A little disappointed in myself today…my kitchen cook at work is off on two weeks ’stress relief’ and is going through a really rough time right now..so of course me being the person left in charge of the director’s duties I’m also the one who will now do her work (doing two other staff’s work!) ….so I am in the kitchen..surrounded by TONS of food and a very low lack of self control :-(. Made macaroni and cheese today (for tomorrow, because I like to do a lot in advance) which is my absolute weakness ..Anyways I was constantly picking at this and that…..and terrified that I will gain on Friday! I am going to have to cook the macaroni tomorrow and NOT eat any..I can’t let myself!!! I also made rice krispie cookies instead of the usual oatmeal raisin or chocolate chip cookies we have…just for a change for the children..and I LOVE them..so tomorrow i will have to allow myself to one and use a couple of my points for that…dear lord..I hate this point when I’ve gotten my weight to a certain point that I’m petrified to gain..It was a lot easier for me to mentally deal with a gain when I was 180 than when I have reached my goal. 

I know this is sort of a personal topic but I was looking for any suggestions…Is it possible to eat TOO much fibre?? I find that I am only ‘using’ the washroom approx 2-3 times a week…..feeling bloated…i eat TONS of fruit (at least 3 a day)..eat lots of veggies and drink lots of water…all of my food is whole wheat and I eat high fibre oatmeal/corn bran cereal every day. My boyfriend who knows nada about dieting…says he thinks my body is retaining what I’m eating because it’s using most of what I eat…I’m not eating any crap..lol…..But it can’t be using ALL of what i’m eating..that’s insane! I’ve started with Metamucil now to see if this will help. Sorry for talking about such a gross thing but in need of some advice..I may have to go see my Dr. for her opinion…

Well the sun FINALLY decided to shine today..first time in 2 whole weeks..which is NUTS! I walked home as well….napped for 1.5 hours……..I am beyond the normal tired lately….It must be from all the stress with work combined with the 6 am wakeups….My iron was really low a few years ago so perhaps it is low again..oh dear !

Sorry to go on and on tonight but thank you all for reading/commenting and any suggestions you may have!