This time it’s for real

OMG it’s Friday- oh thank goodness I have been SO DEAD this week. But yay going to the gym today! WOOO!

So yesterday hubby and I got into a small argument. I find out that he went out AGAIN- and I told him that I have been exhausted the past few weeks taking care of HIM and his needs, and doing all the housework myself, shopping, and so on. I’ve taken on the brunt of everything because he is sick. BUT yesterday was the last straw… I walk in and he’s playing XBOX with his brother- joking and laughing, the HOUSE is a mess- there are dishes in the sink, there is dirt on the floor, the bed isn’t made, I mean NOTHING is done! I was like there is more you can do around the house and if you are well enough to drive (he is NOT supposed to) then why am I going in to work at 6 am so that I can leave early so I can take YOU to the doctor?

So after being angry with me at first and me being like omg really you are mad at ME he conceded and said I was right and there was more he could be doing- pft first he tried to give me that “well I don’t KNOW what to do around the house” to which I replied you are THIRTY THREE years old and you don’t know that dishes need to be washed? That the floor needs to be swept? That pet cages need to be cleaned? REALLY?!

So we’ll see- he claims he’s making dinner tonight and that when I come home the house will be clean so that I won’t have to worry about ANY of that this weekend- but WE’LL SEE.

I already am slammed this weekend- I have to take my car in for an oil change, I have to get a new windshield since something cracked my old one and the repair place said because it’s not like a circle crack it can’t be repaired and it’ll continue to spread- they said I can wait till it’s larger- but I work right next to a police station lol- I’ll get pulled over in a heartbeat if they notice it- I don’t need a fix it ticket either! And then I want to get my car detailed this weekend because I have no idea WHO did this- but there is soda ALL over my car- even on the ceiling! I don’t drink soda so I have NO CLUE where that came from *sigh* so this weekend I’ll be spending a few HUNDRED on my car! How annoying.

Enough of my rant I swear lol.

So I was just so dead tired that today for my “lunch” I took a nap in my car- yup parked my car in the back, opened up the windows a few inches, pushed back the seat and I was gone for 40 minutes- but man I feel refreshed and ready to tackle the day! WOO! Haha this at 1:20 pm :p

I’ve only got one thing to do today at work, one thing tomorrow- and the rest of the day it’s like NOTHING for me to do- I’ve got 5 scientific articles to read also- but no rush on those. The nice thing about my job is I have very little to do- but sometimes it can get boring- but lucky for me the people here say I do such a great job- I have to wonder WHAT the assistant before me did when they complain and say she didn’t do such a great job- and yet she got promoted- what a world! :p

Anyways- off to calibrate a machine then read around on 3FC!

I got up today at 6 am, normal time, but I felt like TOTAL CRAP! UG. Sore throat, stuffed nose, slight headache, and so on. I was so ready to hit the gym today and now I feel like my eyes are lopsided and that they are gonna fall out- dammit the professor last night was sick and I guess I got it from her- I was just sick a few weeks ago! What the heck! I got some dayquil in my desk, I’m taking it then hopefully I’ll be fine tomorrow. I didn’t get to bed till 11 pm last night- was in class till 10, then got home at 10:20, gave hubby and birdie a kiss, took a quick shower (man I felt stinky for some reason) and then hit the sack, read for a few minutes and was out by 11 pm! I’m one of those 8 hour people so having only 7 BLAH I want more sleepy time. Luckily nothing on TV I want to watch tonight so I’m sure I’ll be passed out by 9.

I’ve decided that since I prefer weights rather than cardio- I’m going to do weights everyday (upper body one day, lower the next) and then any remaining time I have left I’ll do a quick burst of hard cardio. I go on the treadmill and elliptical and nothing happens- but when I weight train I notice a difference so that’s what I’m going to do.

Calories yesterday were 1,050. You’d think that would be good- but nope salt was 4600mg! Where is all this salt coming from- it’s like dang can’t eat anything without being bombarded with stupid salt. Drives me crazy- I’m sorry but I don’t see HOW I’m supposed to eat less than 2300mg a day! I mean even if I eat a subway sandwich which I don’t add salt and pepper, it’s still loaded with salt- I guess no more cheese either? I’m really going to try to work on that today- I have high blood pressure and that’s obviously not good!

