I’ve been in a workout slump lately. The kickboxing classes I attend at my gym are now *way* *to* *crowded* (thanks in part to my awesome instructors being voted best in the city - kudos to them, but ugh for me). So, I’ve started working out at home & I’ve incorporated yogalates/walking/jumping rope/etc… into my routine.
If I can say “routine” – I haven’t established one yet. My life has recently undergone a HUGE change. I’ve finally accepted that I do not want to practice law, & so I’m embarking on a new career. It brings me lots of anxiety & feelings of guilt. I’ve been turning to food to help me cope.
Plus, it is the holidays. My husband is trying to use up some vacation time, so he’s when he’s off work, my eating, exercise, & sleep routines get severely disturbed.
I’m feeling fat — which, I know, I am — but I *feel* as if I have gained every pound I’ve lost, which is not true. Despite overeating & underexercising & my really messed up sleep routine, I’ve only gained 2 pounds.
I think the thing is: I’m feeling “fat”, i.e.: a loser, a huge waste of space, undeserving of love/compassion/support/understanding… All things that I have to remind myself ARE NOT TRUE!
One thing I’m going to do right now to combat those feelings is exercise. I deserve to feel good about my body & to know I’m doing right by it.
I hope that will help. I need a fresh start.
Posted on December 2nd, 2008 by lanvin
Filed under: Weigh-In
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