I haven’t written in a few days…honestly didn’t really feel like doing much..hence the title of today’s blog………all I kept thinking about was how quick Friday could get here..( long weekend because it’s Thanksgiving in Canada!!) and I have no work on Monday..YIPEEEE! I seriously wish I was home for Thanksgiving..I will have no turkey dinner :-(…Fortunately at work yesterday we cooked turkey breasts, gravy, stuffing, mashed potatoes, carrots and peas for the children. I could not resist and had a small plate. Also went out for supper last night with some girlfriends and gave into the fries/gravy temptation that has been lingering lately. Ironic because my 3 friends who are not dieting all had a salad while I had fries. Hmmm……making me look like the hypocrite I’m assuming…however like they said..they always eat fries and I always eat salad…lol

I did not count points yesterday at all..I weighed in at 142.5 and is 2.5 lbs from my goal. Then it’s time to maintain…therefore I know I have to start relaxing a little and slowing easing more food into my diet..while still being healthy and keeping a close eye still on what I do eat. My bf is coming home next Friday..3 days late…and I will pick him up from the airport and go on to my hometown (3.5 hours away) for my cousins wedding on Saturday. My goal was to be 140 for the wedding..not so sure if I’ll make it but hopefully I will be quite close.

My bf will then return back to Alberta the following Tuesday..only 4 days home :-(. He will go away for a few weeks while they finish up their project and then he is coming home for a well needed break. This scares the crap out of me. I am scared that I will have no self control and become slack with my eating. He did mention that he might join the gym with me which is good sign and I’ve already made it quite clear to him that he needs to be as supportive as possible with my eating…It’s quite easy to give in a few times for the week he is home and get back on track for the 21 days he is away…but not so easy to give in if he’s around all the time :-(.

Tonight my friend is having a Games night at her house…and we all have to bring two little prizes ( from the Dollarstore) that the winners will get..sounds like fun!!!!!!!!!

620pm- Games night got cancelled..no one can really make it..so instead a friend who is also a huge fan of Nicholas Sparkes ( author ) and i are going to go see “Night’s in Rodanthe”..I just finished reading the novel today and cannot wait!!!

Also bought some chicken veggie burgers tonight..grocery store has buy one box get another free..whoo hoo…They were pretty good..I put sauteed fresh mushrooms and onions, pickles, mustard and ketchup on it and a side salad. I couldn’t find any healthy buns at the bakery dept. so I toasted a 5gm fibre healthy whole wheat bagel and had it on that…soo good!!!! First time I’ve had them and they were so yummy ( the burger i mean). They also have 17 gms of protein and 2 pts in WW…whoo hoo!

Yes you heard me! Today we had a mix of rain and a few snow flurries..ONLY in Newfoundland, Canada :-(. I am dreading winter before it even gets here…my old car was a Toyota Rav 4 which could get me thru anything…so I am quite scared about driving in a small car :S.

I will not be able to go to Aquafit tonight because I am babysitting a little girl who used to be at my daycare. I make pretty good money babysitting and with all the expenses I’ve had lately with the car it will come in handy.

I am craving junkfood so badly today…Last night after I napped ( from 630-10pm…which is NOT normal) I went to the drugstore and bought some sort of “healthy chip”…similar to those Skinny chips ( 3gms of fat in two cups)..anyways they absolutely turned my stomach and I couldn’t even eat 5 of them..do these people realize that even though people try to eat healthy they still have tastebuds and would rather something a litte decent?? I brought them into work and surprisingly two girls liked them….and they are NOT dieting…….how unfair is that?

Anyways off to babysit

Angela

 So tonight I had a sandwich for supper and some Baked Lays with two tablespoons of Onion DIp..I just wanted something to get rid of this craving :(.

Mary is the name of the aquafit instructor who I am truly amazed with……she is phenomenal and so full of life…my inspiration! I went to aquafit last night afterall and what a class! She pushes EVERYONE to their max but she makes it SO fun that it doesn’t feel like an extreme workout from hell. I went to Sunday nights class and let’s just say I will NOT be wasting another Sunday night…the young instructor does the aerobics ON the side of the pool in shorts and sneakers..and it’s full on aerobics….half of which we cannot keep up with…but I also find her very odd and myself and a few others could not help ourselves from laughing….I didn’t feel like I had any sort of workout and could’ve fallen asleep in the pool. As we were waiting for last nights class many of us expressed amongst ourselves how we all dislike Sunday night’s instructor and no one gets any enjoyment out of coming..hmm…Also found out she is filling in for Saturday’s instructor this following weekend which means I will not go to Saturday or Sunday night’s class this week…BOO! I will have to find something else to do!

