woo! It’s going to be a BLAST. I’ve been there a few times before and always loved it. It’s basically a big bar and there are two guys on stage playing the piano and singing. They’ll play whatever you want for a small fee- cuz that’s how the pianists earn their money- totally fair IMO. It’s fully of raunchy jokes and if it’s your birthday they’ll embarass you on stage- good times We reserved for a party of 8 and I had to pay for that reservation. $40 which isn’t bad but everyone better show! lol. I brought a friend of mine and my sister has 5 friends coming. I can’t wait If you still aren’t sure about the Shout House- here’s a picture to indicate just how much fun it is lol.

Not much else to say today- tons to do so I’m going to go read your posts and get to work!

Eh… You all know I work in forensics and currently I’m trying to get a position as a full criminalist and not an assistant. Well let me tell you it is NOT easy at all. Besides the fact you have to be really smart and work your ASS off, it’s hard to find a good paying position when hundreds of people apply for the same job you do AND most likely you WILL have to travel to the area. That’s where I’m at today- I got a message the other night for a position I applied for in November. I have to fly to San Francisco, CA on Friday, December 18th for a written exam and I will also need to rent a car. I’m not driving because it’s an 8 hour drive and I don’t want to put 1,000 miles on my car in one trip and have to deal with 16 hours of driving for a test. 8 hours of driving sounds EXHAUSTING as it is…

So I booked a flight ($210 with Southwest Airlines) and got a rental car ($35 with Dollar car). I’ve taken that Friday off- I’ll be flying to SF Friday morning at 6:45 am and I’ll be taking the test at 11 am and my return flight is at 6 pm. I chose a later flight home because I want to make sure that I have plenty of time to take the test. I’m taking my crochet with me to keep busy.

The test is going to cover Forensic Biology and Blood Alcohol/Toxicology- yeah does not sound fun! I have the next two weeks to study my BUTT off and then from there hopefully hear back for an interview- to which I’ll probably have to fly out AGAIN… But that’s the name of the game- unless you want to wait around forever to get a position in your city- and even then it’s not guaranteed you’ll get something. But if you don’t spend some money and get yourself out there then you’ll never get where you want to be!

Anyways- yesterday was another good eating day overall- I did take my brother out for dinner and he also wanted mexican- in fact we went to the same place lol! This time I had water with my meal and I had a fish taco with rice and beans. Man that fish taco was good… Woke up this morning at the same weight as yesterday so that’s not too bad- but now birthdays are out of the way also YAY!

When I got home and spoke with two clients and worked on a client’s site- it’s about 80% complete at this point. It should be done next week and then I’ll get paid the rest of the balance- WOOT! I’m frustrated with our other client cuz he asked me for a certain layout- and then I did what he’s asked- I’ve worked on the site a month- so he then tells me he wants something else and shows me an example from another site. I’m like dude I just spent a MONTH on this… *sigh* So I told him he can change it up this one time- but if he makes me scratch something again after working on it a month I’ll be charging him an additional $200. He didn’t seem happy about that but it’s like really- I showed him the basic layout weeks ago and he said yes- I don’t want him to do it to me again. I told him if I show you a layout and you don’t like it- don’t make me work on it- let me get something else! My husband wants to give him his money back, I’m like uh no…. I know for sure he’d want it all back and we’ve done too much work IMO to give it all back!

I had a terrible headache all day yesterday (nothing seemed to work) and usually when I get like that I know I’m getting sick. Sure enough I woke up with a sore throat! My body is just asking for illness it seems! I’m not sucking on halls and downing “tylenol sore throat.” I had made a salad for lunch today but changed my mind cuz that just sounds scary today lol. I’m going to go to the convenience store next door and see if I can find a soup that’ll be okay to eat today. I’m not eating my usual breakfast of a whole wheat bagel with laughing cow cheese but instead some babybel soft cheese and a banana- yeah I know- breakfast of champions lol.

Not much else to report- really I think I’ve said it all except my blood type: B negative if you were curious!

Have a great day everyone I’ve got some meetings today and then afterwards I’ll come check on your blogs!

Anyone else watch the Biggest Loser last night? Like Rudy and the others, I asked myself why I lost control and went overboard, then I blogged and LindaT said: “it is a new day and yes forgive yourself, but unless we have a plan of action we are doomed to keep repeating the pattern…”

And she’s right- of course she’s right. So I sat down and was like okay- what happened?

Thinking back I ate out quite a bit honestly do to the stress of my MOM. There was a lot of arguing at home, there was a lot of leaving the house to avoid confrontation, and cuz of that there was very little cooking and working out…. Not to mention my mom’s cooking isn’t exactly the healthiest for me carb-wise.

I’m not blaming my mother for all of my over-eating but honestly her two week visit was VERY stressful to me and I think part of the reason I overate quite a bit. I love my mother but I don’t like her because she argues with me about everything. Even if I just say “okay mom, yes, I’ll do that” or “yes you are right” or whatever it’s still an argument. To the point where I have to yell at her “STOP- can you just STOP? What more do you want from me? I said OKAY…” I also think the other part is just the exhaustion to be honest, besides being exhausted from my mother, I was exhausted from not sleeping well, I called and received a new mask and got that Monday- slept better overall.

