baby steps
I took a few this week.
I got something called Sam-E - it’s a natural mood enhancer and supposedly also helps out with the creaky joints. I started taking it yesterday and so far - well nothing yet but at least I started with it - it can’t hurt at this point you know?
I also found a PHD chick in the insurance rolls for therapy - called her and left a message on Friday. I think I’ll do therapy if it all works out. I wouldn’t mind being less emotionally labile. Not to mention managing my stress better.
I also didn’t pig out yesterday like I have been and that was nice. I’m conscious of what I’m eating and while it’s no giant step - it’s a start.
I worked my ass off yesterday at the office and got a lot done. I feel fine about leaving for the next two weeks. I got a massage last night and it was very good but I felt incredibly nauseous afterwards. So I went to bed after a quick bath - but I’m glad I did it because I really needed it.
The taxes are done! Instead of cleaning the toilet on Friday night I was knee deep in paperwork. But it’s over over over!!!
Now the less than great news:
I got my licensing stuff back and it requires me contacting a truly evil woman (she was fired from the hospital) from the past that supervised hours for me to get her to fill out one more piece of paper. If she doesn’t do it - I have to go through another 3.5 months of supervision.
Tomorrow I’m mailing it out to her office (certified mail) with a sweet note saying that I need this one signature - thanks for your help! - and hope for the best.
Either way, I’m gonna get this license. I just hope she rises to the occasion and I don’t have to spend nearly 700.00 getting supervision that I’ve already done 
I felt physically sick when I got that licensing letter but I calmed down and decided to handle it rationally instead of just tucking it away in a drawer and sulking.
It’s what any adult would do - but lately I haven’t felt like an adult.
I’ve been various shades of
blue
and missing
my
blanky.
You know it’s okay if you have a blankie. There is nothing wrong with having something that makes us feel comfie and safe. I have a pillow. I have had it for years.
I hope Evil will sign your paperwork and give it back to you. I hate people like that. Why do they exist and seem to live forever!
I do therapy a couple of times a month. More if needed. Life is hard and not even a safety helmet can help at times. I need more. I started going a few months ago and she helps me to not deal with things in an emotional way. Works for me because if it didn’t, there would be a lot of dead people buried in my backyard.
Get a blankie, or a pillow. And if you have one, use it.
Hugs to you my friend
Thanks for the feedback on the noodles. I love Asian food and your recipe made my mouth water. Too bad it’s 11:30 or I would be whipping it up right now! I know what I am having for dinner tomorrow night! I’m alone so I get to eat what I want. SMILE!
It does help (talking to someone) and I think it will help you too. We can’t always figure out the world’s problems and try to figure ours out too. I don’t have THAT many answers.
And if I know you, your superhero cape sometimes fits a little too tight around the neck and makes it hard to breathe. But you look damn cute in it!
Hugs and love!
I want your noodle recipe. I love Asian noodles…
I have a blankie. It is a small down filled comforter and I take it everywhere
Hang in there sweetie, there has to be a light at the end of the tunnel….no wait…don’t go toward the light….
luv ya
xoxoxox