Sheer torture
Sweet.
That was last night’s date in a nutshell. Today I’m feeling slightly melancholy again because I know that it was just for the moment in the moment and nothing more - but hell it was SWEET. It’s great to get kissed by someone you dig, to smile until your face hurts and to be held by a sweetheart (momentarily). No honor was lost, no gropefest - just kissin on the couch. Nice dinner (I got the chicken to be cheap) but the real date was on the couch. 
I sent him home at 1:30am as he was falling asleep he was so tired from work. He drove past his house on our way home to show me where he and his mom lives. It was kinda nice. He talked about growing up, his time in the service, his house etc. I enjoyed it. He said, ‘I’ll call you.’ as he smiled at me when the elevator doors closed.
Ah, it was nice while it lasted.How often can you live in the moment. For me never. I always think about the future, think about the past etc. But I have to just let this go because honestly - his track record is so shit - I doubt I’ll hear from him again. He’s got heartbreak written all over him. Too bad I can’t be THE girl for him. Oh well.
Cest la vie.
Wildchild called bright and early for details. I gave her scant because I don’t want her blabbering her big mouth everywhere. I did tell him last night that I’m only in the office until Thursday so he’ll just avoid the place from now on. *I hope. I can’t wait for dinner - I’m hungry.
Food: FF greek yogurt w/teaspoon of jam, banana, bowl of Special K protein cereal and non fat milk (heated), bag of popcorn, a few bites of a biscotti I got at Starbucks a few days ago, a sweet potato I cooked in the microwave.Dinner: spaghetti & steak. I intend to eat half and bring back the other half for consumption tomorrow night (maybe) YUM. It’s at that same 50’s joint - Wildchild is bringing her entire family and one of the nurses is bringing hers…7:30pm reservations.
I feel wistful. I’ve been thinking about him non stop today and feeling like that would be the last time. Stupid. Absolutely ridiculous that I’m crushing on some dude that may never call me again 
OH well. I’ll get over it - I always do.
So yesterday - the lawyer was not a lawyer rather a claims guy from the law firm. Not cool - he shouldn’t put legal in his job description rather - administrative or claims. He’s a nice guy but clearly not what I’m looking for - but of course I couldn’t say no when he asked for my number. Ugh…Otherwise no other hopefuls on e-ugly.Yawn - it’s 5:01 and I’m tired. I’ve still got 2 1/2 hours till dinner ;( Oh well, I’m gonna watch another movie. LIves of Others. Should be interesting….
9:31pm.
Dinner was good - I ate nearly the whole steak and definitely ate the spaghetti portion! It was good. I got outta there quick.
So much for not getting emotionally involved.
Can things work out for me ? Just this once?
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December 24th, 2007 at 2:05 am
I can feel what you are going through. I feel almost the same about S. But I also do feel that if something good is to happen, I need to stop myself getting into trouble. The clutter and the confusion has to go. Don’t know how long my good intentions will last but I feel like that today.
Take very good care and hang in there. Things will work out.
love,
iniya
PS I am very happy that COP at least didn’t disappoint you on the fun part. Though practically speaking, may be the opposite would have been good. But then…. I am happy for you.
December 24th, 2007 at 2:33 am
I am so happy that your date worked out. Don’t stand by the phone waiting for the call, keep living your life. (I know you will!) If he calls, he calls….Don’t sweat it. At least you had a good time!
(I think he will call…Eventually!)
(((HUGS)))
December 24th, 2007 at 9:23 am
Sigh!
December 24th, 2007 at 12:15 pm
Sounds like you had fun. Don’t stress too much, if he calls that’s wonderful, but if he doesn’t than he doesn’t deserve YOU!
December 24th, 2007 at 10:44 pm
I was so happy to read that you had a nice date. It is fun to feel like that. Those moments are way too far and between aren’t they? Savor it, enjoy it, and don’t over analyze it. He may surprise you. He is a man afterall. LOL!
Hated having to give my number to guys who didn’t deserve it. That’s a hard one to get out of. I eventually started saying no, that I didn’t think we would be going anywhere. I got called a bitch a couple of times but hey, at least they didn’t call. LOL! Maybe pretend lawyer WON’T call.
Hugs Bobbie