This time it’s for real

Worked out yesterday YAY me! My hubby and I were working on a website for a client and at 7:30 I got up and was like “okay gonna go work out” my husband tried to look at me like “but…” And I glared at him and was like “I’m GONNA WORK OUT.” Then did my half hour, got nice and sweaty and then wiped myself off and went back to work for another half hour. Then of course the babies were screaming bloody murder for their parents so from 8:30 to 9:30 I played with them and watched TV. Then at 10 went to bed. Was kind of annoyed cuz hubby was watching WRESTLING while I was trying to sleep- but I got it all covered for next week. Next week I’m gonna watch TV in our room so he’ll watch in the living room and not keep me up. Though I am still feeling refreshed this morning

I have no excuses to not work out; I want to get down to 140 pounds, possibly less when I get at that goal, and making excuses just isn’t going to work… I was slightly annoyed when my husband looked at me like he wanted me to keep working- I was like half an hour isn’t going to make a difference to the client so I’m working out! I have to stop putting other things before myself dammit. The WORLD can wait! Don’t bug me unless you are bleeding, dying, or the cops are after you…

Anyways- got a busy day today- re-running some samples and getting things sorted out from the construction at work… I brought leftover’s from last night’s dinner, grilled tilapia, rice, and cucumber salad

Have a great day everyone.

Oh and this was the face I gave hubby last night:

I was hoping for a bit more but I’ll take it- the elusive 211’s are sooo close

Proud of myself this weekend, ate well and got my butt up and around. Went for a two hour walk on Sunday and worked out half an hour on the treadmill Saturday My workout was pretty intense I was COVERED in sweat- I wanted to go more but my foot started to hurt so I backed off. Today definitely going to do another half hour Being so close to getting out of the 210s is definitely motivating me I am feeling slightly sore today so I know I’m definitely stepping it up

It’s also nice that medium clothes are fighting well and the fact my 16s are fitting well (they were starting to get tight again when I went back up to 216).

I’m definitely loving all I read in my food addiction book- even my husband commented that he noticed I haven’t snacked like I used to. Which is true I haven’t! Yesterday I had a pudding snack in the evening but I had a light salad for dinner so I figured it wouldn’t hurt That 100 calorie pudding btw was BLISS.

Saturday hubby wanted coldstone so I decided to try one of their “sinless” shakes. I got the small yogo shake- it was strawberries and mango. It was good but omg too sweet! I asked the girl like you made a SINLESS one right? She was like yup followed the recipe exactly! I think they put splenda in it and that stuff seems too sweet to me. So while it was good I’d never get it again OR tell them don’t put the splenda in it- I’m not a huge fan of artificial sweetners- your body still thinks it’s sugar and makes you crave more so what was the point? Oh btw it was like 210 calories for that sinless shake- pretty good IMO

I went to Island’s yesterday for lunch and I was so EXCITED they have a menu with lower calorie items! I got the two northshore tacos (chicken) with corn tortillas and ranchero beans on the side. All for less than 600 calories and very good! I did have a small side salad also (it’s a small cup of salad that comes as a side with your food- my friend didn’t want his salad I was like GIVE IT HERE!), I was craving salad but wanted those tacos so it was all good I think for eating out my meal was like 800 calories- so definitely very good I have no idea what the sodium content was- I’m sure it was high- but oh well I got to live a little!

Anyways- I’m feeling great, I’m feeling energetic, I slept like a log last night, so I’m trying to remember the positives when it comes to exercise! Feeling energetic, sleeping well, and of course keeping the weight DOWN

Have a great day everyone!

Seriously I can’t express how happy I am that today is Friday and the weekend is coming up- I’m exhausted. Last night I was on the phone three hours taking care of some issues that have been going on in my life. People who I thought I was cool with apparently having “issues” with my change in status at a place I have volunteered for years. Lucky for me the boss is like their issues are THEIR issues and not yours. I appointed you because you were right for the job and have proven that- these people are just angry that they didn’t get it (and I know for a fact a few don’t like me but I just don’t say more to them than I have to). She called me to tell me these things simply cuz she wanted me to know and also asked me some questions about other people since she is newer and didn’t know their full stories. I told her I’d do my best and keep a level head no matter what they throw at me. To the haters I say:

Needless today I did NOT get a workout in yesterday BUT I am proud of myself for not going overboard at the picnic. I ate ridiculously light during the day (literally like only 260 calories beforehand- and I’ve got to say that that’s NOT a good idea…) When I got there I had 4 street tacos (they are smaller tacos than normal with corn tortilla), 1 steak, 1 chicken, 1 pork, and 1 fish (yes I had to try them all :p). I’d say the steak and pork one tasted the best- their fish one tasted a bit funny to me. I also had rice and beans and for dessert two of the yummiest, softest chocolate chip cookies I’d EVER had! They were SOOOOOOO good! It was heaven- and I’m proud I didn’t go back- I mean there were TRAYS of cookies and cake and so on and I was like the thing that sounds best to me is the CC cookies and that’s all I got. I drank water there and my hubby had THREE sodas! I was amazed at how many calories he DRANK in the 2.5 hours we were there!

And when I got home didn’t snack at all I’m telling you guys that book is AMAZING- if you think you have a food addiction really check it out! The title again is: Conquer Your Food Addiction : The Ehrlich 8-Step Program for Permanent Weight Loss by Caryl Ehrlich.

I know funny title but it’s good. I don’t follow it to a T (has a loose diet structure thing I don’t follow) but I really like how it made me think about WHY I overeat and I felt that it really taught me to focus my energy elsewhere besides getting more food. Of course my husband and birds are happy with this I found I mostly ate out of boredom and just do what I can to keep myself busy.

Today is a co-workers bday so we are taking him out to sushi at 11 am. Sushi is pretty low cal if you pick the right kind so I’m going to have a california roll with edamame as a side and that should be like 400-500 calories at the most. I LOVE edamame! I was thinking of the 14 piece combo but it’s kind of a lot of calories I think… (about 750ish).

You will laugh at me right now- I just realized- okay get this- I don’t HAVE to eat all of the rolls! I can TAKE SOME OF IT HOME! OMG I just had a breakthrough lol! That settles it- gonna get the combo but take the rest home for my brother (he LOVES sushi as well). YAY woo hoo.

I will tell you right now if you have never had sushi you are MISSING OUT on an amazing experience. Technically the fish is cured (unless you eat SASHIMI then that IS raw). Just once- try it- you will like it! Every person I have ever taken out for sushi has said they never thought they would like it but ended up loving it

Today gonna leave work early cuz I got to drop off some stuff- then I’m home woo hoo! I’ll be starting on cleaning and laundry early- I have a huge mountain of laundry in my room- SO EMBARASSING lol!

Have a great weekend chicas

WOAH today I came in to work and we are having a picnic this afternoon at the nearby beach (yes our lab does these things) so people were allowed to bring their dogs today IF and only IF they signed paperwork saying their dog is a good dog, gets along with other dogs, and is well behaved.

Of course today we find out the custodian is terrified of dogs- poor guy doesn’t get the inter-office memo’s… So now he’s avoiding the lab lol. I think we’ll be okay with one day of our trash being neglected.

here is Ginger Rogers:

And this is Zoey:

Many people have brought their dogs but I don’t want to take everyone’s pic lol.

Today my husband and I will be going to the lab picnic- I’m sure it’ll be a lot of fun- darn me I forgot the camera but I KNOW someone will take pictures and I’ll post a few.

Last night went out for dinner and tried a new vietnamese dish- Bún bò Huế- it was pretty good, a little more fattening than my normal pho, but I didn’t get spring rolls so I’m sure overall I ate less calories

Since the potluck food is hot dogs, burgers, tacos, and so on. I’m eating light the rest of the day and of course working out tonight to help compensate.

I went yesterday and bought 2 new pairs of 16P and one 14P, I was in love with the jean cut and so I picked it up- I’m gonna put it in front of my treadmill for motivation I know eventually I WILL wear them!

That’s all for today ladies- I know today is going to be one of those don’t do anything at work days lol! Gonna go see what’s going on in the front office then gonna have something for breakfast yum!

Have a great day everyone!

Weighed in today at 214 okay wtf? Stupid body lol- stop being a butt! I didn’t work out yesterday I was EXHAUSTED and went to bed early. Had three slices of pizza (the homemade kind not pizza ordered out) and know I didn’t go over on my calories. Maybe I didn’t drink enough water… who knows. Then my “darling” brother wakes me up at 2 am cuz he is coming home- so I got to go unlock the front door. I was pretty PISSED off- totally threw off my sleep so now I’m tired this morning. *yawn* I’m considering having some coffee this morning. Everyone wants to go out for lunch and I’m like hmm maybe I’ll skip breakfast and go out as well and pick something that’s okay to eat. Depends on where they go of course- I think I heard “mexican” and there is nothing healthy about mexican IMO! lol

ANYWAYS the move actually took place yesterday! WOO HOO!

