I hope that w/ all the pain i’ve been in today that I’m gonna gain big time (not weight, lol). It kills to sit and get up….I am trying to find the strength to go clean my bathtub so I can take a hot hot soak. Getting down to pee is the worse..thought I’d tear the toilet paper dispenser off the wall at work today..haha..one hand on it and other on sink…i know tmi..just to get on and off it.

But I am feeling great. I hope that I am inspiring some of you ladies out there. I say ladies because I don’t think any men are reading my blog..haha.

I am going to have today and tomorrow as rest days and go to a class on Sunday. Either Body Combat (10 am–boo) or the Zumba at 4pm. However..there’s Yoga tomorrow that I’d love to go to..but really don’t think I can.

Another friend of mine, Cathy ( we worked together years ago..and she’s much older than myself–somehow a lot of my friends are older..haha). wants to go workout w/ me on Sunday to try out the gym. I asked her, “Cathy I heard it’s very intense (meaning the body combat)..are you sure you want to?” She hasn’t worked out in months and she has 20 lbs on. I don’t want her to get sick or do any damage. She said she’ll go to whatever and just go her own pace if she has to.

Ladies let me tell you about Cathy. She’s the most inspiring person you would ever know. She has had bowel cancer..carries a bag on her side. Cancer free for a few years now. Since all this, her husband left her for an engaged 20 something year old. She’s went to driving school/ got license and bought car..all on her own…finished renovating her kitchen..all on her own…went back to school and did a two year Office Admin course..now has a really good on call job w/ the health department. She’s also learned how to swim in the past year and is raising two teenage boys…basically on her own. She is my inspiration. IF SHE SAYS SHE CAN DO BODY COMBAT..THEN I BELIEVE HER. Just like I believe in each and every one of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am asking you to ALL check out a singer on Youtube called Adele. She’s simply brilliant. Her voice is therapeutic.

Here’s a link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nL49yZNE4yk

Have a wonderful weekend chicks!

Remember..no pain..no gain…

xo Ang

Weighed in at 150 this am~~down 3 lbs since last week. Went to Zumba and LOVED LOVED LOVED it..what a sweat.

My butt is beyond sore today (hurts to sit)..legs began hurting a few hrs ago (I usually feel sore two days after a workout) and then I went to the gym…haha. I might need a wheelchair tomorrow :).

Thought that Goodlife was going to have their 99.00 enrollment fee but they have a promotion on til the end of Jan..join for one cent! woot woot..when you sign for a year and pay first and last payment..sign me up! I’m gonna use my 14 day free pass and THEN sign up.

I am soo excited. The only thing i don’t like is that the treadmills/ellipticals, etc..are all facing the zumba class (which has some glass in the walls)..so EVERYONE can see us shaking our bootay..oh well. The pros outweigh the cons big time. 1) 1 minute drive from my house 2) LOTS of classes! 3) a separated women’s section if i choose to workout there 3) a sauna..i’m sure there’s lots more!

I am feeling so well mentally. I went to grocery store and bought some stuff to make smoothies. (Booster Juice is at the gym..had one earlier and for a small it’s 4 something! Thought I’d make em at home).

Have a great weekend my lovelies!

xoxo

Ang

I have two parents of children at work who work for the gym Goodlife. I went up tonight and thought I’d get a free 3 day pass and try the Zumba. Also so happened that another old parent from work messaged me today asking if I still went to Zumba. I told her “no..too far..yada yada..thought about trying Goodlife” She replied “well I just got off phone w/ em and might go tonight.” As I was walking in, so was she, lol.

Turns out that the Zumba class was almost over…a schedule mixup online. Instead there was a All terrain (Spin) Class. I’ve NEVER in my life had the nerve to try a spin class…and neither did ‘L’..the parent whom I met up w/. The mother/employee convinced us to give it a try..and we both agreed after that if neither of us were there we wouldn’t have tried it alone, lol. Well…..my feet were numb by end of it (not sure if I had them properly placed on the pedals) my ass was beyond numb..and at one point I felt like I had to throw up. I also brought a water bottle that was too large to put in the holder and had to leave it on the floor. Thank goodness the instructor got up and walked around and passed it to me…I would have keeled over and died!

My butt and legs are going to be so sore tomorrow..but I feel SOOO good that I did something. We were also told that the Body Combat ( most classes are by Les Mills…youtube it!) is all martial arts and an amazing class. It appears very similar to my boxaerobics class I went to in Nov/Dec..but even MORE hardcore!

