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My O My What A Wonderful Day!

Yep, it’s a gorgeous day outside as was yesterday.  A nice change from the rain we had last week. ;)

I’ve holed up this weekend and was productive.

Again, I took a mock practice exam and scored 50%.

Now frankly, I haven’t studied at all during the week and now it’s very clear what areas need to be focused on so at least there’s some focus.

I bought a few orchids yesterday at the farmers market, they were only 5 bucks each but alas both in rather tattered condition.  Who knows perhaps they’ll be revived in my hovel?  I love looking at them and for 5 bucks a piece, they’ll last longer than the bouquets of flowers one can buy for the same price. :)

Now the strawberries I bought were pretty but completely tasteless.  Which was disappointing but I’ll figure out something to do with those guys.

I suppose the VA is still working on my application as I haven’t heard a peep from anyone these past two weeks.  Interesting how long it’s taking but I guess the bureaucracy is a huge one in this game so while I’m slightly disappointed, I feel like I glimpsed a way out and no matter what happens - I can continue applying for jobs.  Who knows, perhaps I’ll even get an offer call in the next few weeks?

Finally had a decent nights sleep last night.  I skipped swimming this morning :(  But I figured, I can go next week and with a sore throat - I didn’t feel like dealing with it.

Oh my goodness, I hopped on that scale and it’s reading 210.  Now that’s a crying shame.  Not a big surprise mind you - just a crying shame.  Looks like the wanton eating needs to come to an end.  No wonder I’m limited to two pairs of pants and I’ve been seeking out dresses….

Eeek.

Well, this isn’t too hard to remedy.  We’ll start out small with a modification in sweets in all forms (ie those coffees with half a dozen creams and a pound of sugar) along with portion control.  Hopefully we can ease up that waistband in a few weeks.

I imagine my mashed potato dinners with butter/half and half have been very convenient and quick, however a horrible addition to my daily habit.

Now c’mon - if you think it’s wrong - ITS WRONG.  Even I should know this by now ;)

Ok, hands slapped and promises to do better voiced.

Time to move on.

So today I’ve got an ambitious 5 hours of studying to do which quite frankly I’m not minding too much.  I’ve also got a major mess problem here at the Hefty Hovel.  While not a health violation, I wouldn’t be able to invite anyone over for coffee - it’s a goddamn sty.

Clean up house.

Clean up eating.

Clean out brain.

Damn. ;)

Posted by anngirl on May 2nd, 2010 under General | 1 Comment »

Investments

Friday brought some interesting news and rather uplifting.

Appears that the VA was busy calling all of my references and fortunately for me - they all gave me glowing reviews.  Yes, yes - most were completely fictional but isn’t that what colleagues are for?  So I’m rather intrigued about next week and what kind of $ may be offered….

Isn’t that always the most interesting part of the job interview?  Basically selling yourself and finding out what they are willing to pay for - well YOU.

So I felt brightened by the prospect of leaving….it’s always nice to be wanted as well :)  Even if it is by the Department of Defense.  Mind you, I believe good ole D.O.D. has not forgotten our torrid affair when I was 21 -a young naive soldier in the Army -  who says you can’t go back to the ‘EX’?

Then I also put money into mock exams which have basically shown me that at this point in time, I know 54% of absolutely NOTHING.  But hell, it’s better than 3% or even 20% - so now my reviews can be less chaotic.  Now I can be anxious and overwhelmed about the areas I scored poorly rather than insane about the entire goddamn thing.

This is a plus.

This weekend it was beautiful.  I sit here now at 7 on Sunday night and the sun is starting to set. It was bright, sunny and warm.  I stayed in all day Saturday and ventured out to the swimming class this morning.

It was a productive class, it was nice being in the water.  My goodness, I am quite smitten with our swim instructor.  A smiling young asian man who is kind, professional and a great teacher.  I sniffed enough chlorine water today that my throat was on fire, but just to hear him say, ‘Excellent!’ was completely worth it.

