I will do this!

did great today..struggled this evening but made it through…only at 1300 cals for today..My husband has been counting his too so that has made it easier!

Goal for tomorrow to set up treadmill!!!!!

today went great ..stayed under my calories…Have not yet found the motivation to start the treadmill …my 2 year old twins and 16 month old baby have been running me ragged ! I dont know how I can find the energy to wake up even earlier or even at night after they go to bed to work out…Im always soooooo BEAT…Ill just keep praying for the energy!

todays weight 332.0

total weight loss 6lbs!

today went pretty smoothly…stayed within my 1500 calories…not much to say today I just pray i keep the strength!

today has been somewhat of a stuggle..I have been very hungry all day and have been struggling to not just binge! but i made it through the day doing ok..i might have over ate at dinner a little…but it was healthy and i felt that i needed to eat…(im talking an extra serving of roasted yams) …but pretty sure im right around my 1500 limit…after i can master this 1500 calorie days i will lower it to 1400 i think…I just pray my mind stay determined and doesnt sink back into that relaxed , in denial mode….I DO NEED THIS! ITS NOT OK TO SPLURGE ONCE IN A WHILE! I CAN DO THIS.:)

This is seeming way too easy… I hope its cause im establishing a routine and not cause im doing it all wrong…I mean i have my cravings and i usually just try to distract myself and i get over them.. either way i know that i am eating soooo much healthier then i was before.. I think about all the random sweets i would eat in a day and i can only imagine how many calories i was consuming…well hmmmmm let me see if i can get a rough estimate.on a bad day…. ill look them up on calorie counter…this is going to be embarrassing..

wake up make the kids breakfast…i would eat something like a dougnut or2…2 dougnuts about 600 cals

busy all day running the kids around and would stop at jack in the box…cheeseburgar and fries and a coke… burger about 600 fries small fry about 300 med coke 200

snacks….king size snickers…rootbeer… candy about 400 root beer 200

16 oz starbucks vanilla bean frappe 430!! omg

dinner

steak…boxed cheeesy noodles….veggies   …  steak about 200…noodles over 400!!

dessert…debbie cakes…maybe 4  ..4 brownies is over 1000 calories!!!! i am so glad i looked these up!

sometimes a midnight snack like a grilled cheese……..300

total = 4030 give some take some…depending on the day…..so i think my 1500- 1800 calorie a day plan is much better!

did great today it felt too easy! does that mean i need to do less calories? or am i adjusting? who knows…

im not going to post my food records on here cause i write it all own in my journal and i dont want to have to write it again..the important part is im keeping track …hope tomorrow goes as smoothly!

today has been pretty good…not struggling as much as last night…but i guess we will see how tonight goes…

breakfast:  fat free yogurt 100 cal

lunch: blt chicken salad (ahhh just looked up the calories !!) 720 didnt eat it all

snack: popcorn and a cup of coffee…300

Dinner: homemade low cal fried rice. fruit salad.. about 700

skinny cow ice cream 140

pretzels with pb 210

ok i need to work more on lunch…cause all though im eating way less then normal…and healthier…i need to eat less calories…i think ill make a meal plan everynight for the next day!

so yesterday actually went pretty well..I did not have any over powering cravings..Today is a little harder ..for  a split second here and there I’ll think “well whats one splurge going to hurt its only my second day” not rational thinking at all! I have come to realize I am a binge eater…I know people probably always say this but for the most part I don’t eat big portions…I have always been a grazer …actually having to remind myself to eat all day…BUT when Im hungry im hungry and I can eat a big burgar with loaded french fries and a a coke..then through out the evening as im watching tv with the hubby I could eat 4 debbie cakes..and some buttery popcorn…but then there are days i dont eat much all day…I also have to snack in the car…it sucks..i feel like someone would feel when they need a cigarette ….anyway so here is what i had yesterday and today.(this is so I can look at what I eat and make changes as needed).I have been checking calories but have not been strictly them up…I will get to that..I have done this many times and know that i need to start slow….

yesterday:

no breakfast :/ bad i know!

lunch: 6” subway sandwhich..with light mayo and no cheese (400)

snack: trail mix (about 200)

12 oz mocha (200) next time non fat

dinner: chicken terriyaki and white rice  (probably about 800 calories)

desert: a skinny cow ice cream sandwhich 140 calories

TOTAL= about 1740

ok so i knew the first day was going to be a little higher…here is today so far

breakfast :low fat yogurt 100 cal

lunch : southwest chicken salad 320 cal

crackers 100 cal

sugar free jello 40cal

cup of coffee 20cal

pretzels: 120

dinner: chicken black bean tacos.. about 500 cals

skinny cow. 140 cal

sugar free pudding 70

grapes

1410 plus grapes….

had a rough evening …i am so used to snacking after my kids go to bed…ahhhhh i want this so bad though…

its like i just need to go through the motion of eating…maybe ice chips or something….

after all i have eating im still needing that satisfaction….weird.

I need to start adding in the the work outs!

I have decided to not “go on another diet” I am just going to make choices…do i really want a cookie?? do i really need a second Sandwich? Ok….here it goes…

starting weight 338

I have had nothing but crap to eat today…and did not keep track..that is the problem…tomorrow i will keep track of everything i eat.