! trANNsformation BaBy !

It’s 8:16am and I’ve already carefully stacked a billion freshly washed dishes into my own tower of Pisa in the kitchen. I’m exhausted. Now I’ve really got to grind and clean up this apartment…. I’ve also promised Shopaholic that I’d go with her to church. She’s broke up with her boyfriend now for the 4th time - let’s hope this one sticks. She was in terrible shape yesterday as she went with me from store to store. Her face puffy from crying, her eyes blodshot. She teared up so many times during our outing (I told her I felt bad that I was making her go through Ross & Burlington Coat Factory - maybe that was making her cry - I totally gave her lots of love. I know what that’s like - getting completely trashed - it’s happened to me twice and nearly killed me. I hate when you get your heart trashed, it just plain sucks.

Gosh, before I forget - I started introducing fat free greek yogurt and a little fruit to my diet. Mostly though I’ve been stayin low carb - veggies/meat. But the great thing is that I got on the scale this morning and I’m still 165 pds. I couldn’t be more thrilled - yesterday I felt bloated as hell. I’ve bought some bars for the plane…I’m actually frightened of airplane food right now!

My date last night was good. We went to an Indian restaurant and then a really cute cafe afterwards. Dinner was yummy - I ate some rice/salmon tandoori, chicken masala, garlic naan. He offered me a mango lassi (yum yum yum!) and ordered a mango margarita. I found out that he has diagnosed with leukemia for the past 3 years and he takes medication daily. I didn’t ask any questions and I didn’t ask him what effect that would have on his ability to have kids. I was a bit overwhelmed and decided to keep that conversation for another day. We did however have a talk about previous relationship over a great cup of hot chocolate and a few bites of chocolate mousse. He’s such a sweetheart, so attentive and so kind. But I need to say that he had man boobs…he also had this way of eating that leaves stuff around his mouth. I actually dabbed him out during dessert. But man, he’s very sweet. So the end of the night comes up and he moves in for the big kiss. It was incredibly awkward and I turned my head before he could get in there. He says, ‘You’re shy.’ I nod yes. Then I quickly flash to that cute guy at the dance and how if he would have kissed me - I would have been able to do it. He’s such a sweetheart this guy and I let him know that I’m excited about seeing him when I get back. He told me that he missed me already. It was very sweet. He’s already asked me if I’d like to go to Vegas - he likes the Bellagio and he wants to take in the shows. His last girlfriend and him broke up 1 1/2 years ago, she was a very driven computer engineer PHD and the relationship interfered with her career and cost her a job. She was working for a top intel company and she was spending too much time going away with him on the weekends - she was distracted and her co-workers (team) complained about her. I know how valid this is, my ex used to work for an intel company and he worked 14 hour days. I know because I’d sit with him at work and do my homework while he was busy plugging away. Weekends were ate up with his work and it was very difficult. Well, she broke up with him because she supported her family back in Taiwan and couldn’t afford to lose focus again. It’s very sad. He’s still in touch with her but said that he doesn’t want to be with her and it took him the past year to get over it. He said something about walking down the aisle while we were kidding around - so he’s already gone there. Meanwhile I’ve been apologizing to the kids…. I think we’ll have a light conversation about that leukemia when I get back. I think that after a little more time, I’ll be able to kiss him. Funny I can picture the sex but not the kissing… He offered to take me to the airport. That was also so sweet - when I told him I didn’t get the swimsuit - he drove me to Walmart at 10:30, but it was closed. He offered to take me to another one. He’s a good guy. Now you know his ass would have been sent to another area while I picked one out and he would not know the size at all. I ain’t CRAZY!

So now I’ve got to go…. I am going to miss all of you. I’m gonna try to get in a blog if I can…. I’m not excited about going yet. I feel too stressed still and I’ve got too much to do. But at 1:00 tomorrow morning, I’ll be on Cathay Pacific hopefully sleeping my way to Hong Kong. The best part is that y’all will be with me
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Whew! It all came to an end at work at 11:00pm this evening. Nuf said.

I could be feeling exhilarated but I’m so friggin exhausted right now.

I called Investor at 10:10pm while I was at work because we talked last night and he told me he would call me when he landed. Well, turns out he was on BART when I called and I told him that I was checkin in to make sure he was safe. I think he wanted to talk but I needed to cut it short because I wanted to go home! So I tell him to get some rest and he says, “Call me when you wake up tomorrow ok?” - I was surprised - but said sure. Funny huh? That was cute. Hope that geek plans somethin fun for tomorrow night - he definitely can’t tell me he’ll be TIRED!

Last night we went to Happy Hour for WildChild and only two of my other co-workers went Oh well, I tried. I’m always try for this girl and all of her ‘billions’ of friends never show up. Oh well, she enjoyed it and it only cost me 40.00 - so I was glad. I’m gonna duck outta Sunday night - I offered to take her to dinner but now I feel like it’s cutting it too close. I’m not packed, the house is a mess and I need to sort out my bills! Poor Wildchild was all over these two chinese boys and she was clearly missing all the cues that they were not interested in her loud ways. She told them she was married up front but they left really early and I actually felt sorry for them. Wildchild is just crazy sometimes. I’m not introducing her to anyone I really care about until we’re like super serious! And only after they’ve met Shopaholic so they won’t freak out.

