21 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

Holy cow Batman!  Work is so busy and I haven’t had a single spare second to get on here and post!  I’m doing well still on my eating plan…not quite as strict as it is the holidays, but not face planting into a pile of fudge or anything either!

I’m almost done Christmas shopping…phew!  I can’t wait to be done because my bank account is hemorrhaging!  I need to stop the bleeding and fast 🙂  I’m excited for the girls to open their gifts, I think they will be quite pleasantly surprised at everything they are getting.

I’m happy I get to spend time with them Christmas day because it is in all actuality their father’s holiday this year but he is (for once) being quite gracious and offered to have them come over for 6-7 hours (I still don’t know what ulterior motive he has stashed away!)

I just found out today that we are getting a half day off on Friday paid…yippee!  A few extra hours to hang with the kiddos and get some things done!

We bought their father 2 new shirts, earmuffs (per his request) and are making him some homemade coasters with their photos on them, and quite possibly some homemade candy too.  It’s funny to me how much time and money I spend on behalf of the girls on him because he won’t spend a penny on me.  Oh well, I’m being the bigger person here and that’s what the girls are seeing 🙂

TTFN…sushi night with my girlfriends, like our own mini Christmas party!


15 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

I’m so glad it’s Thursday.  One day closer to the weekend.  I hope everyone has been having a good week.

I so enjoy this time of year.  I know it’s stressful…making sure you get all the gifts you need for all the people you need to give to, trying to locate those hard to find items, making sure you have enough money to cover all those purchases!  I enjoy making holiday goodies, I love people watching, being at the mall when it’s so bustling.  I LOVE the holidays!!!  I hope you all take the time to enjoy the good parts and not let the stresses ruin this time of year for you 🙂

I refuse to be a food nazi this time of year.  For the majority of the time I will eat the same way I have been eating, which is oodles healthier than I have in years.  But I absolutely refuse to be miserable and not enjoy myself.  I’m certainly not talking about diving face first into a pan of fudge, but if I decide I want to eat 1 Christmas cookie, or 1 piece of chocolate then I’m going to!!!  And I’m not going to worry about it either!  I ate one chocolate kiss last night and that’s weird because I usually don’t eat much milk chocolate, I am more of a dark chocolate girl.  But a few hours later when TOM started, I knew why!  Ugh, I hate TOM.

Man I hope I can make it until my next paycheck on the 20th!!!  I don’t recall ever being this broke before.  Seriously!  My mom volunteered to bring us some groceries this week but I told her I thought we could manage and then she made me promise to tell her if we needed anything at all.  We could definitely use some things, but it’s not like my parents are rolling in $ either so I don’t like asking them for help, even when they volunteer.

After the holidays I am going to see if I can figure out someplace to get my treadmill set up.  It’s just sitting in a corner of the garage right now and I would love to be able to use it, especially with it being so cold outside right now and I simply can’t stand to be out exercising in that cold.  I was so hoping that I could do a membership to the town rec center for Christmas for myself and my kids but I’m not sure it will be in the budget to get done.

Love, peace & happiness 🙂

Tuesday sushi night!

13 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

I had a case of the I can’t sleep’s last night.  I was up until 1am moving boxes into the garage, sweeping the floor, dusting tables, doing dishes.  It was weirdness.  I’m usually sacked out by 11.

Food yesterday (I was still sick to my stomach until around 3pm) but for lunch I had a lean pocket sandwich and for dinner I made a yummy turkey burger and had some triscuit crackers on the side.  I use the light hamburger buns and topped the warm burger with a slice of fat free swiss, some pickles, mustard, ketchup, olive oil light mayo, lettuce and it was mmm, mmm tasty!

I had to bake treats last night for my daughter’s cheer Christmas party that is today.  I baked peanut butter cookie dough in a mini muffin tin and then pressed a mini Reese’s pb cup into them.  It made exactly 24, which is the exact number I needed so I knew there was no way I’d eat any of them 🙂

Tonight I am meeting some former co-workers that I haven’t seen in months.  I wonder what they will think of my weight loss, or if they will notice.  Although, how could they not?  Anyway, we are meeting up for sushi but the kicker is I am flat ass broke.  I will probably just order one roll, whatever is cheapest, and not have anything to drink either.  It sucks being poor 🙁

Lunch today is an apple with some peanut butter to dip in and some homemade granola to roll it in and some turkey slices rolled up with a piece of cheese.  Mmm havarti 🙂

I’m starving, it’s past my lunch hour!  Have a great one!

Monday after the weekend!

12 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

I will run through my weekend chronologically since that seems easiest!

