This time it’s for real

So I get a phone call today from my husband’s doctor- who is insured THROUGH ME- and they say that chad needs to call in and say that it’s okay for me to discuss his doctor visits and so on- I’m like mmmm okay. And called up my husband and told him to go ahead and call. It’s like uh I go to ALL his appointments with him, I have scheduled all his appointments, and SO ON, what the heck are you talking about? I’m his WIFE… Didn’t think I needed permission… Course I was totally nice I was like SURE no problem I’ll have him call you RIGHT NOW :D :D

Pft I say. lol.

Lately at work I’m terribly bored- I feel totally unmotivated. Don’t get me wrong, I like my job, I like my coworkers, but I am feeling totally UN-challenged. Literally it’s Thursday and Today and tomorrow here is what I have to do:

1- Wipe down the hoods and centrifuges (this will take 5 minutes MAX)
2- 310 maintenance (half an hour)
3- Make kits for Lemong Grove (an hour at the most- and that’s cuz I’m making 150 kits)

So okay, that’s fine, gives me time to go online and read all sorts of blogs, look up good recipes, and so on. The thing that annoys me is that I make the Oral Swab Kits and Stain Collection Kits for the station, now normally that’s not a problem, but my boss told me to make up direction pages on how to make the kits, then send them out to the stations asking if they would like to make their own. Not ONE station has said they want to make it- they all have said “no we’ll just continue to order them.”

Now it’s fine that I make them- what annoys me is certain stations SAID they wanted to make their own- then I send them the directions- then they say “ah nevermind.” It’s not just making the kits, it’s also having to go and have them sent over- I hate walking over to property and evidence (that’s where they go through) and they act like UG you are sending MORE kits? And I’m like I’m sorry but that’s my JOB- so I have decided if I get more attitude I’m going to tell my boss cuz really it’s like hey I’m just the messenger! I don’t WANT to go through you guys but that’s how it’s done.

Personally I think that the other stations SHOULD make their own kits- the ones that need a lot for sure- we deliver the items in PAPER bags- they could at least bring over reusable bags or something! Even a box or something that I can refill for them when they get low. I hate wasting paper- cuz I know they just toss the bag when they get the kits….

Okay enough of the rant- can you tell I’m cranky?! I’m also annoyed at myself slightly. I went over my calories a bit yesterday (like 1850 out of 1800 cal’s) and then didn’t drink much water cuz I’m an idiot and forgot my water bottle for class By the time I got out I was extremely thirsty and got another water bottle and chugged that thing down lol. But it’s okay. Today will be better- I’ve got a good meal plan for the day (breakfast was multigrain cheerios with 2% milk, lunch is a lean cuisine and apple with peanut butter, then dinner is zeus’s bbq chicken, no snacks planned yet). Anyways, now I’m off to make kits, turn in some paperwork to my boss, then go to a meeting at 9 am…. the meeting gah- some people act like they are slowly losing their life force in the meeting, me personally I don’t mind them. After that I’ll probably get some stuff ready for autoclaving. *sigh* I want to be an analyst NOW! :p

Okay so you all know I’m taking that analytical course? Well I have an assignment due TODAY- is it done? Nope… Do I care? Gosh not really sorta maybe? Ug no motivation- I think part of it is that it’s ALMOST done- but there were 9 million freaking steps involved and I’m disgusted with how much NEW stuff I have learned on excel!

