Angel Food (lowfat)

My little streak of losing weight each week has come to an abrupt halt - the scales read 156.0 this morning. That’s a one pound gain for those of you who are counting. Oddly enough, I’m not beating myself up over this small gain, probably because I’m too busy beating myself up over other things. I had really good momentum going there for a while. I was kicking butt at school, was more focused at work, was losing weight, etc. , but I became absolutely mired down this past week. Was it fear, apathy, PMS that caused this slow down? Does the cause even matter, or should I just focus on a solution?

I’ve always had a problem with over-analyzing things (see my last blog post, if you must). “Doing” becomes difficult for me because I spend too much time fretting things over in my head. I have a deep, genuine desire to be a “do-er.” I’ve had this desire ever since I was a little kid. Yet, I let myself get overwhelmed with fear and worry to the point that I procratstinate or, at the worst times, totally avoid doing things. So, what am I putting off? I have a paper to write, a photography assignment to complete, and some weight to lose. When I put the words down in writing in front of me (instead of scirbbling them furiously in a planner), this to-do list seems utterly acheivable. I see how ridiculous I’m being. And, I realize how lucky I am that my to-do list isn’t something like, “avoid mortar shells, figure out where dinner is coming from, and find a nice sturdy newspaper to sleep under.”

I’ve got to remember not to be overwhelmed by the work I have to do. Instead, I want to be the kind of person who sees all the resources she has to work with.

Since this is a weight loss blog, not a paper-writing or photography blog, I’ll remind myself of the techniques I talked about in my November 19 post. This is what I’ll do this week to work on 21 lbs I want to see gone. And, I’ll do my very best to keep things in perspective and to keep moving forward.

Technique 1 - I’ll record what I eat

Technique 2 -  I’ll eat real meals and not snack.

Technique 3 - I’ll be kind to myself.