This time it’s for real

Oh thank goodness it’s Friday- I need to freaking sleep in tomorrow I’m so tired! My sister got a second interview so hopefully she gets her LA job. I think she’ll see just how difficult it is to be on her own for the first time. Juggling bills and so on. She’s only doing it for the summer though- so she’ll be home again for the school year.

Yesterday I went home upset and my husband and friends cheered me up- the bratwurst was not very good by the way- the meat had a flavor none of us liked. I mean right now I’m just concentrating on learning as much as I can here and I’ll just continue to apply to analyst jobs until something comes through. Hubby has said he’ll go wherever I go- so that’s good. I was worried he wouldn’t want to move. I mean moving to another state isn’t ideally what we’d like to do- but if it has to be done I guess we just have to deal with it.

I’ve decided also to not speak with people about it- specially if they are negative about it! I really just don’t need that negativity bringing me down right now. I’ve got too much going on in my life for that. I’m just going to tough it out for now, do some praying and soul searching- and see where life takes me.

Have a good weekend everyone!

LOL if you have seen the Princess Diaries you might remember who said that

Was too busy to blog yesterday, sorry But between preparing for my lab final and my meetings at work and all the other stuff I had to do, there just wasn’t any time!

Yay all I have left for my chemistry class is a final! It was nice to be home by 8 pm last night. My sister went and got Taco Bell, I had a grilled stuffed burrito which is like 700 calories but I didn’t eat my subway before class so I wasn’t too worried. OF COURSE when I woke up this morning my tummy was paying for it. Honestly I prefer to cook now because I like cooking and I’m pretty good at it if I do say so myself.

Hubby has the next four days off which is nice because he gets to relax and this morning it was nice to wake up to my hubby in bed with me and snuggling for a bit before I got ready for work- sure I was a few minutes late to work but OH WELL He says he’s gonna do all the laundry and stuff today so that I don’t have to worry about a thing over the weekend and we can both just relax together. That’ll be nice I have to study and this will definitely help!

Tonight I’m making bratwurst with peppers and onions for dinner, I had it once at a sporting event and I liked it so decided to try it and I’m sure hubby will appreciate the effort

The strangest thing happened today at work. They were asking for volunteers for the LIMS system. And I said “if no one volunteers I will, that is if I can.” So later my boss talks to me and says that they want someone who is already an analyst, I said oh okay, no problem, you know, just wanted to help if I could. And then he said “yeah in ten years Byron won’t be here anymore so we need someone to take over, and in ten years you won’t be here.”

WHAT? WHY? In my mind I was like wtf is that supposed to mean? Then I said “well I may, but not as an assistant, hopefully by then I’ll be an analyst” and I can’t even remember what he responded with. But that kind of upset me, I’m working so hard here, doing everything that is asked of me, and I DESERVE to be an analyst- and not even just deserve- but I have earned that right, I’m not asking to be an analyst today or tomorrow- but by the time I’m 28 I’d love to be an analyst and making a good living so I can buy a house and have some children!

Maybe I’m reading too much into it- but he just kind of upset me, maybe he just wasn’t thinking, who knows… I mean, why would he say I won’t be here in ten years? Does he think I have no potential to be an analyst or something?! *cry*

Come on someone throw me a bite here! I swear if the new analysts are hired and I’m not one of them I’m looking for a job as an analyst- I already found a lab that told me they are asking for applications in June- you can bet I am applying!

I wants a corm too *sigh*

OMG ladies a miracle has happened. So I guess while I haven’t been losing weight things have been shifting or something cuz this weekend at Walmart I bought three medium shirts, size 8/10. I said hey some motivation as everything else I wear is large/extra large, but lately my extra larges are fitting too big and larges are fitting fine, almost loose… Some of my shirts are starting to look like tents! They are making me look fat so I’m retiring them to either give away clothes or house cleaning clothes.

