Sorry I haven’t had much time to write lately….the bf got home yesterday so I don’t have much time to spare..lol..I like to spend as much time with him as possible..coz he’s only home for 7 days! So the weight is STILL at 149.5..I must be maintaining or plateauing…..I seem to be eating a lot of low point chocolate treats lately so this could also be the reason..I’ve still been walking from work but I am not sure if i’ll get the time to go out and do the c25k..i know excuses excuses and I should MAKE time for it no matter what! I need to come up with a plan to get these last few pounds gone—something seems to be not working!

Ok so I’ve heard and read so much about C25k..and thought there is no way I can possibly count 60 seconds and 90 seconds and stay on track…

An hour ago I decided to go for a walk…(guilt from last night I assume) and something clicked inside my head…I HAVE A STOPWATCH ON MY IPOD!!! So i did the 5 minute warm up walk..and began…with the jogging and did it for my entire walk..when I got to twenty minutes I walked the rest of the way to my house which came to 22 minutes and 44 seconds….It is brutally windy here this evening and I wanted to give up half way but I kept doing it..YAY!! I know that the c25k just starts off at 20 minutes and goes 30 minutes further into the program so I will have to find a longer route or go around the streets in my neighbourhood a couple of times..LOL..

I’m so proud of myself!!! It says to do the c25k 3 times a week..so if I go out walking more than the 3 times I will just walk and keep the running for those 3 days..I’ve wanted to begin this so badly and and actually shocked that I did it! I’ve always feared people staring at me while I’m jogging but WHO CARES!? I’m the one out there getting fit..not driving around..I’m the one who is making myself better and healthier!

RIght now I am listening to a podcast someone created and when I get my new Dell laptop ( that has been shipped!!!) I will download one I really like and use it to guide me..then I won’t have to use the stopwatch..He tells you when to walk/jog and guides you through it..Great stuff and I’m so excited..

Wish me luck chickies!!!

** ok so I think when I do my next c25k…I should stretch a LOT more..I think I would have tonight if i had decided on beginning the program BEFORE I was actually outside and ready to start walking…my legs are fine..just feel like they’ve had a good workout but the back of my neck, close to my right shoulder is very sore..oh dear!

So everything was great yesterday UNTIL last night…drinks with my friends to celebrate a birthday…oh dear..the food..the temptations…and I didn’t say “no”..I knew I should of..I just didn’t….I’ve also been out ‘partying’ 4 out of the last 5 weekends…….so NOT good..I don’t go overboard but 4 coolers are probably WAY too many calories. I drink the Hyrda coolers which claim to have fewer calories than all the other coolers but they don’t have ANY nutritional info on the box or the website to prove it!….They have become my ‘treat’ and this is terrible…I did dance for about 2.5 hours STRAIGHT last night..so I am hoping that will help but I highly doubt it!

So I am considering last night my ultimate ‘binge’ night..the damage is done..I am refusing to dwell on it..Today is a new day…I’ve stayed on track all day and haven’t went over my points thank goodness!

The bf is home on Tuesday..YAY!! I’ve bought lots of things to make healthy meals for the week he’s home..we are planning on going out for supper one night next weekend..I am going to save some points for that night as well as use those ‘extra’ points that Weight Watchers now allows ( I usually don’t ever consider them).

Hope you’ve all had a great and healthier weekend than mine has been!

Well Chicklets..

It’s 8:30 Am on a Saturday..I should be sleeping in but I’m just in a great mood..the sun is SHINING!!!! Finally…I am gonna get ready to go for a really long walk shortly..I may also be going for a swim in an outdoor pond with a friend..I haven’t been swimming all summer so i’m  so happy! A friends birthday was Monday past and she was on holidays so she’s back in town and wanting to go to a club and celebrate..which will mean lots of dancing..gonna be a busy one!!!

Have a great day!!!!!!!

