I am having a horrible time losing this weight. It’s 100% my own fault and I am owning it. I am lazy and give myself permission not to exercise, eat right etc. I have NOT given up-which was my pattern in the past, but I WILL find something that works for me. I have been blogging everyday at http://anewbetterme.blogspot.com/ about my struggles. I have made some fantastic changes (mainly getting my house cleaned up-it was total chaos) and getting off the fast food train we were on. We rarely eat out or have fast food anymore. I’m not going to say “never” but I had been feeding my kids McDonald’s for lunch or dinner at least 4x a week. I am not proud of that, just honest. We have only had fast food 2x in the past 3 weeks-so that is a BIG change for us. I have also decided I need someone who will not allow me to make up excuses as to why it’s OK not to exercise. I have asked a friend (who thinks exercise is as important to your health as not smoking) to check in with me everyday to see what I have done exercise wise. It’s only been 5 days but so far so good. I go to the gym because I don’t want to admit to her that I’m already giving up. She has agreed to call me on any BS excuses I try to give her. I really hope this works, I have no idea what I am going to do if this fails me.
Posted on April 23rd, 2010 by tracyintn
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I can finally come here and post a loss in my weight. It’s only taken 3+ weeks to do it, how sad is that. I weighed in at 231 this morning-3.5 lbs down this week! I know I’m still super fat, but hey I am still excited about this. I have exercised 6 days a week for an hour and cut out sweets. This week I added in more fruits and veggies and strictly limited my breads/pastas. It helped. I have also noticed several changes in my clothes. I started out at a size 24 and this morning was able to put on a (tight) size 18. I couldn’t wear them out, but hey I could get them on and zipped-that’s more than I could have done a month ago.
Posted on February 8th, 2010 by tracyintn
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In the interest of full disclosure I ate sugar this week. I feel like I’m admitting to I smoked crack or drank a 5th of Mad Dog 50/50 under the overpass when I admit to that. I had a cupcake, 4 vanilla cookies and the worst was 4 Rice Krispies (in one sitting) throughout my week. There, I got that out there…I feel like I have to cop to it so that when I complain about not losing any weight AGAIN this week no one will go to my other blog and say “oh, no wonder she didn’t lose weight, she conviently failed to mention the SUGAR she ate”. But honestly even with that sugar I should have lost….I really just should have. I have been good about my food and my exercise is fantastic (at least I think it is). I deserved to have lost weight, but I’m trying not focus on that. I am trying to convince myself that it doesn’t matter. That my pants fit looser and I feel better and that’s enough. I am trying REALLY hard to not have the “diet” mentality. I don’t want to go to the store and buy the newest book on how to lose weight, which foods to eat and which foods are forbidden. I KNOW how to eat-let’s be honest, every single fat person out there KNOWS what they should and should not be eating. It has nothing to do with which combination of foods you eat or eating a certain number of purple vegetables a day. It has to do with eating less, cutting out (or limiting) sugary/fatty foods, eating fruits/veggies, drinking water and exercising. IT’s about eating normal healthy food in a normal healthy amount. I know this and have known it for years, but I LOVE food. So for years I have chosen to ignore that and go for the quick fix. I would rather take a pill or not eat carbs with protein or eat soup every meal (yes, I did try the soup diet once…..all soup every meal, everyday….not a fun one but better than the grapefruit diet I remember or the cabbage soup diet). I would rather lose 7lbs my first week and feel on top of the world and then eventually give up when I don’t see the pounds dropping off me “even though I’m following the diet”. Or lose the weight only to go back to my old habits and gain it all back because really-who in the real world is going to cook major time consuming meals 3x a day and have to put massive amounts of thought into which meals can be eaten when.
I really hope I’m not just fooling myself or making excuses. I really do want to lose this weight and I HATE that I haven’t lost any (ok, I did lose 1.5 lbs this month-but that was BEFORE I was really trying to lose). I want to change my life. I want to be healthy. I want to be NORMAL!!!! I want to look good and feel good. I don’t want to be the fat Mom forever or the fat Wife or the Fat ME anymore. I want to do this and do it right. I really think I am on the right track even though I have not lost any weight. I am now exercising 6 days a week-which is 6 more than I did before. I have cut out almost all sweets (I used to eat them everyday all day. If there were sweets in the house I would eat them for breakfast and lunch-I would eat 6 cookies at a time a couple times a day-I would eat until they were gone….so what I had this week is a HUGE improvement). I have been eating normal healthy food in normal portions. I do need to up my fruits/veggies though. So that is my plan for this week. Keep doing what I am doing and increase my fruits/veggies…PLEASE LET ME SEE A LOSS THIS WEEK!
