Angel Food (lowfat)

At lunchtime today I wasn’t hungry for food. Everything I thought of eating sounded unappetizing to me. I still feel all hollow and worn out inside from arguing with my boyfriend last night. He’s coming for a visit this weekend, and I have no idea how it will go. I’ve not been able to see him for more than a month, so I will be genuinely glad. But, I still am sad and hurt because he never seemed to get what was upsetting me. He keeps talking about being married, but I’m hurt that it is taking so long to get engaged. I feel like until I have a ring on my finger that my parents and coworkers will just think I’m crazy to be expecting to be a Mrs. next year.

So, I’m blogging now becaue my way of “dealing” with feeling crappy at lunch today was to grab fast food at Chick-fil-a. I wasn’t even hungry. I just wanted something that might be comforting. But, my chicken wrap and waffle fries didn’t make anything better. Why in the world would such food be a comfort? If anything, they’ve made my day more difficult now. The food I ate wasn’t healthy and certainly won’t keep me feeling energized for very long. But, I’m pretty much stuck not eating anything the rest of the day to make up for my lunchtime excesses.

I’m blogging to remind myself that there are other ways of dealing with the bad days in life besides eating. Also, I’m blogging to remind myself that my healthier life and dieting will continue on in spite of this minor failing. Writing about this setback is reminding me that with another blog entry comes another chance at redemption. Here’s to a healthy rest of the day.

Yesterday, I was suffering a major case of the “I can’t believe I’m not engaged yet” blues. I wanted nothing more than to go home and have a pity party, but instead I went to work out. I did a cardio intervals work out on the elliptical, alternating 3 minutes of a steady but quick pace with 1 minute of a vigorous pace. Despite not being a regular exerciser, I can already tell that my intervals are getting easier to do.

I wish that I can say that I had a workout high that lasted all evening, but it didn’t. I am proud of myself, though, for not succumbing to tv and snacks as I wanted to do. Instead, I ate just 3 triscuits while cooking a dinner of cranberry beans. I turned on the TV, but mostly as background noise while I accomplished some much needed house cleaning. I was rewarded with a slight drop in the scales this morning. Thank God something feels like its going right.