*poof*
At 3:00pm the phone call came.
‘Annie, the realtor for the house has counter-bid $415,000 for all offers.’
So right there in the county car in the parking lot on a bright sunny day
I felt a sharp pang and my eyes clouded up.
It’s deeper than the house.
Yeah, I put it up as a my screen saver about a week ago because I want the universe to bring it to me. I’ve been thinking about it non stop.
Get the house,
begin the process for getting the kid(s)
move forward in life.
It took me everything to not say to my realtor, ‘Thanks for letting me know Jeff that life has kicked me in the stomach yet again.’
So I cancelled my afternoon appointments and drove home.
I cried and went to sleep.
I’ve been fighting off thoughts of how my past has something to do with how my personal life is at a standstill.
I feel like crap.
Auntie Monthly has been fierce and relentless. My neck and back are hurting
and
now this?
No more thinking.
I’m exhausted and weary.
Tomorrow is another day.
OH Crap. There may be a bright side, though. Honest. I remember all those many moons ago when my first husband and I were house-hunting and found one that we were absolutely crazy about. REALLY wanted that house. They got a higher offer and accepted it. I was devastated. Didn’t even want to keep looking anymore. Did, though, and ultimately found the house where I raised my kids for 20+ years, and it was (and still is) a fantastic house. A few months after we moved in, I passed by the first house that we wanted and they were having a yard sale. I got to chatting with the new owners, and they told me that the furnace had blown a month after they moved in, and the yard sale was to help defray he costs of replacing the outdated heating system. If we’d bought that house,our mortgage payment would’ve been so large that we never could’ve afforded to replace a furnace at the time. I felt like the universe had been in our corner, after all. You’ll find your house, Annie, when the time (and house) is right.
Love,
Z
I had the back aches LAST week and they are torture! I felt like someone was bending backwards over a fence and breaking my back. UGH! I feel your pain. Ella is right Annie! You will find your house. Just keep your head up, keep plugging away and eventually you will get your house and the babies to fill it! Cry it out, let it go. There is a new and better house awaiting you out there in the universe!Love you girl!
A house will come. The universe knows you want one and you are focused on getting one. You just haven’t found it is what the universe is telling you. When you do, just like love, you know it will be right. I promise. I am sorry though you were disappointed. That is a hard feeling to get handed to you. Hugs my friend.