Anywho off to shower!

Angela

I did go out the other night…had an okay time…..besides some very drunken guy who was at the door being turned away by the bouncer told my friend of a friend to, “shut the eff up”. “why merry christmas to you to Mr. Drunk and looking like an idiot”…mind you the friend of a friend is very very quiet and had said something to me under her breath.

Thank god my brother has moved to his apt. He had the nerve to ask me for a loan of $80 so he could party New year’s Eve. I declined of course..he’s a user, manipulator and if i didn’t know any better I’d think he was doing heavy drugs…well maybe he is.

Bf borrowed my car on Fri to move brother to apt with his stuff and got into an argument w/ brother. Bf loaned him $400 for damage deposit..with the understanding that he’d get it back in January…..when asked when he’d get it, brother’s reply was–”well I get paid on Friday..i will try to pay you” Bf is like..”No I NEED to know when J……i’m not employed now..I have my bills to pay” ..so of course my brother being an ass continued to say, he’ll try, he’ll try. As bf walked away from him he mumbled something under his breath and he wouldn’t repeat it when bf questioned him……this is not good enough. He makes more than I do…..has a roommate to pay half. That afternoon brother went on to continuously text me while at work to tell me all about this..and said that bf was down his throat about it. I said “maybe that is the only way to get thru to you. You need to grow the hell up and get your priorities straight…you cannot see ANY further past your next party and the next time your going to go get laid by some skank”

Anywho I told him Friday night..”you have to pay half of it back on your first pay day in Jan and the other 200 on the second pay day” I told him to NOT contact me anymore for rides to/from places and to borrow money. Last night we were having a lot of blowing snow and at 11pm he messaged for a ride across the city (to some girl’s house) I said you have the nerve! I told you I am not driving you ANYMORE. that was it…i closed off fb and had had enough of him. Basically he harasses me. If I say no…he will go on and on and on about it. Bf wants NOTHING to do with him unless it’s a life threatening problem. He did nothing but go out of his way to drive him to work each night, get up some mornings at 2 and 6 am to pick him up, drive his ass around the city, loan him money..and he was treated with nothing but disrespect.

Anywho.sorry to vent..but I really feel like I had to get it off my chest……..on to new beginnings…I am not going to help others who won’t help themselves. I am DONE being a doormat.

My next step is to tell Sister that she needs to look for her own place, lol.

I am going to ask the parent for the free gym pass this week and give it a shot..see if i like the gym that is sooo close to me..rather than traveling so far for only two classes a week.

I need to get groceries and get back on track!

Ang

Well it certainly is a new day and I am going to rest/relax until going out with Myra tonight. We are going to a friend of hers for drinks and then the three of us..maybe more are heading downtown to a club. A really good local band, Celtic Connection is playing and we may go see them.

I want to thank you girls for your support..not only with weight loss but the support that a real friend would provide. I feel lucky to have you in my lives. Sparkling…you are just so full of wisdom and it gives me a different perspective of the entire thing. I was up until 3 am last night, still upset..I guess basically because I take EVERYTHING to heart and sort of dwell on it. You are so right..I cannot control them or how they behave but I can control my reaction. I am not going to let people determine how I am going to spend my Christmas. I am not going to just sit around and get all bent out of shape for the way that they are. I have decided that I will NOT spend another Christmas like that again. After this holiday I am sure I would much rather enjoy a quiet peaceful Christmas with my bf in the city.

Oh weight this am was 151.5 :). Not too far from under 150

will not only include getting back on track w/ diet and exercise but will also include the following:

-not let people walk all over me

-not try to please everyone…it really is impossible

-not put up w/ family bullshit

-not worry about what people think of me

I bet you are wondering why I am writing these…Well bf and I decided to cut our xmas holiday a day short and head back to the city. I am from a small town where EVERYONE knows everyones business (it’s disgusting!) and my mom and her bf are very small minded people. This AM I was basically ‘told off’ by mom’s bf (sorta step father–they’ve been together for 10+yrs).