My new office is FABULOUS- I have so much more room AND I have 3 other office mates- woo hoo- I’m no longer in a hole in the walll!!! *does the happy dance*

Here’s a picture of it:

I still have to hang my diplomas but I’m thinking of getting some really nice frames for them. My master’s is still not in a frame!

Have a great day everyone!

B- an orange (45 calories) again poor planning on my part…
L- Rubios Salad (-dressing) with salsa + 2 flame grilled legs + cooked veggies (-butter) (510 calories) (since my breakfast was NOTHING practically I added some veggies)
D-TBA

Worked out half an hour yesterday- woke up this morning at 213.5- go figure :p

I went to bed early last night- I was just very tired and working out always seems to make me sleep faster. One of the PLUS’s of exercising- I love to sleep so I have to remember that. I mean I woke up at 5:50 am this morning… I was like NO!!! I had TEN MORE MINUTES!! lol.

The offices weren’t ready yesterday- I took a peak this morning and was pleasantly surprised- the area is much larger than my current hole in the wall lol. I kind of wanted one of the back corner offices but I got a front corner office- I guess the good thing is I don’t have to walk past anyone… I’m definitely excited to get out of this little tiny “office” but I hope people don’t mind my radio- I like to listen to the morning show- I don’t blast it so hopefully no one has issues. Though I think ONE coworker may cringe when songs like “love game” come up with lyrics such as “I wanna take a ride on your disco stick” LOL!

Today isn’t really a busy day unless the offices are done and we can move in. All I really have to do today is put away some stuff, get the new clocks hung up, and then move myself in

I’m off to catch up on your blogs- today probably gonna have el pollo loco for lunch and go to the store and see about getting a few new pairs of jeans (I really have like only 2 now that fit my right). Oh on the plus side I also put on some of my dress pants that used to be very tight and they fit nicely now! YAY!

Yes I know I’m hard on myself- thank you guys for your constant support despite my whiney butt! Your support is what has kept me from giving up- I love you guys

Breakfast: Fiber one bar and 5 oz welches grape juice (250 calories)
Lunch: Rubios Salad (-dressing) with salsa + 2 flame grilled legs (450 calories)
Snack: 1 oz doritos (I know bad but I wanted some chips! 140 calories)
Dinner: Homemade pizza?

Anyone else getting all these stupid spam messages? I swear I’ve deleted like 6-10 in the past few days! It’s REALLY starting to get irritating…

Hope you all had a happy fourth of July! I weighed in at 213 today, not bad considering I’m still on my period BOO! And today I actually put on a pair of jeans I haven’t worn because they were too tight- they are SLIGHTLY snug but they are on! WOO HOO! I had to get rid of more jeans because they are just too big now! I’m like I don’t understand, overall I’m the same weight but things are shifting around? Whatever’s going on I’m not complaining!

The weekend wasn’t too bad- did some treadmill running/walking, relaxed a lot, and on the fourth did a little BBQ with a few friends. Sure I had two margarita’s but I wanted! I definitely didn’t eat what I used to! I prepared for the party veggies, dip, carne asada, corn tortillas, salsa, guacamole, BAKED tortilla chips, and of course the margaritas I did well, I loaded my plate with veggies and then had two tacos with my drinks yum!

Yesterday hubby was feeling antsy so we went to the mall and walked around for two hours (woo hoo). When we were at this one store they had these cute bikini’s with playboy bunnies on them. If you don’t know my nickname- beerab is a shorter verson of my name + the word rabbit I always liked the playboy bunny symbol even when I was little and didn’t know what it meant! I used to collect stickers and in my book I had this large sticker of the playboy bunny that I really liked. Imagine my surprise growing up when I found out what it was- but I still didn’t care! Anyways- I have all sorts of playboy stuff, shirts, purses, jewelry, and so on

My husband picks up a black and pink one covered in bunnies and says “here babe get this.” I take one look at him and say “I will never look good in a bikini” and walk away- literally I was working on NOT bursting into tears! I felt so terrible So fat, so stupid, so jealous of all those beautiful girls out there who wear bikini’s every summer and look amazing. And I look at myself and I’m like pft that will never be me I know think positive but no I don’t see it happening