Friday – Christmas party.  Fun was had by all.  Teppanyaki is always a good time…I just enjoy watching the chef cook everything for you right there.  The dinner comes in courses.  First the bosses ordered up several different appetizers, plates of sushi, dishes of tempura fried vegetables, fried dumplings, fried egg rolls…do you see the theme?  Haha!  Anyway, I ate one piece of sushi and one piece of tempura fried zucchini, and one dumpling.  I should have skipped the dumpling because it really wasn’t even that good.  The broth was brought out next.  It’s made with green onions and mushrooms…always a hit with me!  Then a tiny little salad with some Japanese dressing on it…I thought it was too sweet.  Next the chef prepared the fried rice…the serving we all received was ridiculously huge.  Probably about 2 cups…I think I ate less than 1/4 cup.  I only used my chopsticks 🙂  Next were stir fried vegetables…yum!  I ate all of those…sprouts, onions, mushrooms, broccoli, red pepper.  Then the scallops and finally the piece de resistance!  Filet mignon.  It was heaven in my mouth.  Granted they cooked the scallops and the filet with butter and I knew as I was watching him cook it that I was going to regret eating it later because it would make me sick…and I was right.  I was sick the rest of the night at home 🙁  Oh well, I was not going to be a party pooper and I feel like I eat great 95% of the time so that I am able to enjoy the other 5% of the time!  We did our gift exchange next.  The bosses send their wives out to buy random things and have them all wrapped up and then we have to take turns choosing a gift to open or steal (we do it similar to a white elephant).  I ended up with 2 tickets to the movies, a $25 gift card to Target and a pedometer which I’m going to give to my dad for Christmas (my iPhone has one built in!)  My mom ended up with a rockin’ new waffle maker!  It was a great night 🙂

Saturday was a fairly lazy day.  I didn’t even shower until about 10pm.  I made my girls some breakfast that was about the extent of my day. The girls went to their dads at 8pm so I just fell asleep on the couch watching Christmas movies 🙂

Sunday was breakfast at my parents house.  You guessed it…waffles, haha!  I had 1/4 of a waffle, with some scrambled eggs and 1 piece of turkey sausage.  I ate before my 1pm window but sometimes it’s not worth arguing with my family about it.  I was still not feeling the greatest from my Friday night meal.

(ugh, I’m STILL feeling sick this morning)  If we had sick days offered I would most definitely be using one today.

I am happy to say that even though I didn’t workout all week I still had a small loss on the scale.  I’m down 1/2 a lb.  I will take it, especially because I feel like I ate like total crap this week.  I’m back on track and my knee feels about 1000x’s better so I will be working out this week.  I think I was just pushing myself too hard.  I’m going to ease back just a little to 3-4 times a week instead of 5-7 times a week.  I’m happy for all the support and comments I receive…keep them coming 🙂

Here’s hoping I feel better soon.  Otherwise I’m not going to be very productive!

Yay Friday!

9 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

Eek, my life has been so busy this week!  Sorry I haven’t been much of a poster 🙁  Lots of new projects at work, lots of things going on in the kids’ calendars to keep me running from point a to point b!

The guy finally came to trim the overgrown tree in the front yard last night.  You can finally walk to the front door without having to duck under tree branches.  You can also actually see all the lights we put up from the street!

So listen to this story.  Tuesday afternoon the young neighbor kid came over to the house and my 17 year old answered the door.  He asked if I was home and she said that I would be any minute.  He said to her that she looked old enough so he would just tell her.  He apparently works a late shift and gets home from work in the middle of the night and the previous night when he got home from work he heard something in his backyard.  When he looked he saw a man all dressed in black.  The guy knew that he’d been seen and proceeded to jump the fence into MY BACKYARD!  I was home alone that night because the girls were staying the night with their dad, but how fetching creepy is that???  The worst part is that he didn’t even call the police or come banging on my door.  I called the police instantly and told them what had happened and that I wanted extra patrols through the neighborhood.  Come to find out two days later from my 15 year old, she has a friend in our neighborhood a couple of streets over that had their house broken into a week ago.  Someone had broken the back slider!!!  I’m kind of freaking out!  My dad came over right away with a big chunk of wood to block the slider door (mine was actually broken and you could just bump it open!!!)  Creepy horrible people!  What is this world coming to?

Anyway, onto some more good news.  I was able to scrape together enough money to get some gas in my car (yay!), get a little bit of food for the house (yay, yay!!), and take us out to dinner last night (yay, yay, yay!!!)!  My girls and I have a tradition of going out once a month for dinner.  We didn’t go in November at all because I was saving up for Christmas shopping.  We made a rule that we can’t go to the same place 2 times in a row and that we have to try to always go somewhere different.  In October we went to Oregano’s so last night they wanted to go to Rubio’s.  For those of you that don’t know, Rubio’s is a fresh tex-mex type restaurant…semi-fast food.  I got the grilled veggie burrito and ate half of it.  It was really good, full of grilled zucchini, onions, jalapenos, red peppers, black beans…deliciousness 🙂  The only side that comes with it is chips but I didn’t eat those.  🙂  I feel like I was treating myself and it was still healthy.