Great news is I have my car repaired..and yes it was their fault…which makes me wonder how “specialized” these dealer mechanics really are :S……..he didn’t give me back the refund yet..said he would call tomorrow……..he’d better!

Anyways I’m off…going to make scrambled egg whites with peppers,mushrooms and put them in a ww wrap w/ salsa for dinner…YUMMO!

So after ALL the work the dealership did on my car..over $1100 worth..they are going to refund me some of the money because they insisted i need new rear brake shoes when I had them replaced only 11 days ago at another garage. Took the old shoes back for refund and the garage supervisor was FLOORED that they had jipped me so much money..called out there and now I am getting a refund because they did unnecessary work…so what else happens?? On the weekend suddenly I am leaking brake fluid..WTF???? I HATE confrontations and being a bitch but I am getting sick of mechanics not having a freakin clue with what they’re doing..All that was on my mind this morning was the damn car and I just wish that I had never gotten it…..I get so stressed over the littlest things that it even makes me lose my appetite…I didn’t even eat anything today until snack time at ten am with the kids..I ate my pear…( This is so not like me because I HAVE to eat breakfast ) My lunch went down in honest to god lumps! Anyways they were very understanding and told me to come out tomorrow to get my refund and see if its anything they did with the car…I refuse to pay them anything else and will no longer be going to the dealer to get work done…I chose the dealer because they have specialized technicians working there and wanted work done properly…PROPERLY MY ASS!

On a much brighter note I weighed at 142.5 this morning…2lbs since Friday??? (whoo hoooooo) I must’ve been retaining a lot of water (TOM) last week or this exercise is giving me a good boost with weight loss. I am also going to aquafit tonight as well….the amazing instructor is teaching tonight and i REFUSE to miss her class ( even if it means constantly checking and filling the brake fluid..lol)

TTFN! Angela

Yup! that was this morning’s weight!! It did go to 142.5 and back and forth but stayed on 143.5 . Only 3.5 more lbs to go and then it will be maintenance time…Maintenance scares me so much!

Just realized yesterday that I haven’t had my absolute weakness in over a year…..Kentucky Fried Chicken…even when I did allow myself a “treat” I refused to have KFC…I like being able to say that I’ve resisted my weakness for so long..and I honestly don’t want it!

Had a great time last night…even had some guy tell me I was looking good..hahaha….I NEVER used to get any attention from men when I was larger..and I find it kind of hard to get used to.

Going to go to aquafit tonight I think…whoo hoo!

It’s such a beautiful day here…the sun is shining and the air is so fresh..Home from aquafit..had a fabulous workout this morning..body and mind feels so relaxed too….Had a banana and two scrambled egg white wraps for breakfast…Thinking i’m gonna have a tossed salad with chicken breast on top for lunch..yummo!

Gonna go out for the afternoon w/ my sis i think..hit the mall for some sales..lol!

 6:18pm… Just finished the salad/chicken with ff ranch dressing and salsa..for supper..lol….had turkey soup and half roasted turkey breast sandwich on foccacia bread at the mall..not extremely bad..lol…..

DIdn’t buy a THING at the mall…Sis wanted to come on home early (her bf was picking her up after he finished work) which didn’t give me much of a chance to look around-argh..I swear her life revolves around her relationship with him :S. Anyways…I did buy a beautiful pair of navy blue corduroy pants for  $5.00 at Salvation Army..god i love that store!

Going to have a few drinks with some gal pals and go out dancing : )..Life is grand!

Today I’m thankful for bargain shopping..lol…..wonderful friends and vodka concoctions ( vodka, crystal lite and diet 7up–) HAHA

God am I EVER happy it’s Friday and I’m finished work…this week went by so quickly…Good news is that I still weighed in at 144.5 lbs this morning….perhaps all the aqua aerobics helped my metabolism….also TOM this week so I’m so glad I had a 2 lb loss!!!!!

Boyfriend tells me last night that he may be coming home next Friday..his company let 1500 people go! He’s kind of happy about this because he desperately needs a break ( he works for 21 days straight….10-12 hours a day and then comes home for 7 days ). He said he may be able to get on with another company yet but unsure. I hope he is home at least for a short while–it’s kind of hard being by yourself all the time!

May go out tomorrow night with the girls..if I do I’m going to wear my new hot pink/black and white dress with all the funky flowers..whoo hoo!!!

We had the potluck today at work..I know I didn’t do too too bad however I am sure I’m gone over my 20 pts..I’m not going to stress over it…it’s just one day…and it’s not like every day/week or even month we do something special at work…it was also for a good cause!

Have a wonderful weekend sisterchicks!

Waking up with a headache isn’t fun at all—Makes me dread the day already!

