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It’s been an incredibly weird week.

Got rear ended in the company car on Wednesday.

Got a frantic call from my Mother telling me buying a house was absolutely OUT OF THE QUESTION and both of my parents will not support me in this endeavor *shit - I thought our conversation last week went fairly well*

Figured out that the house I made an offer in is not in a great school district and when we went to see it again yesterday - I realized that there is a thug youngster element to the neighbor’s house next door.  Lots of traffic going in and out of the house.  Now I’m not thrilled with it any longer.

Decided that a good school district will pay off in the end - even though I’m not going to be getting a lot for my money.

Saw a two bedroom yesterday - good little house but it was RIGHT next to the freeway.  The noise was really lousy (the school district AP 800’s-900’s). ;(

Geez - like I’m some big loser and made lousy decisions regarding my life - hell the only bad decisions I’ve made are in my relationships with men.  None of them made me worse for the wear - I still managed to get my education and stable career goals.

The workman’s comp doctor at Kaiser prescribed me a bag of Thermacare disposable heat pads.  WTF?  She also offered advil… so physical therapy next Tuesday and a follow up in two weeks.

Headaches/neck ache and back ache - seems like this one hurts more than the last rear ender which was really bad…. I must be getting old now - harder to bounce back.

Oh well.

The good thing is that your ole fluffy girl is down 2.5 pounds.  I made some effort last week to not go absolutely buck crazy on the eating and it paid off a bit.  It’s nice to get out of the 200’s - but dang - barely…

I’m off next week - which is the best thing EVER.  Licensing stuff has got to get done and turned in by next Monday.  I gotta make copies to keep cuz goodness knows sometimes shit gets lost in the mail.  Maybe I can sneak back into work - another floor - xerox it and get it out before the week is out.

I bought real cocoa today - I can’t stand the sugar free stuff - why torture myself with it?  It’s 80 calories a cup - so I’ll just figure it into the whole scheme of things.  

I can eat real food but I just have to count it into the whole thing - like for instance - I bought some real greek yogurt - not the fat free stuff I usually buy - it’s 230 for a cup so I figured it into my eating allowance and had it.  It was fucking AWESOME.  I had a japanese cheesecake type pastry today 330 - so that’ll get figured in. 

I’ve figured out that while it’s heavy in calories - if you’re willing to fit it in - you can still make your 1200 calories per day.  It’ll just suck because you could have had something more substantial for less calories you know? 

That’s made me feel better about the ‘dieting’ thing.  Now mind you some things - yesterday I picked up fat free icecream carton and put it right back.  Why torture yourself by buying something you know you’ll pig out on - so skip that shit and opted for the fat free pudding cups instead because I know I won’t be eating the whole carton in one sitting.  They satisfy the sweet tooth but don’t make me want to eat more than one of the cups a day.  They’re not THAT great - you know?

Little adjustments.  Some suck hard some don’t - but it’s better than nothing - better than gaining right?

Goin’ to the Nurse Practitioner on Monday to see about my sleep apnea and blood work.  This makes me feel good - taking care of me.

Now that I’ve finally ironed out my house situation - it’s gonna take patience to make it happen.  Ideally a 3 bedroom (run down but can still pass the VA requirements) house in the good school district is the goal here.  I am still refusing a goddamn condo.  Better school district higher prices…. that part sucks.

Patience.

No more telling Mom about my plans… don’t need more stress on my plate.  I’ll call her tonight and let her know I’ve thought about what she said and appreciate her input.  That’s it.  Change the subject and move the hell on…. 

Never a dull moment huh?

Oh yeah, gonna probably do a singles social on Friday night.  Geez.  Yeah, I’m really looking forward to that but I’m gonna put myself out there and see what happens.

NEVER a dull moment.

At least we’ll get some amusement out of that fiasco no?

It’s a good day.

A good day an awesome holiday!