Ok so this morning’s weigh in wasn’t so great….i didn’t lose or gain anything this week…still 149.5..so there’s hope for me afterall..lol…I am just so happy I didn’t gain! Anyways it’s pouring down rain here….Seems like our summer is over and done with :-(.

Hope you all have a great day!

3:50 pm–got off work at 3..an hour early on a Friday which is awesome! It’s STILL pouring down rain and windy outside..so gross I can’t even go for a walk..so I’m stuck inside which leads to a lot of boredom..which then could possibly lead to eating…Had a pretty good day..ate really well..oatmeal,grapes, pear, huge salad and a 60 cal choc. ice cream since I’ve been home…Drank about 7 cups of water so I’m doing good so far! I am craving eggs SO MUCH lately that I might make some wraps for supper…I absolutely love these!….scrambled egg whites with one whole egg..with fresh mushrooms, green onion and green pepper….put them into a weight watcher wrap wtih salsa..to DIE for !!!! Last year I would honestly scramble 3 whole eggs…put cheese on top..but that was then…and they taste just as good if not better now!

Well I weighed myself this morning…reading 151.5….Feeling bloated and really gross…I drank two cups of this metamucil stuff last night so that might have been what bloated me…And it’s not even helping :-(.

So being up two lbs since last week I guess in my head I said “heck with it all” and basically didn’t care enough to put effort into having some sort of control.

I might as well admit everything to you all about how I basically FAILED today! Did fine all morning…Cooked the mac and cheese today for the kids…had a ‘forkful’..then another..another……..one just led to another…….however I didn’t actually get a plate and have some….I might as well of! THEN oh god it gets worse..time for the rice krispie cookies…so instead of one..I eat three very small ones..thinking that it’s basically the same…I am thinking I shouldn’t allow myself ANY because after the first bite it’s almost uncontrollable…I feel like having a full fledge ‘eat whatever’ I want day tomorrow to get it out of my system. I guess I went so long not allowing myself a whole lot that now when I do it’s beyond crazy! II hate this out of control feeling..I don’t want to gain any of that disgusting weight back…I think I need to sit and stare at some of my before pics..and write up some goals….

I know that I am going to have a gain tomorrow…that makes me feel depressed on top of the guilt that I’m already feeling..My boyfriend is coming home next week and I am dreading it…I shouldn’t dread seeing him because I am afraid of my own self control…I cannot force him to eat healthy..even though he barely complains if he does…but if he chooses not to then I just fear that I’ll give in as well.

Sorry everyone for making you all listen to my rant….I know a gain tomorrow will be MY own fault and no one elses so the only thing I can do is learn from it!

Ang

****8:25pm..ok so just got back from a  25 min speed walk…feeling MUCH better..a walk usually does..Realized it would be absolutely stupid for myself to go ‘crazy’ tomorrow and eat whatever….what would be the point really?? I’d probably feel even more guilty after…….also realized that just because today was a bad day doesn’t mean I have to make tomorrow a bad day as well…Sometimes I am gonna gain..its bound to happen..Just gotta get back at it and work even harder..I’ve come too damn far to just give up…I didn’t give up on myself 10, 8 and 6 months ago..so why now?

A little disappointed in myself today…my kitchen cook at work is off on two weeks ’stress relief’ and is going through a really rough time right now..so of course me being the person left in charge of the director’s duties I’m also the one who will now do her work (doing two other staff’s work!) ….so I am in the kitchen..surrounded by TONS of food and a very low lack of self control :-(. Made macaroni and cheese today (for tomorrow, because I like to do a lot in advance) which is my absolute weakness ..Anyways I was constantly picking at this and that…..and terrified that I will gain on Friday! I am going to have to cook the macaroni tomorrow and NOT eat any..I can’t let myself!!! I also made rice krispie cookies instead of the usual oatmeal raisin or chocolate chip cookies we have…just for a change for the children..and I LOVE them..so tomorrow i will have to allow myself to one and use a couple of my points for that…dear lord..I hate this point when I’ve gotten my weight to a certain point that I’m petrified to gain..It was a lot easier for me to mentally deal with a gain when I was 180 than when I have reached my goal. 