My sister is begging for tacos tonight so while her and my husband eat their tacos (still can’t eat hard food for one more week) I’ll have a “taco salad” but without any sort of taco shell or tortilla. But my mouth is watering thinking about that anyways lol.

Breakfast- cup of 2% milk with cup of cheerios (233 cal + 313 mg sodium)
Lunch- lemon chicken lean cuisine: (300 calorie + 570 mg sodium) and yoplus fiber yogurt (calories 110 +70 mg sodium).
Dinner- taco salad- don’t know calories but will use salsa for dressing I will do good on salt today!

Gah after yesterday and my dental work I decide to go to the store for lunch and get some soup- when I come out I’m driving and I notice a HUGE crack on my windshield and I’m like WHERE did this come from!? UG!! It’s one of those cracks that’s obviously going to spread so I HAVE to get it fixed *sigh* hopefully I can find a cheap place in the area

OUCH yesterday my husband and I went to the dentist. Okay now both of us were poor college students up until last year- so that meant obviously we didn’t have money for good insurance- our insurance was terrible with HORRIBLE dental so we just never went. I tried my best to keep my teeth clean- but I know for a fact my husband wasn’t keeping up with his teeth- it got to the point his breath was bad and I wouldn’t kiss him unless he brushed. I hope he never reads this or he’ll just get mad lol.

So anyways- we go yesterday- after myself not having been in for SEVEN years and I have 7 cavities and some gaps starting to occur between my teeth and gums. What was my bill AFTER insurance? $2500. My husband had 8 cavities- and pft he’s all like “but they are small” and I’m like a CAVITY IS A CAVITY we are paying to get it fixed so it’s serious enough! And his gum/tooth problem is twice as bad as mine. His bill? $4200 AFTER insurance!

I did the first step last night- a super deep clean then 10 antibiotic injections (each costing us $100 after insurance). My mouth was so raw last night and I swear after that procedure I felt like someone raped my mouth- it hurt so bad! DO NOT IGNORE YOUR TEETH GO TO THE DENTIST! My sister hasn’t gone in a year and I was like WHAT are you waiting for? Mom PAYS for your insurance take advantage of it!

I am not allowed to eat ANYTHING hard the next 10 days, I wasn’t allowed to brush last night, and I can’t eat anything sticky or spicy either. The injection was not with a needle- but this small device that would inject antibiotic in between the tooth and the gum area- killing the bacteria that’s eating my gums and helping them to recover. I also have to use a good mouthwash they gave me 2x a day and then next week I’m going in to get the fillings done. Hubby is going in next week to do the first part, the cleaning and the injections, and then probably a week later to do cavities.

My husband didn’t like that we are spending $6700 for all this work- but I was like our teeth our important and we are going to take care of them- not just for us, but for our future children. We don’t want to pass this to them and it’s better now then later- that $6700 is from our combined not going to the dentist for 26 years (me 7 and him 19!). I said from now on if we go every 6 months like we are supposed to- we should never have to pay more than our insurance premiums ever again.

Course that’s all the tax money- BUT since I took out “carecredit” it’s interest free for 18 months- meaning I’m paying off the credit cards ANYWAYS because they have interest rates attached to them while this carecredit does not. Combine that with lowering our school payments, getting our car refinanced, and so on, we’ll be able to manage. Hopefully I get this promotion that is coming up in the summer/end of the year so we’ll be able to wipe out all debt and start saving faster. Once my husband and I have completely wiped out our cars, credit cards, and now this carecredit- we will be able to start saving for a home.

Okay I know this one is long- and I’m sorry. Oh and last night since I have to eat soft food AND I was totally miserable I treated myself to some mac and cheese! But I used 2/3 the amount of butter (margine instead) and lowfat milk- so that has to count for something right?

Oh and on the bright side- my teeth look SO MUCH better today- and that’s just with one treatment- the dentist said after a month my mouth will be very healthy and was pleased with the difference after just the cleaning and injections. My poor hubby- he has 2x as much work to be done in one day- he’ll be super miserable!

They say nothing is certain but death and taxes, I think dieting should also be there! At least for me lol.

So this weekend was really busy- with valentines day and doing my taxes I was pretty busy but managed to get a lot done yay me.