So this morning I said “hey what the heck, why not try it on?” And I did and OMG it fits!! *die*

So woo hoo ladies join me in the happy dance!

So yeah yesterday eating wasn’t too great- while I was within my calories I had a slice of pizza yesterday, my professor surprised us with a pizza party and I’m so glad I decided to only eat half a sub before class (normally I have a full sub). So everyone was like “eat a slice” and so I had ONE slice of pepperoni and ate it really slowly while everyone else was plowing into the pizza.

Last night was so strange- I was having nightmares and kept waking up- I’m like darn that pizza lol! Gave me nightmares! I’m not one to have nightmares, I rarely, if ever have them, so either I’m stressed out, or that was an evil pizza! DUN DUN DUNNNNNN!!!!

Hubby’s Bday is coming up, so I’m taking him to see Brian Regan this Friday, it’s an early birthday gift I’m sure he’ll love it. I was TRYING to surprise him but then he happened to look up Brian Regan and I was like oh well too bad tickets are sold out. So Mr. Man checks ticket master and sees there are tickets and I’m like dammit babe I was TRYING to surprise your arse but you ruined your surprise! lol.

Course he’s all flattered but I really had wanted to surprise him… oh well.

He wants the most RANDOM thing for his bday:

Crystal Skull Vodka- I swear he just wants it for the damn bottle- but whatever. The man doesn’t even DRINK! So we have some Vodka and stuff at home, so I told him invite his friends over and we’ll order some food and drink vodka lol. I think with hubby and I there should be about 8-10 people. Anyone know some cheap food I can buy lol- I really don’t want to cook for that many people. It’s just as expensive AND I’d have to put more effort into it.

I’ll also be buying some juices to go with the vodka. Besides orange juice what do you recommend?

Have a great day everyone!

So now and then a franchise TRIES to be healthy and KFC is one of them. I’m SURE you have heard of the new grilled chicken at KFC and how last week you could print out a coupon and go to KFC and get two free pieces of chicken, two individual sides, AND a biscuit. I mean I had to do my American Duty and inform you all out there on whether the chicken is worth it or not.

I just so happened to print out that coupon last week and decided to go today to get it honored (I know I said I’d eat a lean cuisine but I wanted to use the coupon before it expired okay!). I drive 10 minutes to get to the nearest KFC and lo and behold they have a sign saying there is a raincheck and gave me a form to fill out. I was slightly annoyed but I ordered a meal anyways. I got a grilled chicken breast, mashed potatoes (hey I wanted some okay), corn on the cob, and my biscuit. I didn’t want a drink and the meal was less than $5. $4.39 I believe- so not too bad.

So I get back to work and I taste this chicken and I’ve got to tell you, it was okay, it was a little dry but it was probably sitting underneath those ovens for a while. The flavor was alright. Though if KFC really wanted to bring around healthier chicken they’d have gotten rid of the skin… but beggars can’t be choosers. But wait a minute am I still a beggar when I paid?! Hmm…

My meal ended up being 660 calories (kind of high for me but oh well), 66 grams carbs, 22 grams of fat, and 43 grams of protein. But don’t worry, I’m going to skip to a light dinner tonight, half a sub instead of my usual full sub. I have to say though my meal was probably on the low end because most people will order a drink on the side (what’s that another 200 calories for a small soda?), and they’d probably get mac and cheese or some other higher fattening food. I asked for green beans but apparently they were out so I chose the corn instead.

This blogger’s final say? Meh I can make it better myself at home and much less fattening too I bet! If you love kfc you might really like this, but I give it a 6/10, nothing spectacular.

Good Monday morning everyone- TOM seems to be on his way out but still wearing a liner JUST in case…

Didn’t weigh in this morning cuz I was frantically running around late- stupid me forgot my leftover fish and rice from last night so I’m gonna have a lean cuisine for lunch- it’s not a bad lunch, but whatever. I’ll eat the leftover fish and rice tonight after class- I’m usually starving by then anways!