I know this is sort of a personal topic but I was looking for any suggestions…Is it possible to eat TOO much fibre?? I find that I am only ‘using’ the washroom approx 2-3 times a week…..feeling bloated…i eat TONS of fruit (at least 3 a day)..eat lots of veggies and drink lots of water…all of my food is whole wheat and I eat high fibre oatmeal/corn bran cereal every day. My boyfriend who knows nada about dieting…says he thinks my body is retaining what I’m eating because it’s using most of what I eat…I’m not eating any crap..lol…..But it can’t be using ALL of what i’m eating..that’s insane! I’ve started with Metamucil now to see if this will help. Sorry for talking about such a gross thing but in need of some advice..I may have to go see my Dr. for her opinion…

Well the sun FINALLY decided to shine today..first time in 2 whole weeks..which is NUTS! I walked home as well….napped for 1.5 hours……..I am beyond the normal tired lately….It must be from all the stress with work combined with the 6 am wakeups….My iron was really low a few years ago so perhaps it is low again..oh dear !

Sorry to go on and on tonight but thank you all for reading/commenting and any suggestions you may have!

First of all I want to thank Getupnow for reading and commenting on my blogs..it’s great to have your support and thanks so much for suggesting the Snack wrap and Fruit and Yogurt Parfait at McD’s..I ate that today and even felt full afterwards…..plus I have lots of pts left to not starve..lol!!! I honestly hadn’t even thought of anything else except how am I gonna avoid those fries????????  Also Rach….If I’m able to get from 230 to 148 believe me when I say YOU CAN DO THIS! AND you can do this the healthy way unlike your sisters!!!! As you said my blogs show how human I am…haha I’ve  been told before that I’m quite down to earth and tell it like it is..lol..maybe sometimes too honest/ blunt..but oh well…I am who I am !! I was only thinking the other night that I wish I had found this site when I first began this journey…not when it’s almost over!!!! I also wish that there was instant messaging thingy on here so we could chat back and forth to different bloggers!!!

Okay…to explain today’s Title! I am not walking around with a sign saying “Beep your horn to me”or “yes please be a perv and shout disgusting stuff from you window!” AND I am NOT walking around in a mini skirt/tube top/makeup all done..etc….SOOOO this goes out to all the disgusting men out there…..ESPECIALLY the ones who are about 20 years my senior…driving around like they’re 19 with the music blarin out of their crappy ass cars…I didn’t lose this weight for your attention….I don’t want or like your attention..I am obviously not strutting it or doing anything for it………I lost this weight for MEEEEEEEE! I wouldn’t normally have the nerve to do anything..just ignore it..but after today’s pathetic attempt from a guy to hit on me ( yelling and whistling out of his window) I have vowed that the next one will be seein the bird! LOL

Ok today was a combination of a bad/good day……………….First thing this morning…my Ipod wouldn’t turn on….I almost went into panic mode..WHAT am I going to do for music when walking??? I am so dependant on it!!!!!!!!!!! (Thankfully I remembered my bf had mentioned a while ago that you can reset them so I Googled how and figured it out when I got home..YAY!!!!!)

I felt fabulous after my field trip to McD’s….thanks to Getupnow’s suggestion…….then got back to work..suddenly began to get a major headache..so couldn’t wait to get out of the place……..took the longer route and walked home in the misty rain (40 minutes)…but it felt soooo refreshing!!! Then that OLD guy in the car ! GROSS! Oh well!

But now my headache is gone….glad that my McD’s lunch was only 6 pts…my Ipod is fixed…..and I feel great after that walk…so everything turned out quite okay!

Hope all of my fellow chicklets have had a great day!!!! Suppertime for moi!

