Becoming a Butterfly

Weighed in all over the place this morning…not really going to count any of them.  I saw 213, 211.4, and 210.6.

9/9 - 214.4      9/10 -212.4         9/14 - 211.6    9/15 - 211.4      9/16 - 211.4

Been doing good on working out.  Been doing fine on eating.  We had a pta provided breakfast of doughnuts yesterday morn.  I’ll admit to having 2 and I felt so sick afterwards for hours!  No more of that stuff.  I wasn’t to guilty bc we only have doughnuts once or twice a year.  I had a low carb wrap yesterday for lunch and a lean cuisine and a hb egg for dinner last night.  So not terrible.

Hubby and I aren’t getting along (he’s also out of town) so I’m feeling down in the dumps for the most part.  Oh well… 

Busy up at school.  Our fall festival is this Saturday and we are trying to get it all together.  It’s totally exhausting. 

Watched Big Brother last night and was thrilled that the first time in forever one of the people I wanted to win actually WON.  Jordan was so endearing and really needed the money.  Also, watched Biggest Loser.  It was the best season premier in a long time that was really captivating.  Like everyone else….I bawled and bawled.  It’s going to be a great season.  So far no one is totally annoying…we’ll see if that lasts.  I hope this season kicks me (us) in gear!

Hope this week gets over quick so life can get back to somewhat normal!  Hope you guys finish strong!!!

I made it back to the gym today.  My back was considerably better yesterday.  Still some sharp pains when I go from sitting to standing.  I just couldn’t take another day off from the gym.  I’d gone from seeing a glimpse on Friday of 210.8 to seeing 215 today.  But official weigh in for today is 214.4.  I was pretty steady all over the 212’s last week. The 210 was a fluke. 

Friends couldn’t believe I was at the gym and told me it was stupid basically and that I needed a few more days.  But when I see my hard work slipping away so quick from being sedentary, I couldn’t take it any longer!

Did 30 mins on Nordic and 30 on the bike.  I only ran about 5 min total cos I was scared of jarring my hip or something crazy. 

I got new Asics Gel Nimbus2 this weekend and wore them today.  My feet were going numb but I think that’s more the pinched nerve.  They aren’t as comfy as last seasons Gel Nimbus, but maybe I need to do some breaking in. 

I got quite a few chores done today (hubby is coming home tonight - day early).  I haven’t done hardly anything since this back thing started up, so it was nice to do dishes and laundry for a change.  Our pool closed officially so I went ahead and cleaned out the pool bags, put away the towels, and getting the suits washed cos they smell like chlorine. 

I had a PTA Board meeting and then helped with a few things for our silent auction that we have at our fall festival.  This is a busy time up at school.  We have tshirt sales, fall festival, and lots of little things going on.  I’m in charge of Box Tops and the yearbook this year.  Should be interesting.  Gotta spend most of the day up there.  I’m going to leave in the morning to go to the gym though!!!  Hopefully I can move in the morning. 

This week a few of my tv shows have started which is totally exciting!  I love to watch reality tv and high school drama stuff….like 90210, etc.  Cheesy I know!  Biggest Loser starts next week…CANT WAIT!!

I need to start focusing during the weekends.  I feel like I can eat whatever I want lately.  Nothing has changed…still got plenty of weight to lose.  I should be at the gym on the weekends and I should be eating right if I want to get anywhere.  The weekend will be here soon and I need to give it a real go.  This last weekend hubby did a few things to stop me from eating some stuff.  I called him the “food Nazi.”  But he shoulda been the “coca cola Nazi.”  DAMNIT! 

Gotta get myself in check!  Feel free to set me straight!

Life has been so different with this terrible back/hip pain I’ve had for the last 2 weeks or so.  It was so bad this weekend I cant even begin to describe it.  It’s slightly better today.  I may try to get to the gym tomorrow.  Today was day 5 of not working out.  IT’S KILLING ME! 

Friday I saw a glimpse of 210 on the scale.  Today was 214.?  Hubby shoveled Coke down my throat all weekend and we were at the lake at the boat races all day Sunday so I didn’t have access to bottled water.  I drank what was given to me basically.  So, hopefully I can detox that stuff out of my system quick.  I had lots of stomach issues this weekend too.  Lots of pain and lack of sleep bc of it.  I am getting back on track!

I had usual breakfast, lunch was a few leftovers, snack of hb egg, and dinner was a lean cuisine.  Drinking only water!

Well…I got lots of cutting things out for my son’s first grade class left.  I’ve done nearly 2 hours already and I’m only 1/3 of the way done.  Gonna try to get to bed about 10:30.  We had a storm in the night that kept me up forever - gotta get sleeeeeep! 

Hope you guys can recover from the weekend too.  STAY STRONG!

Havent been to the gym in 2 days.  The pain in my hip is so bad I can barely move.  This morning I was bawling.  Not sure what I’m going to do.  Hubby freaks out and gets mad at me when I’m in pain.  I think it’s his way of not knowing what to do for me.  I’m a tough cookie and this is wiping me out.

Knowing it may be a while until I get to the gym, I’ve been eating really good.  Last night I desperately wanted french fries.  Hubby went to Five Guys to get dinner but called bc there were 15 people in line and it was packed.  I just told him to come home and I could eat a Lean Cuisine.  I also had a small bowl of frosted flakes too. 

I haven’t done anything today.  I’m still in so much pain.  Hubby got an emergency work call today so he’s been at work for 3 hrs already. 

