I don’t do pink!

Well I am down 22 pounds and more so, a weight lifted off my shoulders! I have beat the cancer…WOW! I feel lighter everyday and ready to take on the world….again! I was hiding for a long time feeling a bit desperate, lonely and wondering if I was going to make it. So many walked along side….so many loved me that didn’t really know me….so many died along the way….I need to do something great with my life, now that I have a second chance. Thanks for all the comments to my blog. I hope some are inspired to keep fighting the good fight…..YOU CAN WIN……I DID!!!

Who needs them? Negative nellies, haters, people that think you are a fake! This is an original blog and to all those out there that don’t think so….piss off! This is a diet journal with the occasional story of my life thrown in. I don’t think I can stop others from copying my material. Anyway, doing this for ME with the hopes that it may touch other peoples lives. If you think I am a fake or a copier, don’t read my blog. As I said before, piss off! Just as in life and dieting, there are always those that are going to try and discourage you and try to defeat you.  Don’t let them. I can’t prove this I created this theme, blog, original thoughts but, I shouldn’t have to. If you like it thank-you, if you don’t, move along. PEACE

If the past 2 weeks have taught me anything, it is that I have NO LIMITATIONS in my life. My autistic nephew has opened my eyes to the fact that I can have anything or do anything in my life as long as I pursue it. Yes, the past 2 years have been hard. Battling cancer, loss of a close friend and my husband dying. All of this news in a 3 month period! Battling with my weight, my self-esteem, my worth. At the end of the day, it’s me I have to live with. Others can encourage, chastize, or walk away. You are still here. At times, I have felt lonely during this journey but, it ultimately comes down to Me. My life has consisted of me always looking after others. I was always put on the back shelf. Now I have taken myself into the fore front and realized that I am worth it. I am worth being loved, worth being admired, worth being challenged, worth being encouraged and worth being happy. Weight is coming off. Starting to see the light behind my eyes again and the beauty that lies within. YOU CAN DO IT JUST BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE WORTH IT. Don’t listen to those negative nellies in your life. All they are doing is defeating you. It’s a daily battle with myself but, I am going to win this war. Head held high and moving forward. PEACE ALL!

Well, it has been about 2 weeks since I posted. I have had a HUGE response to my blog. Thank-you all…good, bad and ugly…LOL. Diet is going well. Building a lot of muscle as I work out and I am back to my mantra of NO EXCUSES! Looking after my autistic nephew has really opened up my eyes to things that I think are important in life. Feeling good about who you are and being comfortable in your own skin. Loving others and not just people you like but, people that annoy you or frustrate you. Stopping in this busy life to enjoy the little things….like a squirrel running across the snow to get to a big Oak tree. Keep moving forward and pay attention to life around you. Holding at 278!

Went to the hospital today to meet my new niece. WOW….almost made me cry. She came into this world at just over 3lbs or 1 and a half kilos. She ia so beautiful. As her mother was feeding her, I got a bit emotional on the inside. Here I have just come through 17 months of chemo for breast cancer and I am at a loss for words. How is a woman defined? Is it breasts that make us female? The ability to give life and milk to sustain life? I kept my breasts as I like them. The surgeon took out the lump. Well, there was really very little discussion….I had a meeting with the “girls” and they didn’t want to be seperated!! LOL Today made me really appreciate my life and I am so thankful for everything including going through the cancer. It has made me stronger and made me want to live life and love harder than ever before. Brother got an eliptical and a stationary bike today. It’s on….fitness and sexy bod, here I come! Stay strong and have courage tolive YOUR life! PEACE.

Just a simple blog of my thoughts and struggles, triumphs and defeats. Have lost 20 pounds now since the 8th of January. Very proud of myself. I am on track to becoming that athlete once again. Cancer hopefully behind me and all the grief of this past year. Moving forward and staying focused on ME! I am worth it and it has taken me a longgggggggggggg time to say that. I don’t understand the blog world. Sorry for any problems with my site but, it’s just a simple blog from a complicated girl! Stay strong!

Oh it would be so easy to go to the corner store and pick-up a bottle of courage. We could pour it on ourselves in the morning and head out the door to face the world. The critics, the wolves, their voices always at you filling your mind with doubt and fear. I didn’t fear the cancer probably because I didn’t have time. I lost a good friend the month after and then the month after that, I lost my husband. I was in shock and the wolves were hungry, waiting to devour me. The critics joined in and I jumped into the bottle to drown out their voices. There were moments of darkness and gaps in my life that I couldn’t fill in. Someone once quoted, “Yours scars remind you where you have been, they don’t determine where you are headed.” That gives me courage, to understand that the only person standing in my way is ME. I’m going away for 2 months from home to look after my autistic nephew. His new baby sister is still in the hospital at 4 lbs. I am looking forward to jumping into his little world to see how he experiences everything. I’ll keep you posted. In the meantime, keep your chin up and keep moving forward. Remember, have courage to live YOUR life the way YOU want to.

I don’t know how to use blogs that well. This is my first one and I guess I just pictured it being an online diary for me, you know, thoughts I have. I can’t help anyone with compatible issues, blog design or anything else. I run through Firefox so I imagine Internet Explorer would view my blog differently. No, I don’t twitter. I don’t even have a cell phone…LOL. To the person that made the comments about not liking my writing….so be it. I’m not offended. Don’t read it. This is for me anyway. 18 pounds lighter. Going to start sprouting Quinoa and sweet potatoes soon as I am eating them everyday. When I started the journey of cancer I said to my doctor…what ever happened to the good old days when you got cancer, looked sick and lost weight….I’ve gained and he thinks I will get a mug at the end of it….whopee shit…LOL. Have a good one all and keep up the good fight. Anything is possible just have courage!

Well, one definition of courage is….The state of quality or mind of spirit that enables one to face danger or fear with self-possession, confidence, resolution and bravery….I like that! I have courage and have started to change my life. I use to think I needed a “workout buddy” or a “diet buddy” but, I don’t. I don’t think it is anything to do with willpower. I think it is a resolve to change one’s life. In 3 months, I have quit smoking and drinking cold turkey and at the same time. Stopped eating gluten and sugar and gotten my fat ass on a bike and ridden every day. I am courageous and resolved to never look back! Thank-you for your comments. I hope my writing helps some of you out there.

It’s clear….yayyyyyyyyyyyyy! Just need the mammogram in March now. Lost 15 pounds also in 2 weeks and have been on the bike every day! It was painful at first but, as the days went on I got better and more flexible. Life is good….keep fighting the good fight …..it will work out!