Angela

***** Forgot to add…….A coworker pointed out something interesting/cool today….Because I work at a daycare we buy a lot of our food by bulk…….so we buy bags of long grain rice…40 lb bags! It’s huge and SOO heavy…Anyways today she said….”Oh my goodness Angela..you’ve lost 2 whole bags of rice!!!!” CRAZY!!!!…I said “yup..2 bags and a couple of cups!” I can’t imagine carrying about 2 bags of rice anymore!!!!

Well I didn’t get the chance to write yesterday…I had an extremely busy day..My sister and i switched bedrooms last year ( her friend moved in with us for a bit) so I gave her the Master Bedroom…..After her friend had moved out she thought it was only fair that she have the larger room for a while ( yet I had a double bed and she a twin??) Anyways, I’m pretty easy going so said okay……..Anyways I finally said enough was enough…I felt like I was living in a closet and couldn’t take it anymore and I wanted my room back! lol…..So that is what I did for about 4 hours yesterday….reorganizing my new room and moving furniture…..Today I can definitely feel it in my legs…feels like I had a good workout.

I had an awesome weekend…had Subway on Saturday as my treat…lol..For some reason I’d much rather have Extreme Pita or Subway these days…sooo good! We went downtown ( two of my girlfriends and myself) and danced for two hours straight…….not kidding! So that and on top of moving furniture I’m extremely exhausted today…I just woke up from a 3 hour nap! Hope that I’m able to sleep tonight!

Had a pretty good day overall..and I forced myself to walk home after work…even though my legs were telling me “no” lol. This morning I was still weighing in at 149.0……I have reset my goal now to 145..and then perhaps 140..I’m not sure..I know I don’t want to be any less than 140! I kept telling myself…150..150..150…..I honestly thought i’d never ever reach 150…it’s like we underestimate ourselves and how dedicated we really are to lose this weight…….and now my goal has been changed..This is so surreal to me!

Tomorrow myself and another staff are taking the older children to McDonald’s for lunch..We do this every summer..Last summer I wouldn’t have had any problems with going…….arghhh….I am wondering if I should treat myself…(fajitas and fries) because I haven’t had fast food in FOREVER! Hmm big decisions :-(. A fajita meal is 16 points………so that leaves me with 4 points for the day……..can we stay STARVATION???? Then there are those darn 35 “extra” points that we’re allowed which I really have hardly used..up until now….

At least when I started this diet at 24-26 points i could still enjoy something like that AND have some leftover points for some other things throughout the day…….

Oh dear…sorry to go on and on everyone!

Have a great night!

Angela

I thought I should write a little more today because I didn’t get much time last night to write a whole lot…..Yesterday I did SO much walking and running..we took the children to a fieldtrip at a local park…from 10AM -1:30 PM and even had lunch there and fed the ducks. Anyways we walked the whole distance to one duck pond to the 2nd duck pond about 4 times! We also did a Scavenger Hunt ( which we won! lol) and we were running everywhere…………..I got home last night and was literally exhausted…so instead of lying around I went for my usual 30 minute walk which turned into 20 minutes because I jogged a nice bit more than usual….I seriously want to start jogging more!

I did go over my points a bit yesterday..I guess with so much walking and running around at the park my appetite was crazy! ( we only sat to take a 5 minute break and to eat our lunch!!!) but I know that in Weight Watchers you are given 35 extra points a week..so really if I were doing Weight Watchers ( paying for the meetings ) I would have had them to use. I weighed myself and am extremely surprised that I am down ANOTHER lb! I think this is crazy considering its TOM! So this morning I weighed at 148.5!

I think I have reset my weight goal to 145 because it seems that it is very possible..and once it’s there who knows….The most important thing now is to tone what I have…I still have a little tummy which I am thinking is the extra skin (GROSS!) and my thighs are the same way..I can feel that they have much more muscle than before but when I lift them up I can see the extra skin :-(. It’s not a lot..and i’m sure to anyone else they probably wouldn’t notice but I do..I know it’s there and it’s driving me crazy! lol

Anyways I hope chicks all have a great day! I’m going to meet up with a friend…stay at her house tonight and go to a local pub!