Somehow it’s been a long week, and it’s only Wednesday night. I’m working Thursday and Friday, then I’m off Saturday and Sunday because I’m going to my friends house warming party, then working Monday and Tuesday. I usually try to cram my work into the weekend so I can just bear it and get through and enjoy my four days off, but I’m starting Thursday so the week feels a little short.
It’s been an up and down week as far as weight loss efforts go. I ate very well on Monday and Nick and I bought a pull up bar to try.. P90X! We did the fit test, and I actually did okay on everything except the pull ups, ha. Oh, we don’t have weights yet, so we bypassed the curl ups, but I passed everything else.
We attempted to do the first day on Tuesday (Arms and Back) and uh… holy shit. We only made it through the first half because our arms were literally giving out when we were trying to do push ups. So many different kinds of push ups. It was BAD. Then we went to Cadi’s and swam for a bit. Then came my mistakes..
Olive Garden. On a VERY empty stomach. Dammit.
Salad, breadsticks, stuffed mushrooms, calamari, seafood portifino AND a daiquiri. Yeah, fail.
But there is nothing I can do now, except try to do better. I’ll be perfectly on track tomorrow and Friday. I will be drinking Saturday, but I’m going to try to control it and not let it lead to bad food decisions.
I am trying to stay in control of my emotions and not get that feeling that makes me want to give up. I can’t give up because I want this more than I even know I do.
I still hate what I see in pictures. I still hate how I feel in my clothes. I hate the number I see on the scale. I hate feeling heavy. I don’t want to be heavy anymore, so I have to take control of this NOW.
Back on the wagon tomorrow. 
Ohh, and for the reddit challenge I’m doing, the host posts a chart ranking everyone’s percent loss.. out of 493 people, I ranked 46 for week one. Feels GREAT! Just have to keep going!