The other reason I know is because I am constantly tired and feel a lack of energy, but clean eating does help with this. Weekends workouts are easier for me because I can get in 10 hours of sleep, but weekdays unless I go to bed at 8 I’m not getting ten hours- another reason that I’m eager for my prescription

I tried to work out but after a few minutes on the treadmill felt dizzy and stopped cuz I didn’t want to over-exert myself. I slept another few hours during the day and got up after that and took care of a few things around the house. Got 2 loads of laundry done and a client’s site updated. Then I fixed a friend’s computer I’ve had for a few weeks and also started a scarf for my mom (though I don’t think she deserves it to be honest).

I called in my prescription and am getting a 3 month supply mailed to me- I was told it should be here within a week- so in the meantime I’ll just do my best till then. I will concentrate mainly on diet and then when the pills come and I feel more energetic I will go back to workouts. This morning I already have a terrible headache and didn’t sleep well last night despite one more dose of Nyquil.

Biggest Loser last night was good even though it was on late. I’m really rooting for Danny- when I saw him on the update I was like omg he looks like he’s lost a TON more weight- and when it said how much he lost I was like OMG that’s AMAZING! It’s no surprise Liz and Amanda were on the bottom since they don’t have anywhere near as much to lose as the guys. I don’t know about you all but I voted for Liz- there is something about Amanda that annoys me- maybe it’s her whiney-ness, I don’t know- but I just don’t really care for her. I’m happy she’s lost so much but that’s about it lol.

So my food for yesterday was:
Breakfast: 2 scrambled eggs with ham and peas (don’t ask I wanted peas for some reason), sprinkled with cheese (1 oz), 2 slices bacon, and 1 slice whole wheat toast.
Lunch: leftover chicken fajitas with red/green peppers and onion with 1 la tortilla 50 cal wrap. 2 oz’s pickles on the side.
Snack: 2 tiny yellow mangos
Dinner: sauteed shrimp and snap peas with a cup of brown rice. I cooked the brown rice, then cooked the snap peas with olive oil, adobo seasoning, garlic, and curry and tossed in the shrimp at the end till they were hot. Mixed it all together and YUM. I have leftovers for work tomorrow too!

Weighed in at 210.5 this morning- ug- but that’s okay. My hubby’s been asking me how much I weigh and I’ve told him don’t ask me that- anything but that. He says he doesn’t care but I DO. For Christmas he bought me the Gowearfit and I’m so excited! I told him that my challenge to accept that is to eat clean till then and exercise anytime I can so that when I get the gowearfit I am up to speed!

I’m not getting the one with the monitor because I don’t feel $100.00 more is worth it just to see things “live.” I can easily just plug it in nightly to see my stats.

Thanks for being so great everyone- now I’m off to check out your blogs!

Hey all, decided to not go into work today- I was so DEAD that I could barely get up. I also just wasn’t feeling well in general- I think I’m getting sick. I emailed my boss- downed a bunch of nyquil- then went back to bed- woke up 3 hours later and still feel achy but that’s about all. I hate calling in sick but even yesterday I wasn’t feeling 100% and went to work- today I was like yeah I better listen to my body. I’m for sure going in tomorrow unless I wake up sick as a dog or something *crosses fingers* I hope not I have a lot of work to do over the next three days

Yesterday was my sister’s bday- so for dinner I took her out to a mexican restaurant, I got the fajitas and ate one tortilla (come on homemade corn tortillas!) and then I did have some chips and salsa with carrots. Since it was my sister’s first drink I had one with her (yeah couldn’t help it).

Then we went shopping- got some christmas gifts for people, got my brother’s birthday present, and so on. We didn’t get home till 8:30 and I was exhausted by then. Basically after that showered and went to bed. But I was honestly so depressed while we were shopping. My sister for one looked so cute- I felt like a dumpy and fat hag next to her. Then she got these cute shoes at Aldo which pft I could never wear I felt like puking I was so upset with myself. And I thought to myself WHY am I doing this to myself? Earlier in the day I was happy cuz (UPDATE TIME) I finally got the approval for my medication so I was like yeah finally! This is going to work out! And then I just felt like I let myself down. I weighed myself on the scale and I don’t want to publish the results at the moment that’s how ashamed I am.

So today- Tuesday- is first day of the rest of my life-back to clean eating- no more eating out- and going to start working out again today- the only reason I didn’t workout yesterday was cuz I didn’t have time with taking my sister out then going shopping.

I’m going to have breakfast (an omelette) and then lunch will be leftover chicken fajitas with la tortilla and dinner will be grilled meat and veggies

Today I will fax in my prescription for my medication as well and then I should receive a 3 month supply.

So for anyone else out there reading this- if you feel you royally screwed up over the holiday it’s okay, it’s a new day, shake off that bad week, tell yourself it’s over, and move forward.