Becoming a Butterfly

2nd post today.

Note : Changed my theme bc I think the butterfly one is so hard to read when I read others. 

PS weight today was 217 this morn and 216.2 this evening.  We’ll take the higher just to be safe.  Which is a 4.5 lb weight loss for the week.  But I’m post TOM and post VACATION….so not a true loss, but a loss at least from when I got back last monday! 

I wrote a long ole post yesterday night and went to push publish and my internet started acting up that second so I lost my post completely.  I was sooooo pissed.

My hubby came up with the Soggy Shirt Saturday for yesterdays title and was so proud of himself.  He went to the gym with me yesterday and we were both DRENCHED when we left.  I did an hour on the Nordic and 30 mins on the bike and burned 1480 cals.  I ran for 6 mins straight for the first time ever and then did another 5 min run and usual intervals throught of running. 

Friday we went out to eat with MIL like usual and went to Cheddars.  I had a grilled chicken salad and water.  I did have a few chips with hot sauce and a few with queso but you could tell it had been sitting there a while so it was thick and hard so I didn’t eat much of that.  Wasnt worth it.  Saturday morn had usual breakfast.  Saturday lunch was some of hubbys leftover pasta with chicken and shrimp.  Saturday dinner was Subway.  Today’s breakfast was usual.  Lunch was after gym and I made turkey burgers on the grill and used those new Orrowheat sandwhich thin thingies.  They have 5g of fiber and are 100 cals.  I put a slice of monterey jack on each, lettuce, a tbsp of ranch and some ketchup.  It was sooo good.  Then I had 10 cherries for dessert.  Dinner was sushi and I’m super stuffed.  Worried about the soy sauce cos it wasn’t low sodium.  Water retention is such a pain in the butt.

We went to the gym this morning.  MIL came too cos she wanted to join.  She’d be going after work most of the time and I always go around 11:30.  I have a feeling she will rarely go.  Anyway.  She hindered my workout cos I didn’t go as long cos everyone was ready to go.  I did 30 min on Nordic (6min of straight running again and intervals of running and incline) and 30 on the bike.  Did a few leg exercises waiting for her to get her contract filled out. 

She didn’t want to eat lunch with us.  She missed out if I do say so myself.  We rested for a bit after that.  Hubby fell asleep so I went and showered and sorted laundry.  We went to barnes and Noble, target and gro store.  (we went to walmart at 10 am which is pretty early for us.)  I got a calorie counting book that is really neat.  Maybe I can make myself more aware of things that are going in my mouth without me thinking.  I’m excited about it. 

I wrote in my post yesterday about how I want to try to declutter my house because I think it directly links to my weight also.  I have a book called Does this Clutter Make My Butt Look Fat by Peter Walsh.  I love his shows and his work with Oprah.  Just a thought and a huge task.  But I’m going to see what I can do.  Even if it’s only a few things a day.

Oh btw…my MIL told me yesterday that I was getting skinny.  WHATEVER.  But It was huge to me bc she has a hard time complimenting me or anything that would make me feel good about myself.  So, I’ll take it.  whatever I can get!

My new motivation is our first big PTA meeting is the 17th.  I miss being at school.  These women are very hoity toity, but very complimentary.  They compliment on so much..hair, clothes, etc.  So I’m looking forward to hearing nice things again!  haha.  I just want someone to notice that I’ve lost weight.  Not a whole lot, but maybe someone will notice!

Hope you guys are doing great and up to lots of good!

I had my usual breakfast.  Lean Cuisine for lunch.  Snack about10 cheese nips.  Dinner was a packet of Easy mac with 2 turkey hot dogs cut up in it.  Not the greatest but less than 400 cals total. 

I’ve had a headache since yesterday.  I asked hubby if it could be withdrawls from bad food I ate on vacation.  He laughed.  I’ve tried to up my water intake too just in case. 