The weekend eating was overall good, obviously at soup plantation I had a large meal but still stayed within my 1800 since I didn’t eat a lot during the day before class. Now it’s back to my max of 1700, though overall I’ve been staying around 1500-1600 a day. Filling up with lots of fruits and veggies is really helping me- specially when I pick high fiber foods

I’ll try to weigh in tomorrow morning if possible to see what the damage is, if any over the weekend because while I stayed within calories I did have a movie hotdog on Sunday (BTW if you haven’t seen the new Star Trek movie GO SEE IT- I’m not even into Star Trek and I thought it was amazingly) and I had a lunchables pepperoni pizza on Saturday- I just craved them okay!! If I don’t eat what I crave on my period I turn into a pyschotic monster :p My cravings were so much better this time around though- I wasn’t craving chocolate so badly that I couldn’t see, I did have one skinny cow on Sunday and when my sister bought M&M’s I asked her to please keep them in her room so I wouldn’t be tempted- course she looked at me funny but did it anyways. She’s been thin her whole life and just wouldn’t understand. She eats whatever she wants all the time- lucky ho! lol

I’m getting excited that I’ve only got class two more times and then a final! YAY! One lab is done and hw is started, but I still got a lot left! BOO! The great part is now I won’t be so tired when I get home, I’ll be able to work out more- the week I was off I worked out like 3 times and went back down to 212.5, but boom since class I’ve gone up to 213.5 and have stayed there- I know it’s just being tired and stressed, but it’s almost over! *twitches on floor from excitement* lol

Anyways, have a great day everyone- keep up the amazing work

Not bad considering I had Pat and Oscar’s on Thursday and a cupcake yesterday as well as dessert at Soup Plantation. AND the fact I’m still on TOM- who knows maybe I’ll actually be down a pound after this… Just two more weeks until I can really start back on track with the weight loss

I like when other people post what they ate- so here’s my meal from last night:

I started off with my usual salad with romaine, red cabbage, red onions, corn, cauliflower, a bit of cheese, fat free ranch, and tossed some sunflower seeds on top:

Then I had to have my cup of clam chowder with a bit of cheese and oyster crackers:

And for dessert nonfat vanilla and dark chocolate with nuts and a tiny bit of chocolate sauce and two mini cones:

It was a good meal, didn’t calculate my calories but I know I was well under the 1800 I allow myself during TOM. I remember reading somewhere you burn a bit more calories on your period- if it’s true or not I’m not sure- but all I know is I get super hungry during that time so I might as well up my calories by 100 points to help compensate!

That’s all for today- hope you ladies have a nice weekend

So TOM is here in full force right now and Barb just brought around cupcakes! It looked so good with it’s white cake and chocolate frosting and blue sprinkes….

So I had one- did I feel guilty? A little bit- but my uterus is craving chocolate so I said why not I bit into it’s soft goodness and tasted that yummy chocolate frosting- DELICIOUS! They are homemade too so better than store bought I’m guessing… My uterus is currently wiggling around in delight… This must be what it’s like to be pregnant….

MMMMM I want another! I told you cupcakes are evil!

*sigh* Really I’m so stressed out lately that I can’t believe I haven’t curled myself up into a ball and started screaming… Eating hasn’t been so great- still under calories but fat content has been high *sigh*

I get an email from my property manager saying that the tenant wants to know if we’ll buy his old fridge off of him, I was like what is he talking about- the unit came with one- WHERE is it? OH and they want $950 for the fridge! I was like NO WAY! I call him today and am like BEN what is going on? Where is my fridge? It was only 10 years old! If they got rid of it they will pay for it out of their deposit… He says the fridge was leaking and I’m like okay not one person contacted me about this. And then he says well the tenant wasn’t in the apartment a few months…. I was like well then how do they know it wasn’t just like an electrical short or something from a power outage? If they weren’t around for months who KNOWS what happened to the fridge! Sounds like they did it without telling him and for that they are going to have to pay- they don’t just get rid of my appliances without notifying me or the property manager.

