I woke up this morning with a huge lack of motivation. It took me 30 minutes to get out of the bed! I stepped on the scale and had gained 2 pounds. Regardless of the fact that I have stuck to my plan! I went to work annoyed and frustrated. By 8 am I had eaten a reeses egg, a piece of cheese and 5 town house crackers. Not my apples and almonds that I had planned and packed. So I am even more frustrated, annoyed and angry at myself for giving in, angry that I am even in this position and just basically hating life. So I got on here and posted to 3FC and had loads of advice and encouragement! I got back on track. Ate my apples and did 40 squats! I stuck to my plan the rest of the day. I even turned down Mexican for lunch! I had a rough night as well dealing with some ongoing family issues but I just let it go. It did not make those 2 pounds go away but it did not add anymore onto it! (hopefully!)
Well week 2 is officially off and running. Running right over me. It has been a hard day. I am grumpy and discouraged. Disgruntled and overwhelmed. I wonder if it will all be worth it in the end. I am not sure if I can do all of this work. I am tired of people and tired of everything. I hate that I feel this way. I hate this mood. I hate everything. I am hoping that tomorrow will be a better day. I am not sure how to make it better but it has to be better than today. Please do not let today be a precedent for the rest of the month!
Today is day 6! I have almost made it an entire week! I have found such amazing support on 3fc and it makes me motivated to keep on. I am glad that I had this week off from work so that I could learn how to eat. I try not to think of myself as on a diet but as making lifestyle changes. I need to do this. I have to. I am pretty proud of the week I have had. I am hoping that next week will be even better. I am determined that this will be the time I get the weight off! I know this week will not be a huge loss like most people have on week 1 because I am having TOM and because I am off work I am sleeping later, eating later, staying up later! So I am not expecting HUGE results this week! I am trying to jump right into excercising too! I have been attempting Jillian Michaels 30 day shred level 1 but it is killing me. I have not made it all the way through! It is intense! This week has been easier and harder than I thought it would be! I am 6 days closer to my goal than I was this time last week!
Today is the first day of my new journey to weight loss and being a healthier me. Today is also my first day on 3 fat chicks and on WW online. I was afraid to eat. I didnt want to mess up anything. I didnt want to go nuts and just have a complete loss of control. I didnt know what to eat. While I have been thinking and wanting to start something to lose weight and to become healthier, I decided for certain and joined both on a whim! Was not prepared. So I have literally had to calculate and think about every single bite of food that I put in my mouth today and decide if it was worth the points. I conquered that. I went to the store to try to see what I could do there. I luckily have WW scanner and WW mobile apps on my phone that makes it easier to find stuff. Again I had to calculate, analyze and decide if what I was about to put in my cart would be worth the points it would cost me at meal time. I have a hard time because I love cheese! Cheesier the better! Peanut butter! Ice Cream! All that stuff! A cold reese egg is the perfect treat! I have a pack of six in my fridge. They are 5 points each. I am proud to say that all six are still there and have been since I got them yesterday (obviously prior to my decision). I am not going to throw them like I am sure many people think I should. I will have one sometime. But I will not eat all 6 at one time. That is almost an entire days worth of points. I weigh a whopping 311 pounds. At 5′3 ish I should weigh somewhere around 130 ish. That is overwhelming to think about. Right now I want to get to 290. If I can lose 2 pounds a week that puts me at my goal somewhere around June 2. We will see.