appetite4destruction

On the road to gaining my weight, I rarely wore makeup or did anything to my hair.

At some point, at my largest weight, I started to wear my hair my plaits, twisted around my head like a little Dutch girl. I thought it was a cute look. It was also easy.

After losing some weight, I started wearing makeup. Just a bit at first, but then I branched out into colors & sparkles. I even wore colorful fake eyelashes once or twice.

Then, I dyed my hair hot pink with blue tips.

This past weekend, I … & I do mean “I”… chopped off a good ten inches! I woke up Easter Sunday morning, grabbed the scissors, initially made a few small cuts, & then: WHAM! I went for the gusto!

My hair is now all pink & above my shoulders. I feel light, free, fun, & playful. I’m wearing pretty hairclips & trying new styles. Something I hadn’t been able to do with my extra-long hair because it was too heavy.

I think it is really important for me to change the way I appear as I alter my shape. Every time I look into the mirror now, I see “ME” & I no longer see that “old me” ~~ the one who gave up, the one who was sad, the one I let down. 

The “ME” I see now is the ”ME” who can do things she sets her mind to. She *is* IMHO playful & fun & pretty darned cute! She makes me smile every time I see her.

And, every time I alter the way I appear, I feel more liberated to become whomever I want to be.

I’m not missing the “old me” or anything that got me to that point at all.     

Posted on April 15th, 2009 by lanvin
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