For daily updates see my other blog….(http://anewbetterme.blogspot.com/)
Posted on February 1st, 2010 by tracyintn
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I know I haven’t been good about keeping this updated-I am GREAT on my other blog though (http://anewbetterme.blogspot.com/) of updating everyday (or more). I am doing a Biggest Loser Challenge with 2 friends and last Monday was our first weigh in. I got so MAD when I did not lose a single pound even though I had been to the gym almost everyday. It’s frustrating to exercise and not eat junk food and still not lose. But I’m not giving up-I need to remind myself that just because I exercised about 1/2 of the days out of this month that is only 15 or so. That is NOTHING in the big scheme of things. Not enough to change my life or body. I have the worst time wanting instantaneous results and get discouraged when I don’t see them. I am going to try to get out of this mind-set and just keep doing what I need to do to keep me healthy. The weight WILL come off if I just don’t give up!!
Posted on January 28th, 2010 by tracyintn
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I am the kind of person that gets all obsessed about eating right and exercising and then when I fail to see the results I want (as in NO WEIGHT LOSS) I end up craving sweets-even though I know that’s the last thing I need. So I have been to the gym everyday but one this week-an hour workout between the elliptical and bike. I feel so good but stupidly went several days when I just would not stay off the scale. So I would see I wasn’t losing anything (despite keeping right at 1600 cals/day) so I did eat more junk later in the week than I should have. But I am kind of ok with this. I am really trying to get out of the mind set of “diet” and more of lifestyle and I need to learn how to deal with these feelings of frustrations with things other than foods and when I do eat sweets to make good choices. So one night I was jonesing for something chocolaty and gooey and could not find anything. I rejected making cookies, brownies or some really great looking bars on the back of the condensed milk can. I knew if I made anything like that I would eat the whole batch and then have major regrets. SO while I did end up eating a sugar free turtle and a few other little things (that I can’t remember now) I at least knew myself and my limits. So I call that a success. I am really trying to stop worrying about the scale. I had a hysterectomy when I was 28 (I am 40 now) and have a really hard time losing weight now. IT’s not impossible and I’m not saying that’s the reason I am this fat (that can be blamed on massive amounts of cookies and candy) but it does make losing weight harder. So I am just going to keep on exercising, eating as healthy as possible and if I eat something that isn’t super good for me not let it get me down. Eventually this weight will have to come off me if I keep up the exercise and healthy eating, it just HAS to…..right???
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Posted on January 24th, 2010 by tracyintn
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I am still trying to change my life one day at a time. I started a Biggest Loser challenge with 2 of my friends-so far I have been to the gym almost everyday for a week and eaten about 1600 cals/day no sweets or snack food and I have lost ZERO lbs. How unfair is that? I am blogging everyday over at http://anewbetterme.blogspot.com/- two identical blogs is A LOT of work to keep up with.
Posted on January 20th, 2010 by tracyintn
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Keeping 2 diet blogs is way too much trouble. I am still at it-I even went to the gym for the first time today and did 42 min total exercise-which I thought was pretty good for my first time. I will come here and post periodically, but mainly I am posting daily (or more) on my blog I listed in my first post.
Week 1
Starting Weight: 236
Current Weight: 235
Total Lost: 1 lb
My goal is to lose AT LEAST 1 lb a week-anything over that will be bonus. I am concentrating on changing my life this time and not making this a weight loss race-been there/done that.
Posted on January 7th, 2010 by tracyintn
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Umm yea, in case you are wondering-turnips are NASTY in juice!!! My juicing book says “turnips are one of those vegetables that people either love or hate”….I am for sure on the HATE list. I used 2 turnips (because I didn’t think they would have much-if any-flavor (I did this without reading my juicing book), 3 carrots and 1 grapefruit. It was so gross it’s not even funny. It was kind of what you would expect a really strong bitter radish to taste like. I drank some (and assured the kids they did NOT want any), added some splenda and then tried drinking it with a straw. I finally just threw it away-it wasn’t worth it. YUCK! I will keep experimenting but never again with turnips!
