Archive for July 8th, 2008

Goal for this week: to walk for 7 days or more straight!

Hi everyone..

I’m amazed that I’ve walked so much this week..some weeks I can walk for few days in a row but then slack off for a few days….

Got up Sat. morning ( after out dancing late all Friday night) and walked for 30 mins…..walked on Sunday morning for another 30 minutes…..Monday night walked for 50 minutes and today (Tuesday) to and from work…65 minutes….YAY ….let’s see if I can keep it up?!

Starting to notice a great change in my legs!!!!

***Update–walked to work today (Wednesday) approx 30 mins……..really wishing I had a gym buddy…the thought of going to a gym or anything else is so intimidating :S. There is even a ladies kickboxing near me but I just hate the thought of going at it alone :-(…Yes i know..I need more self confidence.

Ok everyone today is Friday.Yesterday I walked to and from work..so about 65 minutes again……….I didn’t walk to or from work today so feelin pretty guilty…I just FORCED myself to go for a long walk….50 minutes…….also feelin a bit tired but glad and refreshed that i did……it’s a beautiful summer evening out and the fresh air is unbelievable!

So tomorrow is Saturday..I have planned to get up bright and early and walk..let’s see if i can do it…..

update: its saturday…ten am..just went for a 30 minute walk and i pushed it up a notch and jogged 3 times throughout my walk….its a start!

So officially now i’ve walked for 8 days straight …whoo hoo!

Dieting Quotes :-)

-Don’t dig your grave with your own knife and fork.  ~English Proverb

(honestly people, how true is this??)

-People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas.~Author Unknown

-Reality check:  you can never, ever, use weight loss to solve problems that are not related to your weight.  At your goal weight or not, you still have to live with yourself and deal with your problems.  You will still have the same husband, the same job, the same kids, and the same life.  Losing weight is not a cure for life.  ~Phillip C. McGraw, The Ultimate Weight Solution: The 7 Keys to Weight Loss Freedom, 2003                              

-The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight, because by then your body and your fat are really good friends.  ~Author Unknown

-”A moment on the lips can be a lifetime on the hips.” Sal Simeon

-Gluttony is an emotional escape, a sign something is eating us. Peter De Vries

-Your body is the baggage you must carry through life. The more excess the baggage, the shorter the trip.
Arnold H. Glasgow

 

The breaking point

I was at a friends house….late September…..and we were having our usual girly get together/hang out/ eat junk night.I decided to weigh myself.It was the BEST decision I could have made that night. What i read on the scale completely shocked me! 230 lbs! I wondered “who was this person” and “what have you done to yourself” I felt completely gross after pigging out and knew that it was now or never. I vowed to start October 1/o7.

I had joined Weight Watchers towards the end of college in 2002 and had lost aprrox. 15 lbs. I didn’t last very long on the program because I had moved back to my hometown and then out of Newfoundland to Ontario…it was just too hectic to keep up with all the planning and journaling with everything that was going on. I knew basically what i had to do and how the point system worked.

So since that October I’ve been doing the Points on my own and weighing in myself….I still follow the points and currently down to 156.5!!! It took lots of hard work and dedication but I keep telling myself “You deserve this and you are worth it!” I have started walking almost everyday and find it relaxes me and almost calms me…gives me time to think as well as get a good workout. Sometimes I feel like jumping for joy or screaming ” I DID IT!” but for now I think I’ll stick to doing my “happy dance” in my room :P!

Beyond Surreal

Sometimes I feel that its beyond surreal how much weight I have gone and really the size I  am now compared  to what i was……..Yes i see pics and I feel major differences but I guess I have wanted this for so long that it doesn’t seem real.

I haven’t been this size since I was in highschool..I graduated in 2000………….. and I probably weighed what i weigh now in grade 11..so really 9 years ago….I went to college and let myself go completely……sometimes i feel so angry and sad that I could let myself do this to ME!

On a brighter note,  I am beginning to buy a lot more clothes and this feels amazing—trying on something that i only dreamed of a year ago……but there are days that I look into the mirror and see this and see that….still not 100% satisfied….yes, sad i know :-(…does anyone else feel like this..is this even normal???

First Blog–A bit about myself :-)

Hello everyone……..this is the first blog I’ve ever written so I’m not 100% sure what to do OR if i’m doing it correctly..lol…….To start off I should introduce myself! I’m Angela…a 26 year old female from Newfoundland, Canada………..I am an Early Childhood Educator and work in a licensed childcare centre.

My boyfriend, Kenny, of almost two years works away in Alberta, Canada..and I only get to see him one week out of every month :-(…He is extremely supportive of the “new” me and sees a difference every time he is home….I honestly think that without his support I couldn’t have done this and I am beyond thankful that he has always thought of me as beautiful no matter my size or how much I have weighed…I can literally say he’s loved me through thick AND thin ..LOL…well almost thin :-).

I love being outside…..hanging out with my friends, whether it be movies/shoppings or clubbing once in a while–they are awesome and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. Well thats it for now!