Early rise this morning. Alarm was set for 3am. Bf’s flight left at 5:30. He thinks he won’t be home for Xmas. The project he’s working on finishes a few weeks into January. And because he has to pay his own airfare it’s not really worthwhile for him to fly home for Xmas..fly back..and then have to fly back home again. In a way I feel like am I not worth the money??? Am I not worth spending Christmas with?? I can see his point because he wants to save as MUCH $$ as he can towards a house. Right now we have a large portion of $$ for a down payment. He’d much rather have as much as possible OR not even get a mortgage…how I don’t know. I feel bad because I didn’t hug him at the Gate…just a quick kiss. I know he was in a rush to go through but a part of me is afraid of showing emotion so it was much easier to just make it short and sweet rather than all that sad stuff. How horrible is that? Why am I afraid of showing emotion in front of others? Why do I put on a ’strong front’? I think I need a shrink! LOL

I guess all of the coffee (2.5 cups) gave me some kind of high…and a headache too. Mopped floors, changed bed clothes, dishes and tidied up at 6am. I like to get things ‘done’ in a short period of time so I can relax and have lots of time to do nothing..lol. It’s 11:30 and I just vaccuumed entire house and finishing some laundry. Only thing left to do is dust..YUCK..i’m beyond allergic to dust and I usually sneeze my head off.

A friend and I are going to go out to a restaurant for supper..Seeing it’s Thanksgiving and we’re not with our families..on our own..lol. Not sure what restaurant though. After we may play Scrabble! whooo hoo. I grew up watching my Grandmother (who is quite good I might add) play Scrabble with my Great Aunts and her friends. I guess it carried on because I love the game. I lucked out at the Value Village one time. Found a game for 4.99 in IMMACULATE condition. ( Before buying it, I actually added up the number of letters that were supposed to be there and counted what was in the bag…all letters there, lol)

Alrighty off to get some breakfast I think!

Ang

10:28pm- Home after a long and enjoyable afternoon with my friend. We went to a Chinese Buffet..ate a lot of salmon, shrimp, mussels and imitation crab. Also went to see the movie ” Couples Retreat” was so funny. I couldn’t stop laughing……the Yoga instructor in the movie is hilarious….and Vince Vaughan is so cute. Then went back to friend’s house and played Scrabble….how I managed, I don’t know….soo tired!

Bf landed safely in Edmonton..he left a message for me on the landline saying he was at his Mom/Dad’s house for turkey dinner and also left me a short email. Says he misses me already. The independant part of myself couldn’t wait for him to go..I love being on my own..doing my own thing, etc…but the other part misses him so much..especially when its time to go to bed..and the other side is empty. It’s horrible that so many Newfoundlanders have to leave the province to make a decent salary. :-(.

I plan to spend the ENTIRE day tomorrow in my PJ’s and take it easy! Have a wonderful night chicks! Ang