I’m eight days into this new diet and am down 7.4 pounds. Who rocks? I do!
The thing is, I’m eating like crazy. 3 meals and 4 snacks. I’m eating constantly. Of course, they are portion controlled servings and not big honking slabs of beef or entire bags of potato chips. Everything is healthy. It’s basically, a high protein/high fiber, low carb/low fat diet at this point. My options are limited, but my motivation is high so I’m not complaining yet.
Here’s a weird thing. It was suggested to me by the weight loss counselor I speak to every day on this program that if I was hungry and it wasn’t time to eat, I could drink hot water with lemon juice and cayenne pepper. What?! Turns out, I kind of like it and it does seem to suppress my appetite. I have no scientific proof of this, but I also think it must be a diuretic. My anecdotal evidence STRONGLY suggests this.
Like I said, I talk to a weight loss counselor everyday on this diet. She is very nice and seems knowledgeable about weight loss and nutrition. Still, it’s odd. She flat out asked me about my bowel movements one day. That’s a topic I’m not used to discussing on the phone. Mostly, she asks me what I’ve eaten, makes suggestions about other things I can try, coaches me on challenges like eating out. I’m trying to decide if I really believe there is value to this daily contact or not. Jury’s still deliberating that one.
I have dinner out tomorrow night. I think I’m going the salad with grilled chicken route. I’m at that high motivation point where other things like pizza and pasta don’t even appeal (crazy!). I know the day where that changes is coming so I have to enjoy this ability to eat well while I can.
I have a bike. Up until two days ago, it was buried behind a mountain of Costco buy-in-bulk purchases in the garage. On Monday, I dug it out. My legs wobbled at the thought of mounting it. It’s been a long time since I’ve done anything more physical than walking from the pantry to the refrigerator.
It really is a shame that my bike has been sitting idle because I have an awesome bike! Meet the Electra Gigi 3i:
How cute is she? After dusting Gigi off, reinflating the tires, and digging out my helmet, I set off.
I had downloaded the app MapMyRide to my iPhone and earlier that day, I had come up with a route that was 4.5 miles long. I was not sure I could make it. I really thought I might be giving the boyfriend a call to swing by with his pick-up truck somewhere around the halfway point. I’m pleased to report that I made the whole 4.5 mile ride. I kick butt, suckas! Yesterday, I went out again and repeated my success, though the wind was blowing like a son of gumdrop and I thought I was stationary at one point despite the fact that I was pedaling like a fool.
Today is day three of my fruit detox. I really would like to down a loaf of bread and a jar of Skippy right about now, but I will make it to the end of the day. My will power is strong.
I’m Sarah. I’m fat. I don’t see the sense in trying to pretty that statement up. I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t the truth. I don’t particularly suffer from low self-esteem. I think that’s part of my problem. If I were less confident about my appearance I might be more inclined to do something about it. I’m comfortable and complacent at the weight I’m at. I’ve grown accustomed to it.
So why am I dieting now? Because I was at work a week ago and walked down one set of stairs, out the building, across a parking lot, into another building, up another set of stairs, to my desk and THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE OF A HEART ATTACK! I couldn’t catch my breath. As I sat at my desk wheezing and sweating, I decided it might be time to do something about this extra 75 pounds I’m carrying around.
As if by magic, a Groupon appeared in my inbox for a weight loss program. I’m not sure I’m ready to say which one, but I will say that it doesn’t involve shots or pills or anything artificial. I’m not into that. It’s a regular diet type of thing. I decided it was a sign and clicked on the “buy” icon.
I started on Monday, May 13th. My butt naked weight that day was 242.6 pounds (I’m 5 feet 7.5 inches). This diet starts you out on a fruit only detox for three days before you start the normal diet. It is day two and I’m eating my fruit. I also took a bike ride for good measure last night. 4.6 miles according to MapMyRide. I don’t weigh in until day four.
It’s a good start. Now I just have to keep it up for the next year or so. Sigh… it’s hard not to be discouraged by that.