I am officially back from my break from blogging.  I’ve spent the past month growing fat and lazy, but I’ve spent the weekend evaluating how I want to spend this, my 29th year. Unfortunately, as far as my goals for this year go, I’ve really fallen short.  I’ve lost about a size and a half (two on a good day), but that’s not a very fine show for nine months of alleged dieting.  I’ve organized a calendar to keep track of each day until I turn 30, on October 25th, 2010.  This year’s birthday was amazing- had all my friends over for a fabulous dinner party and games.  But I was so disappointed to have not reached my weight loss goals, to have let it all slip again.  I have to do this this year, I’m so unhappy with this one thing, it’s driving me crazy.  The rest of my life feels so good, and productive, and on track these days (except that I’m having MASSIVE money problems right now), but it’s like I’m dragging around this extra person all the time, still this fat girl who can ruin birthdays and embarrass me at business meetings.  I can’t afford any more off weeks and certainly no more off months.  I hate not being able to dispatch this problem with purpose and surety- I just want to be done with it, but the siren song of shitty food and inactivity is still so loud and attractive, just that same old self-punishing bullshit.  Anyhow, I think the only way to do it is just to do it, so here goes again.  Lots of exercise and vegetables and water- no cheating or binging or laziness; that’s the essence of my plan.  Only good news: 69.5 miles on my pedometer since I last wrote- and that’s without the stationary bike- woot!

Breakfast: english muffin with one soft boiled egg, 1 tomato, salt

Lunch: Salad with sliced turkey, 1 slice gouda, sprouts, tomato, celery, carrot, garbanzo beans, olives, light champagne vinaigrette.

Dinner: Leftover wheat pasta with tuna, tomatoes, capers, olives

Exercise: 30 day shred, walk around greenlake with dogs (3 miles)

1000 miles in 2009: 865

Song of the Day: All My Heroes Are Weirdoes, by !!! (Rest In Peace, Gerry Fuchs, you will be missed)

Daily awesome: In honor of last nights amazing Mad Men Finale, here are some of the most insane moments on that show, courtesy of Television Without PIty.