Then it’s like my dad is trying to buy a house and wants his name off my mom’s house and I’m like dude I’m KIND of busy right now!

That and class going on and being stressed at work due to hearing that they possibly won’t open up the position I want- well YEAH I’m really stressed!

This weekend my husband is working and I got finals to worry about- so I’m just gonna get up, make some breakfast, quickly clean around the house and get laundry started then head to the libraries and study till my brain explodes. Then go home and repeat the following day… *sigh*

Have a good weekend everyone- I hope yours is less stressful than mine!

So today I get up and I am just looking at myself in the mirror and I’m noticing something. My skin is getting clearer and clearer Normally I’d get blemishes and so on all over my body, but I guess with my cleaner eating it’s really starting to take effect on the skin as well I’ve always been lucky with clear facial skin but not with acne on my back, well now I’m virtually all clear, I see a small blemish here and there but before I’d have huge bumps and it’d drive me crazy! So yay- yet another reason to keep on trucking!

Haven’t weighed in but I know I’m still doing good- TOM is here so pft I’m not even going to weigh in- it’ll drive me nuts. I’ve decided during TOM that it’s okay to indulge here and there. Like last night I definitely was good on calories and had some left and every fiber of my being craved a PB and J and a glass of milk- SO I had it and it was good and I didn’t feel guilty- I’m sure my body was craving some iron and vitamins before TOM officially came to town.

My office is still in shambles, they tore up the bottom of the wall to check for dry wall damage- supposedly I will move back in tomorrow but we’ll see. Right now I’m using a coworker’s desk to get things done, but I believe he will be back in tomorrow at which point I’ll have to find somewhere else to crash

Some good news is that I’m finally being allowed to take on some projects! While I am nervous I know that’ll just make me work that much harder to show I can do it and do a good job! These projects will be great for my resume so that I can further my chances of becoming an analyst So yay for that!

School is hectic, I have a final in two weeks from now and for assignments due I have:
1- 3 articles with 1 page summaries for each due by the end of the semester: CHECK
2- Book problems due Day of Final: Haven’t started
3- Extra credit assignment due today: CHECK
4- Spectrophotometry lab- technically due today but we are allowed to take a bit longer
5- Gas chromatography Lab due next wednesday- Yeah not even looking at that right now
6- Copper extraction lab- haven’t started it yet but it’ll be due by the end of the semester.

And that doesn’t even include all the studying I need to do for a whole semester’s worth of Analytical chemistry! I really have to go back and figure out acid/base chemistry, I was sick with the flu that time and just bombed the test (luckily we get to drop one test). *sigh* I can’t wait for this class to be over so my life won’t be so hectic!

Have a great day everyone!

So I come in today about half an hour late, I do this because my mother called in the morning and needed some things from me. Well when I walk in my boss is by my office and I see the carpet looks funny. I go up to him and say sorry I’m late, my mom called from Egypt and couldn’t call my cell phone for some reason.” He says that’s fine, no problem, and then says “your office is flooded btw.” UG!! So the power is out in there also, I grab a flashlight and run in and get my things that are on the floor and find that some items are wet (annoying) and come to find that one of the workers forgot to shut off a valve so BASICALLY it leaked all weekend from the construction site to my office *cry*

So now I’m typing this at another person’s desk who isn’t in today and probably by this afternoon I’ll be back in my office, they already vacuum sucked the floor and there is a heater in the room, I hope we don’t develop a mold problem. I swear they can’t get those new offices done soon enough!

Anyways, didn’t weigh in this morning, totally forgot, my breakfast was a few prunes cuz I couldn’t get to my fridge…. Luckily I brought stuff for lunch today and put it all in the main fridge so I can access that later. I’m hoping after lunch to move back into my office- I personally don’t mind the heater in there- I like warmth