Tomorrow is yet ANOTHER awesome day - dang what an exciting year!  

Finally a step in the right direction!

Meanwhile, I’ve piddled around and found eco positive ways to furnish my new house, redo the bathroom and kitchen etc.

Yep, big time FANTASY ISLAND goin’ on while sitting on this couch sipping tea.  Next time I go out with my realtor I’ll ask him to go back to the house so I can take some real pictures of it to post.  Yep.  

I do believe I am a bit obsessed with this house that I do not own.

Oh well.

Food is going ok.

Nothing spectacular but nothing horrible is going on either.

I also might decide to do a singles thing next month.  Yep, goodness knows I love rejection, ugly men and even more awkward situations.

But it may be time to venture out again.  Dang, I’m not getting any younger.

Shit.

In the meanwhile, I’ll go ahead and indulge my zero fat greek yogurt fetish I’ve been having that is rather expensive.

Life is full of small pleasures.

Greek yogurt

Dark Chocolate

Stars in an inky sky

The reflection of water

A smile

A cup of hot tea…

geez.  starting to sound like a goddamn commercial.

What a difference a day makes no?

I had a horrific day on Thursday. I’ll say nothing more about it.

Then on Friday, I was still reeling from Thursday but managed to go house hunting and found a house I really liked - an offer was made.

Now it’s a short sale - so who knows how it will go.

But it was exciting to sign the offer contract (290,000) for the 3 bedroom 2 bath 1175 sq foot house with a small back yard and hardwood under the grey carpets…

It’s in a very quiet neighborhood with very well maintained lawns & houses. Now the neighbor has 3 cars in the driveway (2 racers) and one under a cover. Not crazy about that - but hey - it can’t be perfect. But it’s enough to make me want to make an offer for once in this 4 month 90 house ordeal.

I’ll keep everyone updated.

I know if I get it - I’ll need to rip out the carpet and have the floors refinished so finding a reliable, licensed contractor will be imperative that will be willing to do it for a decent price. I wished I could have offered less but it’s alright - I’m not giving them more than the asking price of 299 so it’ll either work or back to the drawing board.

Maybe we’ll hear something next week…

Meanwhile, I did alright on food yesterday and today I met up with the Crisis couple. We went to see Last chance Harvey - the story could have been better but it was beautiful to see Emma & Dustin on screen though and the premise was refreshing.

I thought Ms. Crisis wanted to eat salad but she wanted to go the Malaysian restaurant and we threw down Great stuff and dessert was awesome too!

So needless to say it wasn’t a healthful dinner.

But that’s alright - I’m bleedin’ like a stuck pig so the coconut rice, curry chicken, mango chicken, satay, papaya salad (there ya go) and dessert of banana roti pancake was delicious!

I treated so it was a good night They are excited about the house and have their fingers crossed!

I can go back to soup and salads tomorrow.

They ain’t goin’ nowhere.

I’m drinkin’ vanilla honey camomile tea - it’s nice

I’m nervous about the house, it’s in the East Bay so I’ll become familiar with a commute (real) but it’s all very exciting.

so all is not well in THIS particular world right now.

Eating a lot of rice today was NOT CUTE.

Yikes.

It’s already Thursday…hmmmm. Not too cool since weigh in is good grief in one more day.

Oh well.

Guess it won’t be NO surprise.

In the meantime, I need to MOVE to alleviate stress.

Well, something besides my mouth chewing that is…

Or talkin’ smack.

I’m takin a week off at the end of the month.

This I am looking forward to with GREAT relish.

In the meantime, guess we’ll hang in there and make it through this mess.

No Hawaii for my vacation either - that free United ticket DOES NOT go to Hawaii or Alaska. So I’m contemplating Florida? or somewhere else - but it looks like it’s gonna cost me. Hotels are NOT cheap in October as one might think….

i just can’t see spendin’ lots of dough for lodging right now.

Oh well.

I guess tomorrow is another day….