It all began when two people were walking by the house and they were wondering who they were (like seriously, right!)..I mean saying “oh i think its this person..no it’s so and so” pathetic!…and I said “what is the big deal with who it is??? what difference does it make who it is???”. Well my mother told me to be quiet..in a not so nice way..and my mom’s bf told me to ’shut up’ that I have a ‘bad attitude’ and that I am ‘one of those bitchy women’. I was DUMBFOUNDED! He has never said anything to me before like this. Bf was asleep and didn’t hear a thing. I was speechless and couldn’t say anything. What hurt the most was that my mother didn’t speak up for me (being as small minded as she is she just agrees with whatever he says as if he’s God). My mother THEN proceeded to tell my brother that I told him to shut up…i said “how is asking you both what is so important with who is walking by telling someone to shut up?” Her bf then said, “well it is a big deal to me”…I said “obviously it is because you have no lives and nothing else to worry about”. I walked in the bedroom. Told bf we were leaving..packed..etc and left. Holding in the tears insanely. Of course then I was labelled as being ‘contrary’ because I decided to leave. I basically felt unwanted or made to feel like I want to leave.

I went above and beyond with buying presents for both of them. All my mother did was complain or find a fault in some of it. I didn’t get a thankful from either of them. I was at the grocery store at 11:45 pm a few nights before going home buying things THEY needed and could not get at home.

Anyways….after eating a lot of crap over holidays….I am 153.5. I am in desperate need of a real vacation to get away from all the crap my family is throwing at me…or at least a good drunk..which may very well happen tomorrow night :).

I hope everyone had a less stressful x-mas than myself with people are ‘normal’. I will NOT spend next Christmas with these people. I don’t care if i have to sit and eat turkey by myself…I am so serious…

Angela

that is how i feel…….i’ve had zero self control this past week…and I feel like a failure because I didn’t give it my all for the 5 lb challenge…If I truly commited to it I wouldn’t be feeding myself such garbage. I need to join a gym or commit to something. The zumba class that I used to go to (about 15 mins away) is no longer in same building but now a little further. I don’t think I want to drive 40 mins to/from an exercise class.

weighed this am and was shamefully 153. I am constipated. I have been eating SHIT for the past while..ever since the buffets and the amount of sweets/chocolates that we’re given at the daycare is insane.

the day of my staff brunch  I tried on a pair of dressy capri pants that I wore two years ago (they have no buttons/zippers..just bit stretchy) and I had to SQUEEZE myself into them..seriously…and I felt so shitty since then.

my plan after xmas is to join a gym (which one I don’t know!) after xmas. gym memberships here average about 50 a month…which I can handle. I thought about going back to my old gym w/ the pool but I don’t want to go back to aqua aerobics because of the chlorine and my lcn nails. the schedule there is really lacking and not I don’t have much interest in it. ( i find it beyond boring using the machines) there IS a gym, Goodlife..that is literally one minute from my house..and they have various locations across the city..where I can go if I have a membership. Say zumba is offered at one on Mon…another on Tues…etc.. I can go to whichever class I want.

I WILL GET BACK ON TRACK

I WILL COMMIT TO SOMETHING (EXERCISE/GYM) AFTER XMAS

LOL NO IF’S AND’S OR BUTS!

On another note my brother has the keys to his new apparent..thank F%$#! and will move out early next week. However….my sisters ex ex bf moved away a few yrs ago….they broke up because of distance….is back in the province for a while…and he came in to spend xmas w/ her. (She has to work and spending first xmas away from home..but will go to my Mom’s next week for New Year’s) I am hoping that they get back together and move out..lol.

Ang

Well let’s see…last Sunday, my worker and I went to mall to do a little shopping..ended up going to a restaurant in mall, Fog City..Where I shamefully downed a burger and fries. On Wed, we had a potluck at our meeting for work…again ate too much, and last night Myra /I went to a chinese buffet :S..need  isay more?? The good thing is that I ate a lot of broccoli, and seafood. I also did NOT eat any dessert at the restaurant. I didn’t want to weigh this am for fear of the sodium making me retain water. I am going to drink a LOT of water today and weigh in tomorrow. Oh and tomorrow we have our staff brunch. Oh dear oh dear. I am going to enjoy tomorrow and stay OP all week until Christmas.  I know that a few days of bad eating won’t do a lot because I don’t eat a lot throughout the days..just had a few larger meals, more than ever in the past week.

I didn’t go to boxaerobics at all this past week..simply because I’ve been that busy that when i’m home and free of work/appointments I just want to veg out. No excuse really!

