Ok so today was a much much better day……….ate extremely well and stayed on points..also drank a lot of water………Work was stressful as usual..my director is off on medical leave (until September) so me being there the longest (besides her) I am sort of put into the assistant director role and left to do her dutes………So two staff calls in sick and I had to do all the bills……..YIKES…but I’m glad that we got it all figured out and a lot of children are on vacation which makes our attendance a lot less.

So I felt like binging……eating my stress away……..which I know doesn’t work..just makes me MORE stressed because of the guilty feeling afterwards. The “why in the hell did I eat that?” feeling.

The rain held up long enough for me to walk home……35mins…YAYYYYYYY..finally!  And you guys are NOT going to believe this but I just did 25 mins of my Billy Blank’s Tae Bo video…..So keep your fingers crossed that I’m on a role. (Even though I seriously suck with the steps..it was an attempt and I did break a sweat ). I think I have to start walking rain or shine and doing some jogging throughout my walks. I so want to do a lady kickboxing class that is closeby but I really don’t want to go at it alone..I need a buddy! There’s also a Cardio Fitness Bootcamp that goes on here in my town at 6 am every day…but 6 am??? I have to work at 7:30 am now and the thoughts of getting up earlier than my usual 6am..oh gosh i dunno if i could do it!

I’m wondering if TOM has anything to do with my tiredness last night and extra long nap…TOM came a day earlier than expected so maybe……….Also why I’m working extra hard to stay or go below 151.5 lbs…I HAVE HAVE HAVE to stay on track………I want so badly to reach my goal. The next time I’m tempted to eat something unhealthy I am going to ask myself……..”what do you want more ……….150 or something that tastes good for 5 seconds???” Like seriously the 150!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just found this quote by Lee Iacocca
“You’ve got to say, I think that if I keep working at this and want it badly enough I can have it. It’s called perseverance.”                So true!