I got a new laptop yesterday.  I’m trying to get use to it.  The mouse is very sensitive and as I write my hands are rested on it sorta so it gets crazy every once and a while.  It’s so much faster than my old one.  Hubby is going to wipe the old one and keep it to take on trips out of town so we can message or talk via webcam or just so he can catch up on the news I guess.  We are becoming tech crazy.  Have multiples of everything.  It’s ridiculous.  But this one will really help with the software I’m going to be using to design the yearbook.  I’m determined for it to be AMAZING.  I’ve seen like the last 5 years of yearbooks and I’ve got to say they SUCK!!!  I’m creative enough for it to be great!  I’m actually getting very excited about it. 

Gosh I have so much to do and cant physically move in order to do any of it.  I guess I should just suck it up as best as possible and get busy.  I just am scared I’m doing more harm than good.

OHHH…sometimes I get side tracked.  This is a weightloss blog.  Need to post the weight.

Thursday = 212.4   Friday = 212.2    Saturday = 212

It’s not much, but I’ve not gotten to the gym.  I’m soooo desperate to see 211!!!  It’s getting on my nerves!

We went to return some pants at Old Navy yesterday.  FYI they have a bunch of graphic Ts for $5.  I got 5 hubby got 3.  Limit 5 per customer.  But they are cute.  I’ve got to get on a budget.  This clothes thing is getting out of hand.  It’s just so amazing to find clothes that fit!!  We also got a few Ralph Lauren t shirts at SAMS for $6.81.  Bargain shopping!

I need to get my new running shoes ASAP.  I’m desperate for comfort!  Someone also told me to get running socks and the cushion will really help me too.  That’s on the list.  (I’m so thankful that you cant see how often  this mouse is screwing me up.  It would be so embarassing.  I’ve opened new tabs, switched the size of the font, scrolled up and down, etc.) 

OK OK…if you cant tell…I’m super bored laying here on my heating pad.  I’ll let you get back to other people or to your LIFE!  Good luck!

I’m sick of seeing the same weight yo yo back and forth for days now.  It’s getting irritating.  I’m really crossing my t’s and dotting my i’s the last few days.  It will pay off!  It better pay off!  My body finds these weights it likes and then doesn’t want to move.  It’s done and comfy and STUBBORN! 

Weight Monday: 214.6, Tuesday: 212.6, Wednesday: 213.8, Thursday: 212.4 (which is really the lowest I’ve been yet by 0.2 lbs.  Guess I shouldn’t complain too much.

Yesterday I had an egg before gym, regular breakfast, hot dog for lunch (at sams last minute), and LC for dinner.  I didn’t have one morsel of food or candy or nothin after dinner at 6:30 last night.  I was so hungry during the night and icky feeling when I got up this morning.  I usually have a little snack or cheese stick about 10 or 10:30 most nights.  (Have intestinal issues that if I eat from 7-10 I will be up all night in excrutiating pain…so that’s why I do a late snack.)  The candy issue…..I never have really liked sweets very much.  Not a huge candy fan.  Well…since I’ve started this “lifestyle change” I’ve had a psychotic need for candy.  It’s never much….like 5 runts or hot tamales, or chewy sprees.  But it’s more than I use to have.  But I’m not hardly ever having anything but water to drink and dont really eat many carbs cos of stomach issues.  I think my body just needs a kick of sugar.  But I didn’t even have that last night.

Kinda jicky schedule since yesterday.  Hubby had to do an overnight inspection of a huge manufacturing building last night so I was up most of night worried about when he’d be home.  Then went to gym after he went BACK to work (he’s not had sleep in like 36 hours straight so far and he’s still at work now).  Did 30 min on treadmill - miss my nordic trak but someone’s always on them now and 30 min on the bike.  I had PTA related meetings this afternoon and fundraising stuff to do so just stayed till school got out at 3.  I had a glass of big red cos I didn’t get a chance to eat lunch and was really having a meltdown at school.  Came home and Cole had some leftover raviolis (about a 1/4 can) and a stick of pepperjack cheese.  I’m cooking salmon, sweet potatoes and some kinda veggie for dinner.

Wore a new floor length dress to school today and got a ton of compliments.  Its the one hubby made me try on that was a Large.  Soooo…yay for that.  I’m going to have to be put on a budget with all this clothes shopping.  I have no intention of staying this size so I need to quit buying stuff.  Luckily the Large is a little tight up top and can wear for a while.  I’m planning on buying stuff that’s easily taken in and altered.  I’ve never had anything done that my mom didn’t hem for me or whatever.  So I’ve got to find someone.  I’m a grown up damnit.  I can find somewhere to get things altered!  Stacey and Clinton would be so proud of me!

Please pray for me to see progress and be strict with what goes in my mouth!!!

I’ve also been battling a pinched nerve in my hip/back for a few weeks.  The last 4-5 days it has been excrutiating!  I cant sit at all and if I do it takes a few minutes for me to be able to stand up without tears in my eyes.  Tuesday it took 5 minutes for me to get my socks and shoes on to go to the gym and I was bawling!  I had this happen before but I couldn’t get out of bed for a month.  Exercise was all that helped.  Now I’m thinking maybe the exercise is what’s hurting me.  I dont know!  But that’s also the only thing that seems to not put me in pain while doing it…..AHHHH!  It’s got to get better so I can get things done and get back to running more.  I’ve only been doing like 1/5 of my walk at a run.  Not doing my mile or anything.  Any advice to to speed the process up????

Thanks for reading!  Now I’m going to rest for about 30 mins and then cook dinner and hopefully hubby will be home!  Lots O Luck to ya!