Spring must have sprung. :)

Posted by anngirl on April 25th, 2010 under General | 3 Comments »

Interview - is there light at the end of this now dark tunnel?

So my interview went well last week with the Veterans Administration.

The job is palatable - at least it doesn’t deal with kids.  I was dumbfounded when one of the interviewers made a comparison between the amount of residual trauma that one suffers when dealing with a caseload of homeless veterans vs children who have been abused and neglected.

I almost wanted to say, ‘Look dude, an adult making his own decisions about what he wants to do is quite different than a kid who was fucked over and is now in foster care - only to be fucked over even more.’

What the fuck?

So I’m sure there will be a paycut (we’ll see how much if I made the cut by the end of next week) and we’ll have to find out just how low I’m willing to go in order to leave this area of human suffering.

If not this job, then I’m definitely ready to continue applying until I do get something different.  I think it’s time to move on.

Even admitting that is a pinpoint of light at the end of the tunnel….

Posted by anngirl on April 18th, 2010 under General | 2 Comments »

Real talk on a Sunday

Sometimes you look around you and you can’t help being frustrated.

1) My brother who has now been off work for nearly 2 years relies on the Govt unemployment check so he does the bare minimum to ensure he gets his check every two weeks.  I call him out on it today rather strongly and he hangs up on me.

Real Talk upsets folks.

2) Ex husband continues to pour his entire paycheck into his Filipino honey overseas and complains to me about how he doesn’t have any money on those few occasions when he does call.  When I told him he should make a life for himself here, he told me ‘we would never work’.  That pissed me off - look dude I’m not trying to get back with you asshole, I just want you to think about the rest of your body not just your pathetic penis.  Tried to real talk him a bit about buying love and he hangs up on me.

Real Talk upsets folks.

3) One of my BFFs went back to the guy who wouldn’t marry her and whom she maintained a relationship the whole time she was ‘engaged’ to another guy.  She lies about doing this for months and I finally called her out on it.  No hang ups, but it really didn’t get that REAL anyways.  It pisses me off that she thinks I’m like one of her worthless stupid trusting men.  It’s a goddamn insult.  She changed the subject quickly to makeup.  I let her.

Real Talk upsets folks.

4) One of my other BFFs has a pregnancy scare while she’s dropping E once a month while going to the club at age 35 and having unprotected sex when she’s got herpes.  She’s also having an affair with a married man out of state.

Honestly, she knows she’s fucked up.  I spared her the REAL TALK.  Sometimes, I wonder why I have such fucked up friends.  Does this say something about me?

And in the meantime, my father is having ‘heart issues’ and goes into the clinic on Monday.  He’s worried about his mortality.  Quietly, I dig real deep to try to be empathetic to him and sympathize with his concerns.  Meanwhile, I think to myself - you deserve it you fuck - you’ve been a real asshole your whole life.  Kicking off would probably be the best thing you could do right now….

Spared him the REAL TALK too.

So here I am on a Sunday afternoon at nearly 2pm.  I haven’t studied today - I’ve procrastinated endlessly.

I’ve REAL TALK’d myself to death so I’m no stranger to harsh introspection.

My eating hasn’t been that great, my exercising has not been impressive, my house is a goddamn mess and the one thing I do feel that I can control - studying seems to be so fucking hard to do.

A goddamn critical ass lazy bitch.

There, it’s in print.

Today at breakfast, Ms. Cats said, ‘Yes, Annie.  Sometimes it does seem that life is a shit storm with moments of happiness thrown in.  But we need to seek out those moments of happiness.’

There’s also a need to realize that you pissing in someone else’s yard doesn’t make everything better.

So I’ll keep my REAL TALK limited to Annie.

Work starts back up tomorrow.

So much to look forward to…

Posted by anngirl on April 18th, 2010 under General | 2 Comments »

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