Angel Food (lowfat)

Without meaning to do so, I’ve taken a mini-vacation from blogging. Partly, my lack of writing has been busy-ness, partly avoidance. I was losing weight, getting down to 156.2. But, I gained over the weekend and found myself staring at 157.8 on the scale this morning.

These miniature ups and downs are annoying, but I have to be honest with myself. I’ve not been as committed to losing weight as I need to be. I’ve been sort of vaguely dieting, allowing myself a slice or handful of this, a taste or snack of that. Despite feeling generally optimistic that I will eventually one day be at 135 lb again, I know that I have been defeatist and overwhelmed of late. A voice has been telling me that I can’t meet the goals that I set, so I might as well just give myself a break and not worry about acheiving them. A strange little cycle I’ve gotten myself into, no?

 After the week that’s passed, I do have newfound motivation.  My BF and I have seriously discussed a wedding date of December 27, 2008, which gives me plenty of time to get 22 lbs off before buying a dress. But an even greater motivation than looking like a babe in my wedding gown is simply that I want to prove to myself that I can achieve the goals I set for myself. Meeting my goals involves a few things: (1) setting realistic goals, (2) staying mindful of the goals at all times, (3) doing the work needed to get there, (4) reminding myself that the goals are reachable. 

So, below are my realistic goals for this Holiday Season. Sure, I’d like to weigh less than by New Year’s Day, but I also am not going to set myself up for failure. I hope to celebrate my successes not with too much turkey and pie, but with a little victory dance on the scales!

HOLIDAY GOALS 

153.8 on Thanksgiving Day, 11/22/07

146.8 on Christmas Day, 12/25/07

145.8 on  New Years Day, 1/1/08