This year I tried turbo tax and OMG I should have done this years ago- my husband and I are getting a HUGE refund this year! I’m tempted to go back and do my 2007 taxes just to see if there is any sort of difference lol. For less than $50 I got both my state and federal done in like half an hour and a great refund. My hubby and I will be using that money to pay off 2 of our credit cards- that will leave one more card and then we are debt free! Well we still have carpayments and student loans- but then we’ll be able to either start paying larger amounts OR saving money. Me personally I’d rather pay off the cars as fast as possible then tackle the student loans Maybe within 5 years we can be totally debt free (well besides a house lol). That’ll be NICE.

Dieting last week- meh not so bad- obviously at the zoo we ate dinner and lunch there. BUT I had a hearty breakfast at home, two soft fried eggs (the yolk was still soft and I use pam to fry my eggs), two slices of wheat toast, and one slice of cheese, it was very yummy and kept me full till we ate lunch at one. I did have enchiladas for lunch with rice and beans, but that was it- and my water on the side. A few hours later for a snack my hubby and I each had one of those fiber one bars- and get this folks- he LIKED IT- he said it was really good lol.

For dinner we had dinner AT the zoo but hey we deserved this- we made a promise to each other that we’d go out and do more things together a few months ago- and since then we have made the effort- sure we aren’t paying off our debts as fast- BUT we also aren’t miserable! Spending a bit a month on us has really helped our relationship so much- before we were just too stressed out and it wasn’t making life easy.

We went to the movies the next morning and I did have nachos but I don’t think I will ever buy them again- they are 500 calories! That was my “lunch” but I felt I could have eaten something better. Oh well, we all slip up now and then.

And yesterday was totally a good day- I didn’t even look at the scale for fear of what it would say- BUT I didn’t feel bigger and TOM was finally done yesterday- so this week for sure Thursday and Friday going to the gym (I’d go today but dr. appointment at 2 and then dentist appointment at 4) and working my butt off. So besides those two bad days over the weekend I’ve still stuck to everything and this weekend there is nothing to throw me off

I also just tried that new “yoplus” yogurt from yoplait (blackberry pomegranate)- it’s alright- the taste is decent but call me crazy- I swear I taste the fiber- the yogurt ALMOST felt gritty, like they put fiber powder or something in there. Either way I bought a box of four so I might get used to it by then.

Hope everyone is doing well with their weight loss!

Food so far today:
B- 1 cup cheerios and 1 cup milk: 230 cals
L- yoplus yogurt and BBQ chicken lean cuisine pizza (this is SO GOOD): 460 cal’s
S- probably some strawberries or an orange: less than 100 calories
D- tacos! no clue what those calories are at this particular moment- will calculate later

Ug TOM is in full force today- I just want to curl up and sleep but obviously can’t cuz I’m at work BOO!

Luckily not many people are here today- why am I working today?! lol. I got the kit section all filled up, and everything is pretty much done for the week. If I wanted to be overzealous I could go autoclave, but seriously that can wait till next week as we still have enough items in stock.

Yesterday wasn’t the greatest- I was really hungry so I had a turkey sandwich last night, no mayo and used whole wheat bread so it can’t have been TOO terrible. I’d guesstimate about 250 calories for my sandwhich.

TGIF! I’m so ready for this three day weekend, the house is clean so that’s good- just got some laundry to do, we are good on food as well, and haven’t figured out what I’m making for dinner. Usually we’d grab some grub and watch a movie- but since we are going to the zoo tomorrow I’m like hmmm I don’t want to eat out too much this weekend and if I make chicken again my husband might freak lol.

Maybe we’ll compromise and I’ll grab subway since that’s not too terribly fattening. Logging in what I plan to eat and including subway that’d be 1350 calories for the day. And don’t let me weigh myself on TOM anymore- I checked and I’m at that stupid 214.5 again! BLAST you 214.5, but I definitely am feeling TOM today so hopefully right after it’ll all go away.

I might have a fudgebar for a snack but hey that’s only 50 calories so :p

And I’m totally stuck on salt, I apparently am eating around 3000 mg of salt a day when I should be eating 2300 or less, anyone got tips on that? I mean I don’t add salt to ANYTHING I cook! Things are just so naturally salty or something it’s like what’s a girl to do?!

Well my husband’s cat scan came back- and it’s normal…

The doctor set his “release” date for next week, and I’m release him to go back to work? He shouldn’t even be driving! He can barely do anything without feeling like he’s going to pass out! He told his doctor he doesn’t know if he’ll be better by then and the doctor said she’ll extend the time. I was like what’s her next move?