I made it to the gym!!!  I kicked my own ass.  I did an hour of NordicTrac and 30 min on the bike.  I ran for 5.5 minutes straight.  Did running intervals after that.  The guy next to me had started 15 mins before me on Nordic and at 60 mins I had more than doubled his calorie burn.  It’s always a competition!  With anyone.  There are so men in their 70s that can kick my ass and run for an hour or more straight.  I’m always in awe.  Anyways my HRM said I burned close to 1500 cals.  I had to run and pee after the Nordic and looked at myself in the mirror and I was soooo red.  Probably didn’t help the headache issue.

So, my MIL has been  creating issues and I’ve not even been in town.  Apparently she’s pissed at me bc I didn’t let Cole talk to her while we were gone for 7 days.  Well, every time she harassed my hubby Cole was in the pool and I wasn’t going to go get him out just to talk to her.  She’s highly jealous of my mother and is scared that he’s going to love my mom more.  She’s crazy.  I told my hubby ( who was getting irritated with me while I was gone over it) that he only got to talk to Cole once while we were gone and I wasn’t trying to keep him away from Cole.  So, he totally got what I was saying then.  I wasn’t deliberately doing it.  My MIL thinks the whole world revolves around her.  FYI IT DOESN’T.  Not everything is done just to get at her.  I’M A GROWN UP!  DAMNIT! 

Ok enough ranting and raving about someone that doesn’t deserve the type time!  Have a feeling it didn’t make sense anyway.

So….here’s to a good evening with no snacking and a great tomorrow!

Today was my first day back officially.  I did good!  I ate good.  Got in an hour of exercise.  Didn’t make it to gym but did elliptical, abs and weights here at the house. 

Had usual breakfast of light eng. muffin and slimfast.  Lunch I wasn’t too hungry and was getting some weird stomach pains…so had a fiber one yogurt and a banana.  I took a long nap to get caught up on sleep and then worked out.  Ate about 10 reduced fat cheese nips and 2 pieces of beef jerkey.  Then at 5:45 I was starving so I heated up some frozen veggies - 2 servings for 90 cals.  Then I had a lean cuisine for dinner.  I had a few banana chips and some trail mix for a snack about 930pm. 

Hubby and I had a 2 hour convo tonight on phone.  I dont know what got into him.  I was gone for over a week and he never really said he missed me.  He seemed pretty content that I was gone.  Tonight he couldn’t stop talking about how much he missed me and how when he sees me he’s not going to let me go.  It was so nice and I really needed to hear it.  It was a great talk and I feel filled up.  You know sometimes you just feel empty or lacking…I’m feeling filled up.  Satisfied and content.  I’m rarely feeling like that.  So, all in all, today was a good day. 

I joined w8challenge and won 3rd place for the July contest!  I’m totally thrilled with that cos I was on vacation 2 weeks of that.  I’m going to kick ass this month!  Ya’ll better watch out!

Brseay…thanks for the comment.  My hubby randomly said the same thing to me today.  I’m not a positive person really so I’ve really got to work on it.  I’ve got to set myself up for success.  I’ve always been the opposite.  Say I’m going to fail so its so much sweeter when I dont.  Worked for me in school, but maybe not working so well in life.  Changes will happen!

Ok…so I’ve been gone a week.  I managed to do lots of damage while I was gone to my mom’s.  It was her birthday and we had parties, and dinners, and visiting, and lunches.  I weighed tonight at 221.5.  I’m pretty sure that’s not real accurate from traveling and finishing up TOM.  I probably earned a few of those pounds though!  I worked out 2 days of the 7.  I’m going to start fresh first thing tomorrow.  Today I had 2 sausage and cheese kolaches, 1/2 apple fritter, single serving bag of bbq kettle chips, happy meal from mcdonalds, iced coffee, 2 cokes, and a few pieces of candy.  I was so damn bored on the trip I had to keep myself awake while driving somehow.  We were in the car for over 8 hours.  (Beats the trip down there - 14 hours!  Had a blowout on the highway right out of San Antonio.) 

I’m going to do my best to get to the gym tomorrow.  Not sure how I’m going to feel.  I feel like I’m getting sick (happens real easy when I’m sleep deprived).  I”m definitely sleeping late!!!

Soo…Here’s to starting over!  AGAIN!