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Not Surprised- specially when yesterday we ate CHINESE. It’s funny I hadn’t eaten it in a while so last night I was feeling gassy.
My first book came in “Food Addiction, the Body Knows.” So far it’s okay- it talks about how carbs and sugars are such a big part of our lives and how there are some people who are geneticall predisposed to not being able to handle that and become addicted. I do agree that I’m probably one of them since I have insulin resistance and PCOS.
It comes with a “diet plan” it recommends that really cuts out pretty much all carbs in the forms of breads and pastas… It does still say eat fruit and dairy- which I can handle. I’ll try it- I’m reconsidering fat smashing because that’s when I lost the most weight the quicket, the only difference will be in the evening for dinner I will eat some meat. During the day I don’t have to have meat- but I like to eat some meat at dinnertime 
Do I have a food addiction- personally I feel I do- it’s funny cuz through reading the book I can definitely say my addiction is nowhere NEAR as bad as some of the people in this book! One woman ate $250 worth of candy in ONE MONTH! Other people would hide food from the family and eat it when their family went to bed. One woman would purposely stay up late to eat while her husband was asleep! I don’t do that- but things I would do in the past were when nights my husband had school I’d go get food out and just CHOW down. Or I’d eat food so quickly I didn’t really taste it and then before I knew it there went a bowl of mac and cheese- and I won’t lie- I did this last week. I made my hubby mac and cheese and he didn’t eat it all- then just an uncontrollable urge overcame me and BOOM before I knew it I ate what was left- I shoveled it all in my mouth and then was like what the heck am I doing?! I felt guilty but the damage was done (this was Saturday night). I hadn’t succumbed to that in a long time and I think part of it was all the eating out Thursday and Friday. Even the book says once you start eating badly it’s like spiraling out of control, and I really think that’s what happened- I allowed myself to get out of control. Even on Sunday night I had a bowl of ice cream! Something I hadn’t done in AGES! A HUGE bowl with vanilla and chocolate syrup- if I had nuts you better believe they would have gone on top! *sigh*
Last night I did kind of scare myself cuz my hands started feeling swollen- and I read somewhere that this can mean you are pre-diabetic. I don’t want to get diabetes- so I really just have to step up my game.
Why am I telling you these things? I guess because I know I really just can’t do this to myself anymore- I have to take control again. I feel so dumb posting here about my constant failure but I guess a positive I can take from this is that at least I’m not running away or ignoring my problems or saying I’m doing fine when I really am not- or WORSE giving up and allowing myself to gain even MORE weight!
So AGAIN it’s time to retake control.
Sweetie, let me help you. I’m a carb addict. (I was addicted to wine, too.) I chose South Beach because of its carb limitations. I learned about how unhealthy even artificial sweeteners are, too…and so, when I started this journey mid-April I gave up carbs AND artificial sweeteners. No more warm dinner rolls every night. No more chips, crackers as snacks. No more even diet sodas! And you know what? It really IS true; within 4 days, I had/have lost ALL cravings for carbs! Used to be, I couldn’t make it past 3 pm on weekdays without hitting the candy machine here at work for a chocolate fix. Now, I don’t even THINK about chocolate! Seriously! And I started feeling so, so, SO much better! It was amazing! And my taste buds became SO much more enhanced! It was a miracle! I’ve noticed whenever I cheat, it takes another 3-4 days to kick that craving thing again, so it’s good incentive to stay on target. But seriously, it works. It totally works! But at least for me, it had to be cold turkey, and it did take 3-4 days for the change to kick in. But once it does, you will be amazed! Good luck, sweetie. You know I’m totally rooting for you!
I totally agree with Sunny. The first couple of days are the hardest. I found the Fat Smash diet really helped me get over my urge for carbs. If you’re only allowed to eat carbs you don’t really like (brown rice/oatmeal) then you kinda stop craving them.
I find when I fall off the wagon the only way I can really get back on is to go back to Phase I. I modify it a bit (I still eat some chicken but maybe once in two or three days) and it usually gets me back on track.. but it’s so true about one bad meal can set me up for another.
It’s so frustrating fighting the same battle again and again, but I realize that this will always be the case, even when the weight is all gone. As long as we keep doing what we have to do, or at least striving for it, we haven’t lost the battle. So keep fighting. I would suggest going back to a time when you were losing weight and think about the things you were doing then and what was working for you. And then try to do those things again.
Sugar is the enemy.. I am convinved of that. it makes us crave more when we eat it so I try and stay away from it completely. Of course this weekend it didn’t happen, cupcakes as you know
and a frosting OD. Today I feel liek crap and its a sugar hangover. It amazes me I still mamange to do this from time to time. i know it makes me physically ill, but te siern call fo the frosting.. man on man!! DRUGS!!