Yes, again. This struggle with weight has been an on-going battle. My highest weight was 292lbs towards the end of 2008. In January of 2009, after some serious marital issues [dh was having an emotional affair with a co-worker], I lost about 35-40lbs while working on our relationship (more me than him, as the pattern goes), things spiraled down again with our marriage, and the emotional eating again, the weight returned…
I need to get control of this once and for all. This has to be a change for the rest of my life. I want to be here for my children, and not only here, but HEALTHY. I don’t want to develop diabetes like my mother and many other family members (my uncle died after going into a diabetic coma), I want to be able to ride bikes, sail, hike, swim, and play with my children. I want to feel confident for myself, and I want my twin girls to see a confident mother that they can look up to as a role model. I don’t want them setting bad patterns in life because that’s what they’ve seen me do. I want to model an active lifestyle and healthy eating. I don’t want them to be ashamed of me. I want my boys to see me as an example of what a mother and woman should be.
This isn’t going to be easy; but seldom are the things most worth it in life. This is my journal of the journey to getting Beck* back.
*Beck will be the name I use on this blog; it is not in reference to the Beck diet system, though I have ordered some of Dr. Beck’s books, and may use them for weight loss.