“A follow up.”

A follow up to WHAT?! His condition has NOT changed, the med’s are NOT working- I’m so frustrated I just want to scream and cry. I so badly just want to go to McDonald’s and drown myself in french fries- but I didn’t and I won’t. I’m making chicken with a baked potato and peas for dinner. I’m sticking with the plan dammit- though with all my stress I probably won’t even lose a freaking pound. I went to see my friend during my lunch and she made me feel a lot better about the whole situation and told me it’d be fine. I pray she’s right cuz right now I feel totally stuck at work and just want to walk out.

I’m looking up all I can on vertigo and I’m thinking he should see a neurologist or something- I mean okay he’ll go to his follow and get “no change” so what’s the next step then?!

Yes you heard that- BUTT-ne, not acne, not backne, but butt-ne!

If this is TMI for you then move on! lol. But basically since the 8 lbs (I think it’s more than 8 because I bought a new scale and didn’t check the difference) loss my butt looks so much smaller! And tighter! AND AND AND I would have small red pimples here and there on my butt- they are all gone- I love it! I used to get so embarassed by it and tried everything but it wasn’t working! It’s funny cuz on my face and rest of my body I have great skin- maybe it was the tight jeans?

Well anyways- sorry if I gave TMI, but couldn’t help myself!

TOM has arrived and boom the scale went up three pounds- I for sure as heck know that I didn’t gain three pounds in two days- I mean okay sure- I had a small 110 calorie bag of funions! But I really wanted it! I think it’s much better than running to 7/11 and buying a large bag and all sorts of other stuff I used to do before I started the weight loss. So :p

Last night I was exhausted- I fell asleep at 10 pm (I took a bath around 8 pm- I needed some relaxation time) and woke up at 6 am. I came in to work and I definitely KNOW TOM is right around the corner (I should start tomorrow) but I got some emails from the crime lab director and the assistant director and I guess all the crap I’ve been feeling the past few weeks came together and with a little help from TOM I cried. BLAH I hate crying- specially I wouldn’t want anyone to see me (but thankfully it was 7 am and barely anyone was around).

Now don’t worry, no the directors sent me very NICE emails and it made me feel good that they would take the time out of their busy schedules (even if it were 2 minutes) to write me an email.

Basically here is the situation. I am in charge of the kits that we give out to the agencies. Reference oral swab kits (for a reference sample from people who could be victims or suspects), stain collection kits (for stains such as blood stains at crime scenes), and SART kits, which are rape kits for the victims and suspects.

Now we have a few agencies that ask us literally for hundreds, I have (well had) two interns who would spend hours each week making them, and now that they are gone (1 still comes in 2x a week but that’s not much when they both used to come in 4 days a week) I am spending a lot of time making these kits. We are also spending a lot of MONEY making all these kits. So my boss told me send an email out asking some of the agencies that ask the most if they could make their own kits, I supplied them with all the information they need to order the supplies and made a great form with how to put them together (it’s very easy) and even included a picture. Well I guess someone got upset and talked to the directors and of course you know me- I’m just doing my job- and the assistant director spoke to me and asked me for a copy of the email and I mean heck I’m on probation I got scared- I was upset that I might have done something wrong and that I might lose my job! Well both the director and assistant director today sent me very nice emails saying I did nothing wrong and don’t worry about it and thanks for all my hard work. So it made me feel good.

Okay I know I’m rambling now- but add that to my difficult class I am taking now (analytical chemistry) grouped with the fact my husband is still sick with vertigo and the doctor can’t figure it out, it’s kind of upsetting! When you see your husband not even able to get up and get some water because he’s so dizzy- it’s scary- he’s never had more than the flu in the 10 years we have known in each other. So I guess I was a little overwhelmed this morning!

I am going to speak to his doctor and tell her I think he should be recommended to a neurologist because reading around online I found one of the causes could be from the Central nervous system- and thinking back- I mean way back- there was times my husband would be dizzy for a minute- then it would go away- he’d chalk it up to getting up too fast or something- but I mean this could be part of the problem- and after the results from his CT scan I think that should be the next step.

Anyways- thanks for reading my long vent- I’m off to make MORE kits now BLAH!!