My Journey- Good and Bad!

Nothing to brag about. Eating was ok, not wonderful, but Ive done alot worse. I did get on the treadmill last night for about 15 mintues. I know, I need to do much more than 15 minutes, but I had a migraine and every time my heart would beat my head felt like it was going to explode. Ive got another headache today. Ive been having alot of migraines lately. The Biggest Loser comes on tonight so Ill be on the treadmill for at least an hour (I hope). Scales went back up a lb this am. No idea why. Didnt eat enough to gain a lb. Who knows if they are right though. I need a new set. They only work 10% of the time anyway.  The next set I buy will have to be put somewhere besides the bathroom. I dont know if the boys are getting them wet or what. BOYS!

the party.  I ate very little all day so I could have pizza. lol. I know. Thats not very smart, but I dont claim to be the smartest person. Anyway.. I had some pizza (probably too much) and just a bite of cake. The scales were down this morning. 2 lbs in 2 days. Pretty good. I still have a LONG, LONG, LONG way to go. Just got to keep my motivation up. I didnt get to work out yesterday. We were on the go all day long. Im going to try to hit the treadmill for an hour (or more) tonight when House is on. Its my new addiction.

Not the best, but ok. It had been going REALLY well until Dh came home. He brought home chex mix, ice cream, and sugar cones. Lord help me. I did pretty well overall with food today. Im thankful that I was able to keep a little control over myself. I managed to walk/run 20 minutes on the treadmill tonight. A little over a mile and about 150 calories. Lord knows I could have done alot more.

Tomorrow is a Halloween/Bday party for my SIL/BFF’s nephew. Yes, my SIL is my BFF. Can u believe that. Doesnt happen often does it? LOL. Actually we’ve just became this close over the past year. We’ve been SILs for almost 9 years now. We had our differences, but we worked through it and now I cant imagine my life without her. Anyway..  The Bday party is at Papa Johns. OMG my FAVE place for pizza not to mention my SIL owns a BAKERY and will be making the cake herself.  Ill be doing alot of praying!!!!!!!

when I stepped on the scales today. Ive gained some more. Lord help me. This is it. I know Ive said it 1001 times. I HAVE to do this or I am going to be right back to 300+ where I started.  I did manage to walk on the treadmill an hour Tuesday night while the biggest loser was on. Wed I had full intention of walking while watching the Island or whatever its called on MTV. But Dalton woke up. It was 10pm and DH and Bai were already in bed. Dalton will not let you walk while he is in the room. He keeps trying to get on with you. Then yesterday I had a massive Migraine. My scales have been messed up but they worked this AM. I hopped on and OMG. Lord help me. Seriously. Im too ashamed to even type what it said. Now thats sad. I cant believe Ive let myself eat and eat and eat until Ive gained this much back. I was down to 236!!!! I am so mad at myself. I know being mad will do nothing. I have to quit eating everything in site, get off my fat arse and do something about it. The weight will not just fall off. I have to work it off. I know this. All those  months of doing the right thing and watching the scales go down are not going to be wasted. Ill get back on track, I dont care if it kills me. (well yea I do) But I am gonna work my butt off. On Jan 1, 2009 I at least want to be dead even where I was on Jan 1 2008.  I know I cant do this alone. Ive got to have support from family, friend, and most of all Im going to pray about it. Even with all the support in the world though, I cant lose this weight unless I change my habits. Ive got to do this. Got to.

I HATE this new blog set up? Honestly.. its just not for me. I want the old set up back or I wanna switch over to blogger or something. Its so much easier. I wish there was a way to copy all these posts to blogger. Id hate to lose so much.

I managed to get on the treadmill 2x last week. Both nights that TBL was on. I walked an hour the first night, and 45 minutes the next night.

What happened to having the motivation to get on that treadmill and RUN? Ugh.. Or to do TBL workout everyday?

I have GOT to get with it. I just want to at least be what I was on Jan 1, 2008, when it hits Jan 1 2009.  That would be 246 lbs!

The scales are not being nice at all!! I managed to get on the treadmill 3x.

I watched TBL tonight. Didnt cry the whole time this week. I walked 40 min on the treadmill tonight, did pretty good with food today. I need to drink more water though. 

Im still sick! Ive had a cold forever!!! Got better then, got sick again.

Sorry I havent been posting much. My weight loss journey has been at a dead stop. I havent had the motivation to get up and move AT ALL. Ive been spending alot of time on my other blog.

Im a obsessed with deals/being thrifty lately.

Dh says Im hoping from one thing to the next, which I guess is true. I need to do pics of the boys and some pics for a friend, but Ive had no desire to take pics lately. No desire to work out either. The only thing Ive been the least bit motivated with is saving $$ and getting ourselves out of debt. Not always a bad thing, but I could probably make some money doing pics too! Maybe once Im feeling better I will be more motivated to do the pics.

This has been the craziest year for me. Everyone and their brother in my family has been sick. I cant even begin to name everyone and everything thats been wrong. Not to mention that Ive had 2 surgeries and seems that Ive been sick almost no stop this year with one thing or another.  I think I need to get some vitamins.

55% of the time that the biggest loser was on.

I walked 30 minutes on the treadmill at incline 3, 3mph.

Comes on tonight at 8pm Eastern Time.

Dont forget to tune in!!!

http://www.nbc.com/The_Biggest_Loser/

I have wasted a year! Well 3/4 of one anyway. I was 246 on Jan 1, 2008 and here I am in the middle of Sept at 250!!! I had hoped to be 200 or below by now. I just cant seem to get my fat butt up and MOVE!!!!! I just want to eat and eat everything I see. I know Im a long way from the 307 I started out at, but still.. Im a long way from the 200 I want to be! I know I can do it. Heck I was down to 236 at one point. I just need my mojo back. Please GOD help me get my mojo back. TBL starts back soon and I pray that gives me motivation. I dont want to do this for anyone but myself. I want to be happy with my body again.

and I had no idea how much I weighed on the 6th to enter TBL challenge. UGH! I really wanted to do it too. Oh well. Thats life lately. They started working again this am. I hope Dalton dont get them wet again. Wild boys!!! 250.6 this am! Hurts to even type it out. Im so mad at myself, yet Im so darn lazy I wont make myself work out. Im gonna try really hard today. Wish me luck. How is everyone out there in weightloss land?? Miss you all!!!