I was at a friends house….late September…..and we were having our usual girly get together/hang out/ eat junk night.I decided to weigh myself.It was the BEST decision I could have made that night. What i read on the scale completely shocked me! 230 lbs! I wondered “who was this person” and “what have you done to yourself” I felt completely gross after pigging out and knew that it was now or never. I vowed to start October 1/o7.

I had joined Weight Watchers towards the end of college in 2002 and had lost aprrox. 15 lbs. I didn’t last very long on the program because I had moved back to my hometown and then out of Newfoundland to Ontario…it was just too hectic to keep up with all the planning and journaling with everything that was going on. I knew basically what i had to do and how the point system worked.

So since that October I’ve been doing the Points on my own and weighing in myself….I still follow the points and currently down to 156.5!!! It took lots of hard work and dedication but I keep telling myself “You deserve this and you are worth it!” I have started walking almost everyday and find it relaxes me and almost calms me…gives me time to think as well as get a good workout. Sometimes I feel like jumping for joy or screaming ” I DID IT!” but for now I think I’ll stick to doing my “happy dance” in my room :P!

Sometimes I feel that its beyond surreal how much weight I have gone and really the size I  am now compared  to what i was……..Yes i see pics and I feel major differences but I guess I have wanted this for so long that it doesn’t seem real.

I haven’t been this size since I was in highschool..I graduated in 2000………….. and I probably weighed what i weigh now in grade 11..so really 9 years ago….I went to college and let myself go completely……sometimes i feel so angry and sad that I could let myself do this to ME!

On a brighter note,  I am beginning to buy a lot more clothes and this feels amazing—trying on something that i only dreamed of a year ago……but there are days that I look into the mirror and see this and see that….still not 100% satisfied….yes, sad i know :-(…does anyone else feel like this..is this even normal???

Hello everyone……..this is the first blog I’ve ever written so I’m not 100% sure what to do OR if i’m doing it correctly..lol…….To start off I should introduce myself! I’m Angela…a 26 year old female from Newfoundland, Canada………..I am an Early Childhood Educator and work in a licensed childcare centre.

My boyfriend, Kenny, of almost two years works away in Alberta, Canada..and I only get to see him one week out of every month :-(…He is extremely supportive of the “new” me and sees a difference every time he is home….I honestly think that without his support I couldn’t have done this and I am beyond thankful that he has always thought of me as beautiful no matter my size or how much I have weighed…I can literally say he’s loved me through thick AND thin ..LOL…well almost thin :-).

I love being outside…..hanging out with my friends, whether it be movies/shoppings or clubbing once in a while–they are awesome and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. Well thats it for now!