low motivation station
I’m still lying in bed, it’s noon, I have tons of work to do and I just want to lie around watching movies all day. I decided to write this post instead of going out for some sort of artery-clogging lunch (I was thinking greasy chinese food) and I’m going to eat an egg on toast instead. I’m drinking a ton of water to try to get hydrated because I don’t think I drank enough yesterday, though I am normally a responsible water drinker. I didn’t write yesterday because I was so busy with items on the agenda. . . including but not limited to: a trip to and from Seattle, dinner with my mother and little brother, reconfiguring my business website, interviewing a local activist, going to therapy, a going away party, baking a cake for said party. Food could have been worse but was not great. Yesterdays breakdown: I ate an egg on rye in the morning, a blank void all day (busy, but very bad form nonetheless), then a virtual smorgasbord at my mothers house. 1 serving homemade chili, 3 small slices of steak, large serving spinach salad with green onions, avocado, cucumbers, dijon vinaigrette, about three servings tortilla chips and salsa (this is where I failed myself), about 10 mini-carrots and hummus. No cookies, cake or candy involved, but there were chips and I definitely feel like I over ate on regular food as well. I was out extremely late last night and my ass is just dragging today- whenever I go out to a party or have one here, I end up drinking tons of diet pepsi because I don’t drink and most of my friends still do, so I’m always hyper-caffeinated when I get home at 3 in the morning. I alternate with club soda when I’m out, but still. It was a very wild one last night, kind of made me miss the days . . . but not enough to go back to them. I’ll write todays final breakdown later.
your dinner doesnt seem that bad to me except the tortilla chips maybe. It’s very hard w those trigger foods that are hard to control.
I used to do the diet soda thing to when I went out but I switched to just sparkling water and it helped on a number of levels… Have it w a slice of lime and everyone thinks it’s an alcoholic drink too. ANother choice is tonic water. It’s slightly sweetened but not nearly as much as a soda and I don’t particularly like the taste so I sip it and nurse it a long long time -