So today I did so so………I walked to work this morning..and ate lots of veggies and fruit..I also drank a LOT of water………….however a parent brought in a “temptation” food…….as I like to refer to them……..a very delicious chocolate cake……….chocolate is my absolute weakness and I don’t know how to say no to it! So i caved and had a tiny sliver…….not even a slice…….I just had to…………I know I’m only human and this is going to happen once in a while………and also that a tiny sliver of cake is not going to make me gain it all back……..a part of me felt a little guilty for eating it though :-(.

Tomorrow I am vowing to myself to not touch anymore of that evil cake and to just stick with what I have planned……everything else is NOT an option! lol…

I’m so close to my goal weight I can taste it…..no pun intended lol….and I want to be 150 more than anything right now………I think I am going to be ecstatic when that day comes……knowing that  I did this…all on my own without the help of any leader/group/trainer.

Come on 150 !

So had a fairly good day except I didn’t drink a whole lotta water…….not yet…I was so proud today at work……….a staff brought in some yummy timbits from Tim Horton’s to share with all the other staff……..and recently someone commented on a blog I wrote and she said when there are temptation foods around she would say ” It’s not an option…………..ANYTHING ELSE is not an option” and this is so true—I said this about ten times today at work when I thought of eating one……..and I didn’t …….So THANK YOU to brseay! I gave myself a choice…….one two pt timbit or the 100 calorie Peak Freans I brought with my lunch……I chose the 100 calorie snacks because I knew they would last a lot longer and I could take my time…..

I walked to and from work…….approx 65 minutes AND I took my kids to a fieldtrip so about 20 minutes walking with them……..85 minutes total!

But now I am home…….literally exhausted……haven’t eaten supper yet and trying desperately to find the energy to go eat!!!

Remember everyone “It’s not an option!” It worked for me so hopefully it will work for you!

Take care!

Okay everyone………..I’m almost to my goal of 150lbs…My biggest fear is what happens once I am there????? How do I maintain?? I don’t mind if I lose a few extra pounds and go less than 150…………………… I don’t want to get to 150..give up the points and gain everything back :-(…………I’m pretty sure I will always portion my food………especially pasta/rice! lol…..And I might still have to keep up with the points..as a way of controlling myself and what I am eating……I’m not sure but I think that when my body is at a weight it is supposed to be at …….and still eating the 20 points it will eventually maintain……..I am not really sure…does anyone have any suggestions for this???

So went out tonight to do a little shopping…….at the Reitman’s near my house…….lots of sales on whoo hooo!!! Anyways seen these really nice white pants and tried on a size 9…..fit really nice…..so thought I’d try on a 7 out of curiousity…….WHOOO HOOO…got em done up and everything and they didn’t look too too bad!……a little bit snug..lol……….Anyways I didn’t get those pants after all…found another pair and bought those in a size 9! But I was beyond excited!

Really on track today with my eating..thank goodness……after snacking Saturday night I forced myself to do good..lol………and I walked home from work and to and from the shopping centre…so about 40 minutes altogether!

Have a great week everyone!

Ok so last night was a great time with my friends……and of course there were temptations…..lots of snack foods……..lol…….and a chocolate cake for her birthday……I ate a little more than I probably should have and I did treat myself to a small piece of cake…..but honestly I enjoyed every bite of it and don’t regret it because I know that I don’t eat like that every day..and I do believe that everyone needs to have a treat once in a while or they will go crazy..well I know I would lol………..so now its time to get back on track and work even harder this week! I’m also hoping that the 2 hours of dancing I did will burn some of those extra calories I ate!!!

Hope you all have a great week!

So I woke up bright and early today…….and was 154.5…………2 lbs less than yesterday?????? But yesterday was my ‘weigh-in’ day so really I have to wait until next Friday to ‘weigh-in’ again and make it count!

I almost cried when I got off my scale……….I know really its not the weight but more so the inches..and believe me I have lost a lot of those too…… I was a size 16..sometimes 18 at my heaviest and now I can wear a size 10 and my sisters size 9 jeans! But when I began my weight loss journey…..I said to myself……….155………if i get to 155 I will be beyond happy……..and today I stepped on and seen 154.5…..everything i have done..all the hard work–the point counting..the journaling…the chosing healthier meals while out with friends…the walking…….it has paid off….and in the end I have a much happier person..myself…….I find that losing this weight I am more energized…..I am smiling like never before and overall a much more pleasant person……..I have learned to love myself for this amazing gift I have given myself….I feel like I have my life back and not trapped in some bloated oversized human……So today I have decided to celebrate ME..I am going to go get my hair done….dress up really nice tonight and go out and enjoy a friends birthday! Have a great day everyone!