Tonight is my office Christmas party and I’m allowed to bring a guest.  This year I’m bringing my Mom 🙂  I took my Dad last year.  We are going to a teppanyaki type restaurant, fun!  I love teppanyaki.  I already checked out the menu and I’m going to get the filet with scallops.  Scallops are my favorite seafood next to crab.  Sweet and juicy little nuggets of ocean yumminess!  And filet mignon?  My favorite cut of steak, plus it’s lean.  I’m sure there will be some sushi appetizers, which I adore!  It should be a really good time 🙂  The bonus part about going out with my office is that they are all Mormon so no one drinks, so I won’t feel any pressure to have a bunch of cocktails with dinner and go over on my calories!  (I’m the only person in the office that’s not!)  Not that I never drink around them.  I do, but right now I’m rarely drinking because the calories are too high and also the alcohol gets in your bloodstream and makes it difficult for you to burn any fat for over 24 hours!!!  No thanks!!!

I’m happy to say that on day 5 of not walking my knee is starting to feel a little bit better.  It hasn’t been popping quite as much this morning.  It’s really weird but I can feel something moving around in there.  I put one hand on my right knee and one on my left and bend and straighten my legs and the sore one, the right one, DEFINITELY feels different.  There is something moving in there!!!  Regardless, I’m planning to start my Bob Harper DVD this weekend, wish me luck 🙂  It looks like a killer!

My little one’s eye was sore last night and this morning her eye is swollen.  It’s not pink eye or anything.  She has had strange eye issues since she was a baby.  She gets really crusty yucky stuff built up at the base of her eyelashes.  I think she was just picking at it and maybe got it infected.  I yell at her anytime I see her picking it.  She’s supposed to just put hot damp cloths on them to clean them but she’s just a kid so sometimes she just picks at it!  I will probably end up taking her to the doctor tomorrow morning just to have it checked out and make sure that’s all it is.  I swear, the strangest things happen to her.  One day I will tell you the other story about her health…weirdness!!!

Have a happy healthy low calorie weekend 🙂

Wednesday and a confession

7 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

OK, so I’ve done it.  For the first time since I started this weight loss journey.  I ate outside of my preset window.  Normally I only eat between 1pm and 7pm and that really has been great for me, but last night after work I had my daughter’s violin concert and we didn’t get home until 7:30 and I was just too darn hungry to skip dinner so I ate after 7!  I struggled with the decision for about 15 minutes before I just said to heck with it I’ve gotta eat!  I hope it doesn’t negatively impact me somehow but at the time I didn’t care, I wanted food!  I sort of felt like I was cheating.  I know this probably doesn’t make sense to anyone who doesn’t do “IF”  but that’s what it felt like to me.

Yesterday’s food :

Lunch – turkey meatball soup and polenta cakes

Snack – protein bar

Dinner – whole wheat flatbread with 1 piece of havarti, 3 pieces of precooked bacon, tons of shredded lettuce, and 1 tbsp light olive oil mayo.  Sort of like a BLT but I didn’t have any T!  Plus some dark chocolate pomegranate drops.

I am so flat broke right now it’s not even funny.  We have little to no food in the house and I have approximately $0 in my bank account right now and don’t get paid again until the 20th.  I do have quite a stash of Lean Pockets in my freezer so for the foreseeable future that is what I will be having for lunch.  I hate that it is a processed product but it’s all I have right now.  Today I brought another bowl of soup to go along with it.  I will have to do the best I can with what I have.

My knee is still Rice Krispies today, you know, snap, crackle, pop!  I wish I had health insurance so I could have a Dr. check it out.  I hate that this is my 3rd day in a row without working out 🙁  It’s really weird.  My knee would randomly do this about once every month or two but it started last week and has been that way every day since.  I pushed through the pain last week and worked out every day but I feel like my bones are grinding away the cartlidge in my knee or something and I don’t want to do more long term damage!  I’m hoping that by taking a week off my knee can have some time to heal a bit and I can get back at it!!!  This week is all about maintenance to me…I don’t expect a loss next weigh-in without working out at all, so I am just hoping to maintain the same weight.  I am going to start doing just some sit-ups and push ups tonight because that is something I can do without my knee.

I hope everyone is having a great hump day!


