Today is supposed to be an EXTREMELY happy day but instead it was terrible. Why is it supposed to be great? It’s my 2 year anniversary with my bf…( and I selfishly forgot all about it due to stress) AND one year ago today I began my weightloss journey!!!! Wahooooooooooooo….a year later and here I am down 83lbs and a much more fit and healthy person!!! I should feel great about this…..but just feelin crappy overall.
This day was horrible…no good..and very bad..just like the character Alexander in the children’s book……….
Took my car to the garage to get the transmission pan repaired which i knew had to be done…told them about steering wheel vibrating a bit ( which STILL does) and they call me and tell me the brakes are ceased up..and should be replaced before snow comes ( I had brake shoes replaced 11 days ago??? )..and the total is $1100…I didn’t pay much for the car to begin with and I’ve put so much $ into it already……..I am kind of wishing I didn’t own one……..so I cried a few times at work..mostly due to frustration..I was stressed to the max when I got home from work that I just fell asleep….Then woke up binged on a cup of ice cream..ate a ww meal with steamed veggies…I totally wanted to go and binge on takeout or fastfood.
Decided I wasn’t going to go to Aquafit afterall because of my mood…then got uplifted by a friend who said there’s no need to sit home and sulk….life could be a lot worse……..I’m healthy…my friends and family are all healthy..I have a roof over my head and I am employed. I have a lot to be thankful for so I got off my butt and went to the gym afterall….however I did find it a little boring and not such a great workout…….
My PMSing doesn’t help any bit either..probably why I cried today..I don’t cry very often so……..
Had something happen today at work…a ladybug landed right in front of me when I was looking out the window…….Ladybugs are supposed to be a sign of good luck. I was just talking on the phone with my bf ( who did a fabulous job of cheering me up ) and a ladybug landed right in his cup of coffee this afternoon……..Hmmm ironic???? I think so..lol! Maybe I’m just grasping at straws for anything to help me through this day!
Anyways I’m gonna take off and go on to bed…lol…Hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day
Have a great night!