On another note I went today and got my hair cut (again) a little shorter, chin length, blonde highlights and purple peekaboos on each side. It’s the first time ever having color and I love it!!!!! I think next time I will get a mixture of turquoise and purple..and a little more!

Had a gift exchange last night w/Myra..she gave me a new purse, w/ gum, chocolates and lip gloss inside and I gave her PJ’s, a dip mix that I ordered from a party I went to and a really cute dish for putting it in. I also gave her cat treats, lol!

I now have two more appointments next week (massage and nails) and after that I need to just focus on relaxing/ getting stuff done here around the house, before I go home.

Have a great weekend chickies!

Ang

I think thats a good idea Michelle. She did message me today about going to boxfit but honestly I didn’t know if i should work out. I had a massage last night that literally almost made me cry…oh ya that was already said..anywho my back was very sore today…almost felt ‘bruised’ to the touch so I didn’t know if I should go to the boxfit..wearing weighted gloves for the entire class and the dumbbell workout at the end. I googled “different massage types” and I am pretty sure I had a Deep Tissue Massage. Some sites said its very normal to experience pain..it will last for a day or so and then eventually go away…whereas other sites said that pain should be minimal. My other instructor would do Swedish Massages..more gentler and less invasive.

Today was an okay day…realizing i need to eat more fruit. Ate two pears..went to the grocery store and picked up huge bag of apples and some jumbo grapes. We’re having a potluck tomorrow at work for supper..I bought a large caesar salad to bring w/ light dressing.

Hope you girlies have a great Wednesday!

Biggest Loser Finale tonight!!!

Haha bought the 12 something a bottle Nivea cellulite gel the other night at wally world….gotta use it twice a day….I am not overly cellulitish but I have some on my bum and legs…fun fun…I think thats why i actually HATE my thighs….my friends say they can’t notice it..but I do..I know its there and it makes me feel paranoid.

yesterday i weighed in at 147.5. of course weight is down the day after the ‘weigh in’, lol..oh well.

I went to my massage appt (1/4 appts..Yes I have ANOTHER appt on Sat–oil change in car :P) and the therapist said it’s no wonder I am in so much pain…the knots in my lower back and shoulder/neck are unreal…def from working w/ and lifting kids..sitting on small chairs…etc..she did a very slow pressure massage that nearly made me cry out in pain…first time ever having a massage where i felt that much pain…she did warn me that it was going to hurt and told me to let her know when i needed a break..I just focused..took deeeeeeeeeep breaths and fought thru it…also came home and took a HOTTT bath w/ epsom salts…I’m def gonna feel it tomorrow…another appt booked for Monday evening. I think that my last therapist was more relaxation based where this one is more therapy..which ideally IS what I need. Towards the end of the massage tho it was relaxing and when I got up I felt like I had come out of a coma…..ahhhh…

I have a dilemma…well a sort of one. Remember the friend of a friend who I used to go to Boxfit w/? well her and my bestie Myra ‘were’ close friends up until recently. Myra is extremely honest/ tell it like it is kinda gal…and only certain people can handle that type of person…yay me..lol..anywho her friend has been on a kind of self destructive path…….always complaining about how bad life is…does very little to change it…well Myra told her that exactly…she didn’t like it at all…and apparently blogged about it saying she’s considering cutting all ties ( Myra knows about the blog) and Myra emailed her…yada yada. Friend messages me and says “hey wanna go to boxfit…have u went lately??” ( i guess checking to see if i went and didn’t bother messaging her”….I know myra doesn’t care either way if i workout w/ her..I just don’t want to become ‘entangled’ in some sort of argument, lol. If her friend brings it up I will tell her exactly that….that I’m not a part of it..not gonna become a part of it….oh well. I think I should continue on w/ the boxfit and if she goes then oh well..what do u guys think?? I did tell her that i will TRY to go on Thursday…but won’t go tomorrow night…dentist appt at 5 and I just want to be able to relax as much as possible.

Have a great Tuesday everyone!

Oh forgot to tell you something so funny……..every year we have a photographer take group daycare photos taken and framed…our huge wall shelf was painted on the weekend so they were all taken down. As we went to put them up I asked the children if they could find me (in an older pic..like 2007) not one child could find me!!! They all thought I was this girl Michelle who is skinny/ blonde curly hair..haha…nope…I’m the much bigger (about 80 lbs bigger) girl w/ auburn hair on the other side kiddos….their faces were priceless!