back on the wagon tomorrow….
Today I gathered up all the things I need for the Medifast excursion again. I dutifully went to the store and bought protein shakes, south beach diet cereal bars (140 calories), laughing cow light spreadable cheese wedges and salad. I also put 3 ice cube trays in the freezer. I have to say that I counted the soup packets I had left over and the shake packets. I was not thrilled. I dragged the blender out from the cabinet and even re-read the medifast bible. 5 leans and a green! I went back to the medifast chat board to find that one of the gals I saw last year has reached her goal from 246 pds (22 size) to 174 (size 10) in 8 months! Amazing huh? Damn. I looked at that picture and knew that I needed to get back on the bandwagon myself.
Grudgingly I am prepared for tomorrow. Man. The thought of having no fruit, milk or normal food for the next month is daunting but I’ve done it before and I know I can do it again. But it still sucks - hard.
I’ve got to go get tested in the morning (STD/HIV screen) just to make sure I’m doing alright. Y is on his way out - we’re supposed to hang out tomorrow night. I don’t even know if it’s going to happen. I don’t want to get into it either.
Bah.
I told WildChild about it today (we went to lunch) and wondered if that was the right thing to do since she can never keep her mouth shut. She called me again tonight to hang out with another co-worker and I had to tell her to keep my business private. I don’t know who the bigger idiot is - me or her?
Now I’m thinking that I’m going to give Shop a ‘time out’. She irritated me again today and it’s warranted at this point. You know nothing shitty, just a bit of quiet. Man, sometimes your friends can irritate the fuck out of you. Who knows, maybe I’m just sensitive but I need a break. So tomorrow I’m not answering her calls or going down to see her. Luckily I have a lot of work to do. I won’t see her again until Friday night where I can just meet her over at the concert. Ghettro is going with us so I’ll place her in the middle of us.
Damn. I can’t remember how cranky I was on the diet before….
I’m already tired. 
Get some good books which are fast fun reads. Not very shallow, otherwise it will irritate you and be counter productive. So read a good book and forget the friends, forget the food woes for a while.
On that note, I think it is awesome of you to have managed medifast. I gave up on fruit about evening yesterday! Well, I did run out of fruits and not hunger.
But still!
Lots of love,
iniya
In the spirit of taking care of business, I went to the gynae yesterday and had my annual pap and got weighed and was given a diet sheet & food journal (like I don’t already have this information). I’m going back next week to get weighed again. Mentally gearing myself up for this next go-round, kind of like what you’r doing. Have my H20 and a plan for the day. Let the games begin (again).
Yeah. I swear life becomes redundant after a while. Hang in there, darlin’….the ferris wheel just keeps on turning, after all.
Z
Hope your first Medifast day is going well. Good luck with the testing; may everything come back negative.
I think we are all coming back to the point where we are admiting to oursleves that we have to go back to what was working for us before, no matter how bad it sucks or how painful it is. I know I can’t lsoe weight eating like a cow and sitting on my ass. I went from losing 8 pounds a month to gaining, and well it’s time all that nonsense stopped. I have been doing better, but realize I have got to get dedicated. The change is for life if you wanna be thin. Let’s get it right together, Annie. I am tired of being fat. (((HUGS)))
Good luck tomorrow! Hopefully this month will fly bye and the weight will fall off fast!
Sounds like you have a great plan going on with the Medifast. I know you did so well with that before! To be honest, I will be thrilled when I reach the weight you are now. : )
I hope things get better for you and you have a fabulous weekend. Keeping Shopaholic away for awhile might be what you need to do. There is nothing wrong with that. There are some people who are toxic and are not good for our souls. You just take care of you and treat yourself nice (but not with food).
The yoga sounds like a good idea! I don’t know about the gym. I hate the gym. UGH!
Hugs to you my friend!