Another thing that upset me was yesterday I went to refill my prescription for BC and the pharmacist was like this is your last refill btw. I’m like what I just went in FEBRUARY to get my prescription filled. I know it’s my doctor wanting me to come in again to see if I’ve lost weight- that’s kind of frustrating for me- she wanted me to see a nutritionist I told her no I don’t want to- I KNOW how to eat- that’s not the problem! I probably only weigh a few pounds less than when I last saw her- but I know for a fact I haven’t gained anything… I will call this week about my prescription and I’m more determined to lose a few more lbs before I see her just to be like :p I don’t need your nutritionist. With this new book I’m reading I am just feeling great and realizing that I did have some addiction and anytime I reach for food I ask why I’m eating and so on, and find myself not snacking like I used to AND be happy with less food! I am weighing in daily but only recording Monday’s weights, and I’m not letting a gain ruin my attitude for the day- a gain makes me go “okay Bee, gotta keep at it!” At least I’m noticing the numbers are consistently lower…

I still have to fight with myself to work out- but at least I’m doing it… *sigh* I’m so tempted at times to take pills, but I don’t want to rely on them- I know they don’t really work long term, so it’s time to just keep it up I guess…

Some good news for today is the new offices will be completed TODAY and we’ll be moving in this afternoon if everything goes well! WOO HOO!!!!

Ug update with SAD news- they are interviewing for a new analyst and guess who’s NOT one of the people they are interviewing? ME *sigh* It’s okay, one day I’ll be an analyst. *prays*

So yesterday went SLIGHTLY over on my calories- pft what a way to start the weight challenge right?

The reason why I went over? Well our friend came over all happy and was like let’s celebrate and go out to dinner! I was like dinner’s on the table sorry… So he ate dinner with us- it was white rice, grilled tilapia, and cooked veggies (potatoes, peppers, green beans). It was a higher calorie dinner but I was HUNGRY. So with that dinner I was up to like 1500 calories by then. Still good. I had made extra tilapia to take for lunch today but oh well…

So he suggests “let’s get ice cream!! I got approved on a loan for a home!” My husband’s like yeah let’s go- I was like you guys go- have a good time. They both wail on me like no no no come with us. So I say fine and go and I get one small scoop of ice cream from Coldstone… ONE small scoop. They had these smoothies that were supposed to be healthy but I was like yeah I hear “healthy” smoothies can still be calorie and sugar loaded. When I went home I looked up my one scoop and it was 200 calories and I was like meh I could have done worse. Specially when my hubby got the largest smoothie EVER (not not the healthy ones) and our friend got one of those huge waffle cones FULL of ice cream. Don’t get me wrong they looked good but I was more than satisfied with my scoop I know I probably could have insisted on not eating any ice cream- but I didn’t, I’m not blaming my husband’s friend or anyone for me eating a scoop of ice cream.

Do I feel bad about the scoop? Hmm no- I can TOTALLY feel TOM coming on right now- the crampiness and stuff is here so I didn’t weigh myself today- I know me and I’m sure I’m gonna be up at least half a pound SOOO I’m staying away from that machine of pure EVIL

I think what I’m taking away from this book I’m reading is that I can eat what I want- I just don’t have to have a TON of it, a few bites is more than plenty. And I can’t stop beating myself up and stressing myself out for something small here and there. That doesn’t mean I’m going to start snacking all the time and being okay with it- but realizing that I can’t eat perfect all the time and if I don’t stop stressing myself out I WILL NOT lose anymore weight!

I’m not perfect, no one is, but that’s okay.

I might not post tomorrow- so if I don’t have a great weekend everyone!

I’m not questioning the miracle. Okay well maybe a little bit. I literally picked up the scale and moved it to three different places in the house and it said 212 each time! This eating no meat until dinnertime must be working. Yesterday I had a slice of ezekiel bread with 1 laughing cow wedge and a starbucks skinny iced latte (all for 205 calories). Yes I had to have the skinny latte because I had a FIVE hour meeting yesterdy! Then lunch was a large salad with dressing and a small orange (300 calories). Dinner was 2 hot dogs with ketchup and mustard and I also had a skinny cow ice cream for dessert. Total calories yesterday came in at just over 1400. Yes hot dogs because I forgot to thaw the meat for dinner :p

Today’s a busy day so going to say goodbye for now and go read your blogs!