6 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

I only have a few minutes before I have to head out of here for my daughter’s violin concert.  I’ve been busy with work today.  I was handed a new weekly project so I have been focusing on that (wow! actually work, at work?!)

I haven’t been able to walk for the past two days due to my clicking, popping and locking knee.  It’s a little bit frustrating to be honest.  I am going to try to find something else I can do that doesn’t bother my knee much over this next week.

I will try to pop in later tonight and update this with my meals for today!  Have a great night 🙂

O Christmas Tree, O Christmas Tree

5 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

Red & Silver theme tree

She’s so pretty 🙂

I’ve done it

5 Dec 2011 In: December 2011

I knew it would happen eventually, it always does.  I hit a plateau this week.  No loss.  Bummer.  I’m OK about it, if maybe a little bit bummed.  I would be lying if I didn’t say I was at least a little bit disappointed.  I work really hard choosing the right foods to eat and I walk 5 days a week.  I will admit that maybe my walking wasn’t quite up to the speed it has been, but my knee has been killing me for a little over a week now and I just can’t maintain the speed I was at once.  I even had to cut about 3/4 of a mile off my route yesterday because it was bothering me so much.  I am not going to KILL myself to get this done.  I know it isn’t necessary.  But it’s not as fun, that’s for sure.  I knew the minute I got out of bed this morning that I wasn’t going to have a great weigh-in.  I just felt it.  Is that weird?  I was imagining more of a 1/2 lb loss or something, not none all together.  No big deal.  Maybe I will have a bigger loss next week because I stalled this week.

How was everybody’s weekend?  Mine was great.  We got our Christmas tree on Friday evening and decorated it on Saturday.  Our 1st real tree, not fake!  We got a beauty of a 7 foot noble fir.  The house smells so good.  I am taking the best care of it.  Bought the “tree food” and check the water daily.  My girls were dying to do a “themed” tree this year instead of our usual family ornaments.  So I caved in.  They decided to go with a silver and red theme.  We had 2 boxes of silver ornaments already so when we went to Walmart to buy some tree lights (because our fake tree that broke last year had them built in) we got a couple boxes of red ornaments and some cute little dangly red glitter snowflakes and silver glitter icicles.  I must admit that it is a gorgeous tree.  Here is a picture:


Anyway, the cheer competition was good.  Much shorter than the last one.  The girls took 3rd place.

We did a Saturday night dinner with my family instead of our regular Sunday meal because no one else was able to attend this week and it worked out better for the girls and I to do it on Saturday.

I spent yesterday outside with my youngest hanging Christmas lights outside.  I am a VERY Christmas-y person, but I absolutely despise hanging outdoor lights.  It’s always stressful.  I absolutely hate being on a ladder too.  But we finally did it.  My dad does have to come over and hang one last strand over the peak above the garage because I am really short and even on the ladder I just can’t reach.  My little one is happy and that’s all that matters.  I told her I must REALLY love her to spend my day doing that, haha!  She knows I don’t particularly enjoy it.  After we started by getting out all of our lights and testing them we had to throw away 2 full garbage bags full of broke nets and light strands.  We tried forever to replace bulbs and get them working but we would get one section fixed and then another section would crap out.  I gave up after a few hours.  Not worth my time.  We had plenty of lights still to decorate the front of the house and I am not spending any more money this year on decorations.

So in between all this decorating, of course I watched football.  How ’bout them Cardinals?  Woohoo!  There is nothing I love more than beating the Cowboys!

The end of another glorious week

2 Dec 2011 In: November 2011

Friday, glorious Friday.  How I’ve missed you.  I crave you.  But you tempt me.  Only visiting once a week.  You are such a tease.

I am in such a good mood lately, for the most part.  I feel so alive.  And so different from the shell of a girl that was left broken and I thought, alone.  I am not broken.  I am healing.  I am not alone.  I am loved.  I have amazing friends.  Fantastic family.  Beautiful children.  I couldn’t be alone if I wanted to.  I have inner peace and that is something I don’t think I have EVER had before.

I made the most delicious pumpkin turkey chili last night.  My girls absolutely loved it.  I love when I can sneak in an extra veggie or two without them even knowing.  It makes me feel like a better Mom <3

Lunch today was leftover pumpkin chili with a dollop of light sour cream and some guacamole hummus.  I truly have NO idea what I’m going to do about dinner, but as of this moment, I’m still stuffed and it’s about 4:30pm, so I can’t even fathom eating another bite right now.  We shall see.

Weekend plans.  Not many.  Cheer competition tomorrow morning.  Dog sitting tomorrow night.  Hopefully, fingers crossed, getting our Christmas tree up!  Last night didn’t work out so I’m shooting for tonight 🙂

Have a happy, healthy, lovely weekend!