Angel Food (lowfat)

I really shouldn’t be writing this post right now. I really should be packing. I’m flying out this afternoon to see my fiance graduate from pilot training. Woo-hoo! The madness and stress of his training is finally over!

I’ve had an interesting couple of weeks, the highlight of which was not my passing out from dehydration and low blood sugar. You see, I had become a slave to my little food diary. One day, I had eaten far too large a lunch. So, since I was out of points for the day, I skipped a proper dinner and dieted rigorously the next day. Skipping meals, as we all know, is unhealthy. My body rebelled and I got sick. After that day, from which I’ll spare you all the gory symptoms, I had some sort of hunger monster in me all week, felt too weak to work out, and put on a couple pounds. I honestly didn’t care that I was gaining weight. I was just tired of feeling hungry and weak.

My system feels like it has finally stabilized, though, and I’ve nicely returned to exercising and being more careful about my food intake these past few days. I only have about half a pound to lose to get back down to where I was pre-fainting. I’m being careful about my choices, but I’m not depriving myself again. If I eat too much at one meal, so be it. I’ll still eat the next meal that my body needs.

My goal remains to be 149 by the time of my wedding in mid-May. I’ve got about 6 lbs to go to get there. It feels wonderful to be so close to my goal. When my weight crept up a couple years ago, I felt like I had failed myself. I’m finally realizing that, no matter what weight I am, I deserve to take the time to take good care of myself and to do what I need to do to be stronger. There’s no sense being skinny if one doesn’t have the energy and strength to enjoy her life!