Ok so i weighed myself this morning………still the exact same as last Friday which yes is better than a gain but I should have known I wouldn’t lose much/anything……First of all it is the time of the month and I am craving junk food like never before…….I work with small children so I am responsible for serving them two snacks plus lunch…….This I am finding very difficult lately…I just pick at it..a bit of this …. a bit of that…….and after a while it all adds up..so this could have been the reason…….I’ve been doing pretty good with drinking water..probably because it’s been so damn hot here lately……in Newfoundland we get ten months of cold, snowy/rainy, foggy and yucky weather and then suddenly when the heat hits us in July we don’t know what to do with ourselves…lol…….and I also have done a LOT of walking since last Saturday………I just calculated that including today….320 minutes! thats almost 5 and a half hours…..so I’d say if it werent for the water and walking i’d definitely have a gain……….

Going out with friends tomorrow night and hopefully I won’t be snacking too much…..I find that there are voices in my head yelling at myself saying ” have some self control for godsakes” and another part of me saying ” it won’t hurt…..only if its a little bit” Like a tug of war inside of me and the evil part that eats is the one that wins :-(……..HELP!!!!!!!!!

Hi everyone….is it a mean thought of myself to be beyond happy that I am finally weighing less than my sister ? LOL..I will explain why……… after I  had gained all this disgusting weight..both my mother and my sister would tease and make little jokes regarding my weight…….they didn’t think it was a big deal but to me it was..it STUNG LIKE HELL! I couldn’t bear the thought of going home for visits because of their  comments……I should have spoke up and said something more but I just felt that I couldn’t……well now I am weighing about ten lbs less than my sister and I am smaller than my mother……I feel beyond awesome about this…and when I went home a few months ago it had been my first visit since Christmas past…..It felt so good to hear my family make positive comments about my size/weight………It also feels great to be able to share clothing with my sister again!

Hi everyone..

I’m amazed that I’ve walked so much this week..some weeks I can walk for few days in a row but then slack off for a few days….

Got up Sat. morning ( after out dancing late all Friday night) and walked for 30 mins…..walked on Sunday morning for another 30 minutes…..Monday night walked for 50 minutes and today (Tuesday) to and from work…65 minutes….YAY ….let’s see if I can keep it up?!

Starting to notice a great change in my legs!!!!

***Update–walked to work today (Wednesday) approx 30 mins……..really wishing I had a gym buddy…the thought of going to a gym or anything else is so intimidating :S. There is even a ladies kickboxing near me but I just hate the thought of going at it alone :-(…Yes i know..I need more self confidence.

Ok everyone today is Friday.Yesterday I walked to and from work..so about 65 minutes again……….I didn’t walk to or from work today so feelin pretty guilty…I just FORCED myself to go for a long walk….50 minutes…….also feelin a bit tired but glad and refreshed that i did……it’s a beautiful summer evening out and the fresh air is unbelievable!

So tomorrow is Saturday..I have planned to get up bright and early and walk..let’s see if i can do it…..

update: its saturday…ten am..just went for a 30 minute walk and i pushed it up a notch and jogged 3 times throughout my walk….its a start!

So officially now i’ve walked for 8 days straight …whoo hoo!

-Don’t dig your grave with your own knife and fork.  ~English Proverb

(honestly people, how true is this??)

-People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas.~Author Unknown

-Reality check:  you can never, ever, use weight loss to solve problems that are not related to your weight.  At your goal weight or not, you still have to live with yourself and deal with your problems.  You will still have the same husband, the same job, the same kids, and the same life.  Losing weight is not a cure for life.  ~Phillip C. McGraw, The Ultimate Weight Solution: The 7 Keys to Weight Loss Freedom, 2003                              

-The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight, because by then your body and your fat are really good friends.  ~Author Unknown

-”A moment on the lips can be a lifetime on the hips.” Sal Simeon

-Gluttony is an emotional escape, a sign something is eating us. Peter De Vries

-Your body is the baggage you must carry through life. The more excess the baggage, the shorter the trip.
Arnold H. Glasgow