I got fillings put in today and that shit took 2 hours! I wanted to scream, my jaw got so tight. Thank goodness when the dentist said, ‘See you in 6 months!’ I WAS THRILLED. Enough dental shit already! I hate the dentist.

Tomorrow morning I’m gonna go walk with Shopaholic. Afterwards I need to go buy a bathing suit and try to find a long linen skirt…. there’s so much I need to do before I go - shit!

Ok, I’d better go to bed. I’m pooped. But it feels good to be done with work

Got off at 10:00 tonight. Nuf said.

Well I’d be amiss if I didn’t tell you that today out of nowhere on my way with Shopaholic to get our eyebrows nixed during lunch break, my fucking tire was completely flat. No wonder I did a little shimmy on the freeway! WTF? I just thought it was because I was driving too fast. So, luckily a tire place was only a block away. So they tell me that the tire needs to be replaced and the alignment is way off. So 204.00 and 4 hours later I pick up my car. I was pissed. The interesting thing is that we both jumped the bus and still managed to make it to the eyebrow appointment. Priorities ladies, priorities…

I was hella cranky today. The extra 204.00 spent, the remembering the 300.00 for the tow last Thursday - I was wonderin what I did wrong karmically to deserve this shit. Salesman skittered across my pea brain for a hot second. Make Sense -ANN - MAKE FUCKING SENSE. No, I don’t think that’s it. It’s just a few episodes of ‘SUCK’. Shit doesn’t necessarily come in 3’s and it’s not a bad luck streak. Shit happens and thank fucking goodness I have the funds to pay for it. But man, honestly I can’t afford any more…FUCK. So that’s 500.00 in unexpected fucking expenditures in the last 2 weeks. FUCK. Enough already - enough!

So near the end of a hell day right after an upsetting event - my cell phone rings. Probably LA I thought as I reached for it - but alas it’s INVESTOR. He called to tell me he got to Delaware safe and he’s super tired going to go to bed. He’s hopin tomorrow won’t be grueling because he has a particularly grueling client. I tell him he’ll have a great day! It was so cute - who does that? What a cutie. I told him I’d call him tomorrow night. I’m gonna have to pry myself out of happy hour (2.00 drink special - Wild Child celebration) and stand in the wind to call his ass. This is cool it almost feels like I could have a boyfriend. Callin to let someone know you’ve made it alright is very good - it shows attachment…. shit - work your mojo girlfriend…. I didn’t know you had any

I felt so much better after his call - the sprays of lavender water on me also chilled my shit out.

Fuck I’m tired as hell. So food. yes, food. one packed of organic no sugar added oatmeal, then I ate some scrambled eggs, 2 marinated mushrooms, 3 pieces of marinated tomato slivers, cilantro chutney (went to whole foods and got this at their salad bar). Then for lunch I ate out the middle of 2 grilled fish tacos (lots of salsa). 1/2 cup cafe au lait, 3 small nibbles of dark chocolate (throughout the day), about a cup of roast beef shavings and handful of organic cherry tomatoes. I also ate 6 oz container of greek yogurt - fat free. Oh yeah and 1/2 can of suga free energy berry drink. So I’m fucking scared about the scale tomorrow. I haven’t had MF foods in like 3 days now…. I’m doin’ a transition to low carb in prep for this trip. Yeah Yeah, let’s be real - I’m just fuckin sick of it right now and fuck it. I am not proud of the amount though. I was so stressed out today that I actually wanted to buy a pastry. I was ready to fucking crack. It was horrible.

i don’t think the 3 pieces of chocolate were necessary. That was plain gluttony. So next time only 1 piece. i ate way too much today. The oatmeal should have been it till the fish tacos. The eggs I ate all day long but that was not necessary. The greek yogurt sucked from the beginning - but I ate it out of guilt. I don’t like that brand - it was too weak. Not good food day. I anticipate tomorrow will be better….. let’s hope.

Ok, I’d better hit it it’s already 11:43 and I’ve got to cram in my work tomorrow. I’ve got a lunch appointment - wax underarms/lower legs and I want to be at the happy hour at 5pm. I don’t want to work on Friday. I’ve got a dental appointment and my big date.

I still have no itinerary and sent her an e-mail today. Tomorrow I’m gonna leave her another phone message. WTF?!!!!

It’s 11:57pm and my last home visit was at 9:30pm. I also had to rush home to shower because that house was the worst I’ve seen in my LIFE and I felt creepy crawlies in my head…. nuf said.

So quickly, I ate not so hot but not so not today. I bought 0% greek yogurt today at Rainbow and will start to incorporate that back into the diet. Sans the fruit though - not quite ready for a complete reversal yet…. I bought some hair dye - this italian herbal stuff that doesn’t wreck my hair - used the 20% off coupon too - so I was happy….

Investor called and he’s off to Delaware till Friday afternoon. He’s pretty doggone cute on the phone and I’m interested to know where he wants to go on Friday…. I told him I’d call him while he’s gone (Thursday) to check on him…. he liked that idea.

Nite Nite all - sleep tight…..