On a brighter note my weight this AM is 144.5.(which would bring my total weightloss to 85.5 lbs!) Is the scale FINALLY moving???? If its the same tomorrow it will be a 2 lb loss…Keepin my fingers crossed!

Off to a busy day!

Have a great day sisterchicks!

545-Home from work..headache is still around…didn’t eat a whole lot today..gonna have a grilled chicken on salad…something light..i’m holding on for dear life to that 144..lol….Wondering if I am looking “sick” looking to others…a child returned to daycare today ( was off all summer and Sept) and his father commented on my weightloss and said “oh my goodness look how much weight you’ve got gone….it is intentional right, you’re okay?” WTF??? I said “yes just a lot of exercise and dieting” and he responded ” well don’t lose anymore will ya?” ( Keep in mind that his wife is very tall and scrawny!) I then was all paranoid and asking my coworkers did I look ill???? They said that I looked dragged down and pale ( obviously…I’m so stressed lately and I said heck with makeup today ) and to anyone who hasn’t seen me in quite a while would think that such a dramatic weight loss would probably be due to illness..hmmm….Other than that just had a very tall, dark and handsome hold a door open for me..hahaha so i’m not that “SICK” looking–unless he thought I was and too ill to hold it myself..oh dear ..haha..Anyways I don’t care what anyone thinks..I know I feel fabulous and I’ve worked my butt off–I’m not starving myself or bulimic…

Tomorrow at work we’re having a potluck and to take part all staff must donate $5.00 to Breast Cancer Society…(we’re also going to wear pink and have a bake sale with the children next week..they will bake and “sell” their treats to their parents). I am going to make chicken fried rice with lots of veggies in it and scrambled egg whites…I am chosing to not count points tomorrow…a treat day for myself..Sometimes it gets very exhausting worrying about food and being limited with a number of points. I know one meal isn’t going to ruin everything I’ve worked for..heck I had Mcd’s last Fri and STILL lost two lbs this week.

7:58-Taking a break from cleaning and found a song online that I had heard lately on the radio but didn’t know the name/artist…Really good upbeat POSITIVE song…”Beautiful U R” by Deborah Cox. Some of the lyrics are….. Great catchy tune for y’all!

It’s your life
Thing may not always go right, for you
In those times
Just leave it behind
Cause sometimes you gotta play the game
Just to survive
Without losing yourself
It’s a fight, it’s true
It takes time
Don’t have all the answers
No matter how hard it gets
Hold on to what’s inside

(CHORUS)
Don’t never let nobody bring you down girl
Don’t never let nobody tear your world apart
Look in the mirror and see who you are
Beautiful U R

Today is supposed to be an EXTREMELY happy day but instead it was terrible. Why is it supposed to be great? It’s my 2 year anniversary with my bf…( and I selfishly forgot all about it due to stress) AND one year ago today I began my weightloss journey!!!! Wahooooooooooooo….a year later and here I am down 83lbs and a much more fit and healthy person!!! I should feel great about this…..but just feelin crappy overall.

This day was horrible…no good..and very bad..just like the character Alexander in the children’s book……….

Took my car to the garage to get the transmission pan repaired which i knew had to be done…told them about steering wheel vibrating a bit ( which STILL does) and they call me and tell me the brakes are ceased up..and should be replaced before snow comes ( I had brake shoes replaced 11 days ago??? )..and the total is $1100…I didn’t pay much for the car to begin with and I’ve put so much $ into it already……..I am kind of wishing I didn’t own one……..so I cried a few times at work..mostly due to frustration..I was stressed to the max when I got home from work that I just fell asleep….Then woke up binged on a cup of ice cream..ate a ww meal with steamed veggies…I totally wanted to go and binge on takeout or fastfood.

Decided I wasn’t going to go to Aquafit afterall because of my mood…then got uplifted by a friend who said there’s no need to sit home and sulk….life could be a lot worse……..I’m healthy…my friends and family are all healthy..I have a roof over my head and I am employed. I have a lot to be thankful for so I got off my butt and went to the gym afterall….however I did find it a little boring and not such a great workout…….

My PMSing doesn’t help any bit either..probably why I cried today..I don’t cry very often so……..

Had something happen today at work…a ladybug landed right in front of me when I was looking out the window…….Ladybugs are supposed to be a sign of good luck. I was just talking on the phone with my bf ( who did a fabulous job of cheering me up ) and a ladybug landed right in his cup of coffee this afternoon……..Hmmm ironic???? I think so..lol! Maybe I’m just grasping at straws for anything to help me through this day!

Anyways I’m gonna take off and go on to bed…lol…Hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day

Have a great night!