Just wondering when do I decide to live a ‘normal’ life?? lol……For instance..my boyfriend went to Tim Horton’s today and I wanted to get a muffin…..just a regular delicious carrot wheat muffin..but I didn’t ask or get one. Then the question came to me..when do I start living a little more normal and get a freakin muffin if I feel like one?? The answer that I gave myself is…………if you want a muffin make some healthy ones…..not something loaded with fat (19grams!) and about 400 calories. Is this the right answer???

Getupnow made a good point on my last post…Should I allow myself to gain 5lbs just to enjoy life for a bit? I know if I have 5 lbs to lose I will probably work harder and put myself back on track. It’s so much harder to stay on plan if I only have 2-3 lbs to lose…After 87 lbs 2-3 is nothing but takes so much work to get rid of. My weight has never been below 142 throughout my journey and 142 is probably the lowest I will go. I honestly don’t want to lose much more however a part of me fears gaining so much that the whole theory of gaining a few lbs scares the crap out of me..lol. I think I am going to just go with the flow…if I gain a few lbs over Xmas ( WHO DOESN’T?) then no big deal….If I don’t..I probably lucked out..I’m not going to stress over a few lbs and I do not want my every action over the holidays be controlled because of my food obsession. My mother has two dogs and I plan to take them out for walks/jogs a few times while I’m home. (I will only be home for 4-5 days)

On another note, I have MOST of my Xmas shopping done/wrapped! I even have my bf’s stocking almost finished and I wrapped every little thing individually just for fun!

Have a great night!
Angela