Anyways- still doing good with the diet- sure yesterday I had some funions SMOTHERED in hot sauce and lemon- but I still stayed within my calories and you know what? I didn’t feel like I was starving and wanted more- and I didn’t feel guilty because I deserved some damn funions after so much frustration has gone on lately in my life. I read some things about my husband’s neurologist that I am not happy with AT ALL and therefore today when I call his primary I will tell them I do not wish to continue with this neurologist for that fact and if they could please get me an appointment with any other neurologist that is within our city I’d be ever so greatful. And YES I am saying that with a southern belle Scarlett from Gone with the Wind. “That’d be ever so wonderful! :D”

I found an awesome recipe on zeusmeatball’s site for that bbq chicken with black beans- so we are having that tomorrow for dinner- already called my sister and told her to please get some chicken from the store and the mccormick bbq seasoning (I have everything else). I’m excited to try it out- and friday we are having my most favorite pork chops from my cooking light recipe book- pork aus jus- so freaking yummy it’s indecent! I’m probably going to cook that with grilled zuccini for a side. Poor hubby hates veggies but he’s got to start eating them! I’m slowly eliminating potatoes and things from our diet- and he hates it. Last night he didn’t even TOUCH the cheese cauliflower- saying “I don’t like cauliflower” well dammit man sometimes you got to eat things you don’t like- maybe if you ate it one or two times you’ll find you DO like it. I swear this is why we don’t have kids :-p

Okay anyways- thanks again Eileen, your march competition has made me step it up into gear- and zeusmeatball if you EVER read this- thanks to you to- I’ve been reading your blog and it’s totally an inspiration, also thanks to inkheartmeg, patty, sterling, and anyone else who is blogging- like I said before- this time it’s for real and you all are helping me to NOT give up. Even facing the difficult times hubby and I are going through- I’m managing to at least eat right, even if I’m not losing- I’m still healthier than I was last November. Love you guys!

EDIT TO ADD: Thank God my husband has a new appointment with another neurologist this Friday, I’m so happy, I don’t want the other neurologist anymore after reading what I saw online! Thanks to everyone for their good thoughts and prayers regarding my husband.

So I’ve joined ms. Eileen’s March challenge (see my blogroll). I think about reasons why I cheat- and part of it I realize is that I think “I have so much time to lose that weight, I can eat this now” because to me thinking “OMG I have to eat right for year with no cheating? THAT’S JUST CRAZY!” But right now, I’m going do try to not cheat at all this month. Eat right- maintain 1500-1800 calories a day, and work out more. I have stopped saying “I’m going to work out everyday” that’s not going to happen, specially not with this class- I’m dead on M-W, usually on Thursday I take a nap when I get home from work- that’s how dead I am! But I can say that I WILL workout more- I can do that, I can give myself a few days a week, and I can do that 30DS, nice to know that my body recovers well now, before it’d take days for soreness to go away- now it’s two days since I did the 30DS, only my inner thighs are slightly sore- I’m sure it’ll be gone by tomorrow.

Still trying to up my protein intake Today’s plan:

Breakfast: Apple with peanut butter 270 cal
Lunch: Michelina’s Lean Gourmet Shrimp with Pasta and veggies: 260 calories
Yoplus yogurt: 110 calories
Dinner:grilled chicken + cheesy cauliflower: 360 calories
Snack: 100 calorie popcorn, skinny cow fudge bar 50 calories, Tuna salad 300 calories

That’s about 1500 calories and 140 grams of protein (I’m trying sterling I’m trying!). Funny thing is since I’ve been trying to eat at least 1500 calories a day I’ve been feeling much more satisfied at the end of the day and not feeling hungry anymore than when I was eating under 1500 calories Maybe this protein kick is working And NO Inkheartmeg I haven’t looked at the scale :p lol

So today on the radio I heard this- and I was like HUH? And the woman on the radio explained it like this: Your mental state is four times as strong as your physical strength, therefore if you have a good mentality when it comes to doing something, such as working out, you are more likely to do it and get through it vs if you have a bad attitude about what you need to do. This applies to anything, not just working out

I believe this is so true- like when my friend called over the weekend, and I was like screw the workout and I didn’t do it- but then Sunday I said “I’m doing this workout” and I did it and got through it and enjoyed it. My arms and thighs are sore as heck BUT I did it

What am I trying to say? If you have a good attitude about your weight loss and tell yourself “I can do this, I can workout, I can eat better” then it’ll happen

Good luck today everyone!