Meltdown
I think I’m on the verge of a meltdown. I think I need a good long, eye swelling, uncontrolable CRY!
Kiddo has been sick and spent from 8-12 doing doctor, meds, and picking up school work stuff. Spent the rest of the day making sure he’s got food to take with his steroids and getting him breathing treatments. He’s really struggling with his breathing. He hadn’t really had any fever, then that came tonight.
They also have a art contest thru the PTA and he wanted desperately wanted to work on his painting. Well I dug thru crap for about 30 minutes in order to find my old paints because he didn’t like the flourescent ones he used in last years contest, so we had to go to walmart AGAIN. Which isn’t a huge pain except the road it’s on is under complete construction so you have to take detours and access roads to the next exit, get turned around and come all the way back to the store. It’s utterly ridiculous.
He’s had tons of homework on top of it all. Most of it I have no clue how to help. Must be stuff the teacher normally goes over with them in class.
I’ve not got a damn thing done for myself today. I’m also supposed to help with school pictures tomorrow and I think I’m going to need to keep him home. I may get him ready and take him up there to get his pic taken and just come back home. I feel bad about needing ME time. Especially because my son is sooooo independent and not a momma’s boy. But the last 2 days he’s been glued to my side just following me around and constantly coloring. He has never liked to color and in the last week he’s probably drawn and colored more than his entire life. No clue what that’s about!
I guess I’m just exhausted. Stressed. Overwhelmed. And so much more.
My eating has been crappy today. Total stress eating. I dont do that too much, but today was bad. I was 211+some change today. It’ll be higher tomorrow that’s for sure. I didn’t get to work out today. I know I wont make it to the gym tomorrow either, but I’ll get on the elliptical at home if nothing else.
I’m going to finish up biggest loser and try to get some rest. Night all! Send good thoughts my way please.