It seems like all i do is bitch and complain….Let me tell you all about something that I just realized kinda bothers me..let me know if it would bother you all too or am I just overreacting .It’s about one of my closest friends…WHENEVER I see her/hang out with or run into..( I just seen her at the grocery store ) she ALWAYS greets me with “hey skinny bitch” or “hey skinny this or that” (this is just her and the way she jokes around–I dont take any offense to the bitch part of it at all)..but just that she always has to say something to me about being skinny..It’s ok to hear it once in a while but it’s ALL THE TIME..I know she’s told me that she’s proud of me but it kinda gets tiring after awhile…There’s more to me then losing weight..I don’t go on and on to her about my diet/weightloss and other than making these comments she doesn’t ask really how I am doing .Another thing that she told me recently is that she may start going to the gym with an ex- coworker—-she has expressed numerous times that she’s not that fond of her………I find it very odd because she knew I’d want to go or join up if I had a buddy..I’ve told her this many times before but I find it very odd that she wouldn’t ask me or invite me along..so all I said was well..if she ends up not going I’d love to go…I mentioned this to another close friend and her reply was perhaps because they both have so much weight to lose she’d feel a bit intimidated going with you who already has lost so much and doing quite well…It’s sad but it could be true…. ANYWAYS i recently won a free 5 day pass to this gym and might say the heck with going with anyone and just go by myself….The only thing I have to lose by going is a few lbs..lol.

Soo do u guys think I’m overreacting with the constant “skinny” comments????

Gosh I’m so glad that I haven’t told my friends or anyone about this blog..it’s like I can vent to you chicks and let it all out and not be afraid..lol!

Thanks girls..its great to hear all your opinions..i actually spoke to her last night and casually mentioned how she found the gym..she said she ended up not going because she was going to a family dinner….and she was like..”print off a free 3 day pass” on their site and come with us..sooo..I guess she isn’t as uncomfortable or is more comfortable if the other girl is with her..she is larger than my friend…I told her I’d wait until  I received the 5 day pass the gym was mailing me….much rather a 5 day than a 3 day pass

So I weighed myself this morning as well as my boyfriend..ok so I made him…and I am back down to 149.5..how I dunno considered the drinks and out to supper on Saturday..perhaps it boosted my metabolism?? Anyways my boyfriend who used to always be about 175 had lost weight in the past 6 months being away working and he is 152.5…so this morning I weighed LESS than him!!!! FINALLY!!!! I’ve never had a bf who weighed less than me before so I always wanted to be lower than him..lol….I’m weird I know!

Also when I was changing yesterday I just happened to notice in a mirror that my thighs are SOOOO close to not touching anymore…whoo hoo..I despise my thighs and I still am not comfortable in shorter shorts…all summer long I’ve worn the ones down to my knees or capris…I tried on the one pair or shorter shorts I own yesterday and they’re a bit loose around the waist and bum and no longer tight around the thighs..they were when I bought them….I’m sure I look okay in shorter shorts but i know there’s cellulite there in a few places and I am so paranoid…The proof of the damage that was once done to my body (getting FAT) still exists and I hate that I’ve lost so much weight but still not comfortable in a pair of damn shorts..arghhhhhhhhhhh..Like I tell my friends..once you are ‘fat’ a part of you will always be ‘mentally fat’ :-(. Sad really!

Started a new page C25K progress..Just home from W2D1 and took a longer route today..by the end my face was on fire..so red and warm..lol..but I didn’t give up-that’s the main thing! I love how my legs are looking and feeling so much more stronger!