Posted on January 2nd, 2010 by tracyintn
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It’s finally here, the official new year! I really hope we can all make the changes we want to this year. I (for once) did not forget to weigh in before eating/drinking this morning. I was watching the Barefoot Contessa a few days ago and she made what looked like a really good/healthy/hearty breakfast. It is granola (I used low fat), oatmeal, nuts, raisins (I used craisins) , fruit and a dollop of greek yogurt on top. I have been thinking about trying that for breakfast since seeing it. I made it today and it was pretty good. I think next time I will put a packet of splenda in the oatmeal though. She used fresh fruit and sprinkled sugar on it to bring out the juices. I used canned peaches, so it wasn’t sweet enough for me, but it wasn’t bad. I probably should get used to not eating things so sweet and just add more craisins instead of the splenda. My plan for the day is finish picking up (I got most of it done last night, but not all) downstairs and enjoy my family. I will eat healthy today-I have salad in the house, fresh fruit/veggies and several healthy meals picked out to cook tonight.
I hope everyone has a wonderful start to your new year!
Weight: 236
UPDATED: I did good today-but it’s only been day 1. I always (or almost always) do good the first day:) We went to a movie (Alvin and the Chipmunks with the girl chipmunks) and I DID NOT have any popcorn or soda!!! That was HUGE for me. At one point my son handed me his popcorn and I put my hand in it (thinking, one piece won’t hurt) but then I knew I wouldn’t be albe to stop at one or two pieces and didn’t even touch the popcorn. I handed it to my husband-out of sight out of mind (almost:) I was STARVING when we got out of the movie-I had fed the kids lunch before the movie but didn’t eat myself. So I stopped and bought some pita bread and fat free Ranch dressing and had a pita with some of my hummus, salad and ff dressing on top for lunch. I was still really hungry, so I had some baked chips with hummus (the worst I did all day). For dinner we had salmon risotto with dill and lemon paired with a salad. I used the plate method and only had a little bit of the rice (about the size of my fist). Jack LOVED the rice-seriously LOVED it. I was actually pretty shocked, but I don’t know why since he loves fish and rarely gets it (because it’s just not something I enjoy so I don’t cook it often-bad Mom I know). My daughter also liked it, but not as much as my son. He also ate all the salad I gave him-dinner was a smashing hit since he is by far my pickiest eater. I will be making it again-it was good,not fantastic for me but when both kids say they want the left overs for lunch I HAVE to make it again…haha. Shoot, I bet it would have been even better had I not forgotten the parm cheese!! Whoops, didn’t even realize until I put the recipe on here!
Salmon Risotto with Dill and Lemon
A divine no-stir risotto (that’s right, no stirring required!) with salmon, zucchini, peas, fresh dill, and lemon. We use canned Alaskan red salmon for this dish because it’s so convenient, comes from unpolluted waters, and is rich in health-giving omega-3 fatty acids.
3 tablespoons
extra virgin olive oil
1 onion—
finely chopped
2 cloves garlic—
finely chopped
1 teaspoon finely chopped lemon zest
1 zucchini (courgette)—sliced into rounds
1 cup
arborio rice
1/2 cup white wine
2 cups vegetable or chicken stock
1 tablespoon roughly chopped fresh dill
1 teaspoon sea salt
1/2 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
1/3 cup frozen green peas—thawed
7 oz (210g) canned Alaskan red salmon—bones and skin removed and broken into chunks
1 tablespoon lemon juice
1/3 cup finely grated Parmesan cheese
HEAT 2 tablespoons of the olive oil in a large saucepan over a medium heat and cook the onion for 5 minutes. ADD the garlic, lemon zest and zucchini and cook for another 3 minutes. ADD the rice and cook for a minute, stirring to coat the rice grains with oil. POUR in the wine and stock, add the dill, salt and pepper and bring to the boil. COVER with a lid, reduce the heat to low and cook for 18 minutes. ADD the peas and salmon on top and cook, covered, for another 2 minutes. STIR in the reserved tablespoon of olive oil, the lemon juice and cheese and mix until well combined.
Updated x2-I danced (and I use that term loosly) for 15 min to a pink concert on VH1. It’s a start:)
Posted on January 1st, 2010 by tracyintn
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I am ready for tomorrow. I went to the grocery store and spent A TON of money on fresh fruits/veggies and all kinds of healthy foods. I have lots of fresh produce to juice (made mango/pear/apple juice today and my son LOVED it). I will start my exercise on Saturday. I am R-E-A-D-Y to start!!
Posted on December 31st, 2009 by tracyintn
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