I ate so frigging much today; I felt totally out of control.  The next few days are going to be completely badass and May is going to be my month, I swear.  I want to lose 20 pounds this month, and I’ve shown some inklings of straying completely from the diet lately.  The next few days are going to be hectic- Noah gets home, we have out-of-town work meetings and several projects to finish, I have a full social calendar for the weekend (starting with the Wolverine premiere Thursday at midnight- Taylor Kitsch as Gambit, hello sailor! The midnight movie will be preceded by the one-night-only, live-streaming This American Life, which happens to be playing at the same theater), but I’m going to spend some time tomorrow night preparing a lot of healthy foods to have on hand.  I’ve let my healthy pantry run a little dry- I need to make some edamame, wash and cut some vegetables, buy some lowfat cheese and healthy bread and yogurt, etc.). I can’t even bear to write a whole rundown of the days mileage and food intake; I’m just  feeling like a lazy blogger lately and tonight I am full and bloated and wretched and all that, so I’m going to skip it and get over this rough patch starting tomorrow.  No excuses in the month of May; that’s my plan.  I want to plan out days when I’ll eat something indulgent, like pasta or a slice of cake or something and otherwise remain motivated and on plan.  I also have some serious organizing to do of my closet\linens and need a thorough spring cleaning including a steam cleaning of my carpets.  I want to get those two things done within the next two weeks.  I’m also re-incorporating sugar-and-fat-free instant pudding back into the diet; I used to eat it all the time the last time I was losing weight and I’ve been feeling a hankering for the sweet stuff lately, so hopefully that will take the edge off.  Anyhow, tomorrow I’m back on track with all things diet, including blogging and will make a return to my daily awesomeness.  I cleaned my bedroom, changed my sheets and vacuumed the house tonight and I already feel better.  Nancy and I had a fantastic sushi dinner and then I ruined it two hours later by eating my weight in tortilla chips and salsa.  I have to stop fucking around and get serious about this.  I want to have a fabulous month of May.